Past

Jen

We are in the car and on the way to our destination. Lucas won't tell me where we are going because he wants it to be a surprise.

In no time, I'm looking out the window to see the iconic structure of one of the most famous theme parks. "Really?" I say excited. "We are coming here?" My voice squeaks. My happiness is short-lived because there's no way I can afford this. "We can't there's no way I can afford to pay this back."

"It's a birthday present Jen that doesn't need to be paid back," Lucas says in a pleading voice trying to persuade me.

"I can't accept this." I turn away from him and look out the window. It's quiet for some time we remain parked and no one moves.

For some reason, I need Stan's approval and I don't know why. I direct my attention to Stan his eyes soften he smiles and nods toward Lucas. Feeling a weight off my shoulders I happily decide to accept. "Okay, since it's a birthday gift and because you want to go."

"Yes!" Lucas says ecstatic. "Let's hurry up and get in line before they let people enter." He lightning speed exits the car and pulls me out after him. I begin laughing a smile taking up my whole face. He tugs me along and he begins running and I almost fall over. I catch my footing and start running with him.

A lady is handing out maps so Lucas takes one excitedly. "What do you want to do first?" He opens the map and leans into me so I can see clearly.

"Well, I've never been here before. Let me read the little descriptions." I point my finger to the map and drag my finger along the words.

"This one sounds interesting it's an educational ride about the study of the cosmos and what was learned from it. It's just as we walk in."

His eyes grow wide with awe. "I'm excited about this ride! Going there first sounds like a great plan. Where do you want to go after that?"

"Well, this movie is also amazing, let's go there. It's close to the other."

"Good ideas, I have lunch planned at a restaurant I've always wanted to go to here. There's a ride near there that's themed the same. So after all those rides, it will be time for lunch.

"After lunch, I want to go on this ride because it is one of my favorite movies. Can we do that ride after? Plus I heard that the line is long because the ride is popular. Depending on the times of the line maybe we can get on twice.

"Oh, I love those movies. That's a great plan."

"It also says here that there is a lightning show and a laser light show at certain times. We don't want to miss those." I say excited. "There are the two big roller coasters in the park I want to do."

"Oh no, you're not getting me on any roller coasters." His eyes grow wide.

"What's the point in coming if you're not going to ride all the rides? We got to do them all."

"I -- I -- I can't." He looks away sadly. I think he feels like he's disappointing me.

"Have you ever ridden one?" I ask softly.

"No, but--" He starts to say so I cut him off.

"You should try it once and if you don't like it you don't have to do it again," I pull him to me. "They are not as scary as you think. They are how you make me feel fun, free, and thrilling." I kiss him on both cheeks.

He looks into both of my eyes nervously. "Okay, you're right. But don't be upset when we need to take the time out to buy me a change of shorts." My head tilts back and I laugh so loud people are turning to look at us.

I look back to Lucas and he is looking at me with so much admiration I'm left stunned for a moment. He genuinely and truly likes me as much as I like him. It startled me because I never thought it could be true. I thought this was just something he does with many girls. Maybe it still is. But he sure makes me feel special.

Stan comes back with our tickets and hands us each one. I feel a pit in my stomach because that is a lot of money he spent on me. It makes me uneasy.

They begin letting people in and Lucas grabs my hand eagerly dragging me to an empty stall no one else has gotten to yet.

We hand our tickets over and the woman says "Have fun!" and he takes off pulling me along. I have to start running again to keep up. I'm laughing until we get into a line.

We're one of the first ones because this isn't as popular as a ride but it sounds awesome.

The building is grand and elaborate it's inside the iconic structure that looks like a giant pure white futuristic dome. There's a large sparkling silver infinity symbol on the front entrance.

The anticipation of what the ride has to unfold is making me jitter with excitement. I can tell by looking at Lucas he is feeling the same thing. His eyes are looking around in wonder they are sparkling with joy. It makes him look even more sexy than usual.

He is still holding my hand he hasn't let go. I look down at them and my stomach flutters. I look back at him because I want to see his beautiful face as he takes everything in. Instead of taking in his surroundings, he is gazing at me his eyes taking on a serious look. He pulls me to him kisses the back of my hand and hugs me.

"I'm so happy to be doing this with you," He whispers into my ear. "I've always wanted to come here but being here with you makes it even more special." His mouth was so close to my ear that it made each word tickle in a pleasurable way. He kisses my earlobe and then directs us towards the ride's car. There is a moving platform so we rush to get in our cart and Stan takes the one behind us.

The ride is so engaging that I barely notice anything else. My eyes sway to each side of the cart. Animatronics, scents, and lights all capture my attention. The ride starts with the formation of the planets and ends with us seeing glimpses into the future. Futuristic cars and expeditions to other planets are shown as our car passes by.

We sit in the semi-darkness and Lucas leans his head in and begins kissing my neck all over. It tickles because of the fake beard. The light of the exit where we disembark is coming up but the cart is halted. He trails his hand down the front of my chest just barely touching my breast. His hand travels further and grips my exposed thigh. "This fucking dress." He murmurs while continuing to kiss my neck. I make a sound of approval.

His hand raises higher so that it's under my dress and he grips my thigh again. I gasp and tilt my head further to give him access. He groans and kisses even more parts of my neck. The cart starts to move and we are at the point of exit. He makes a sound of frustration. We exit and are now back outside in the blazing heat.

We are starting to walk towards our next ride which is close by. It's a ride based on a movie about a motorcycle club. I hook my leg up over the motorcycle which is hard with a dress. Lucas's eyes are wide open staring at my legs cause more is exposed. The motorcycle takes off and begins zipping through the city streets a cop car is chasing after us. The sirens are blaring, lights flashing, the screeching of breaks as the bike peels out. It's all overwhelming but awesome all at once. The ride is over too soon and we are back outside.

"Let's head over to where we are having lunch," Lucas says grabbing my hand and pulling me. I smile because it's cute how excited he is. "Our lunchtime is up first we can do the ride next door after."

As soon as we walk into the restaurant we are blown away. The theme is as if you're on a spaceship traveling through our solar system. There is a screen all around the room so you can see the planets as you pass by and rotate around them. I look at Lucas and his eyes are wide and his mouth is open in shock.

Our seat is directly next to the window. Stan takes the table behind us to give us some space. The menu's food all sounds strange. We both ordered weird things and are going to share them.

The food comes out and it looks odd. The steak is green and has clear noodles on top with a purple swipe of cream on the plate. I smile at Lucas like this is ridiculous but he is snapping pictures of his food and licking his lips it's adorable. My fish is lit up by light-up blue ice cubes and it's in a blue broth.

"What the fuck is this?" I hear Stan say from behind us and I crack up laughing. "What the fuck is on my burger?" I snort loudly and guffaw.

Stan gently elbows me from behind. "Shut up, Jen." And he starts laughing himself.

Surprisingly the food is delicious and the best I've ever had. Lunch took longer than we thought we had been here for an hour and a half.

We get in line at the ride next door. It's a space-themed ride. Lucas is so excited he is looking around everywhere in the queue. The line is long so we have seventy-five minutes to wait.

I'm sitting on the metal rail to try and rest my feet when Lucas walks over to me. Having taken in all his surroundings his attention is now on me. He takes my hand and pulls me down from the railing. Our bodies are pressed together and I can feel all of his erection against me.

He whispers in my ear "I love you in this dress." My heart stopped because the first part of what he said was 'I love you' and my heart started suddenly beating so fast I felt faint.

Lucas's eyes show he didn't even realize what he said and how he said it. He is just so enamored with me I don't think it even crossed his mind. I try to swallow the knot in my throat.

He is looking at me so intensely that it makes a feeling of fire burst through my body. Leaning in he tries to press his lips on mine but I slightly turn my head.

He pulls back and his eyes look hurt and confused. I don't know how to explain to him how if I kiss him I'll never want to stop. The thought of him leaving halts me. I've never experienced my first kiss. I want my first time to be with him but I don't want to be left broken.

I can feel my heart already splitting into pieces. Tiny pieces hovering and separated from where they once were. Each piece is his and without him, they can't be pieced back. I push him back gently and put some space in between us. I walk away and stand at the opposite wall.

I'm starting to feel like I'm choking and my throat is tight. I grab it not realizing what's happening to me. I've never felt this way before it's leaving me scared. My breathing has become shallow. I feel cool even though we're outside in the heat. My hand is trembling and I grip the railing until my knuckles at turning white. I turn away so he can't see.

Stan notices though and he looks at me like he can see down to my soul. My face crumbles and with a shaky hand I wipe away a tear. Stan looks at me with worry and sympathy in his eyes. I take a bunch of deep breaths and get my emotions under control. Putting a fake smile on my face I look back to Lucas. His gray eyes are dim, empty and he is carefully observing me.

We step inside the building and we are at the halfway point. Lucas's eyes are watching me like a hawk. Fuck it. I rush over to him with purpose in my eyes. I quickly place my hands on both sides of his face.

Crushing my lips to his my mind thinks of nothing but him and this kiss. It's a desperate all-consuming kiss that shows I've wanted this the whole time. His hands are roaming my bare back pressing me closer so there's no possible space between us.

My tongue enters his mouth and I hear him moan on my lips. It makes me feel frantic I remove my hands from his face and place them in his back pockets. I press him against me even though there's already no space between us.

He tries to move away from me but I keep him at my mouth. "I need to bre--breathe," he laughs and reluctantly I let him go. Our eyes connect and I know he can notice the flames of need in my eyes. Both of our chests are rising and falling quickly. He is looking at me so intensely my pussy throbs. I've never felt that before but I like it.

"Okay, you two. The line is moving hurry up." Stan says while looking at us. We ignore him and continue staring into each other's eyes. He pulls Lucas by his shirt and I follow. Lucas's eyes are still on mine and he is tripping over his feet trying to keep up with Stan.

It's almost our turn for the ride and Lucas comes like he's going to kiss me. "Oh no you don't," Stan pulls him away. "It's our turn."

Stan gets in first followed by Lucas then me. "The person in the middle controls the speed and direction the space shuttle goes." The worker says to us.

Lucas gets so excited he starts bobbing up and down. It's so adorable I want to kiss him again but it's not the time. The door to the mock shuttle closes and instantly Lucas uses max speed and stops short at Saturn. He flies into the rings and dodges rock and maneuvers through the dust obscuring the screen. We begin circling the planet Lucas's eyes are in wonder and he starts entering the planet.

"Oh wow, look at the core! Did you know it's hotter than the surface of the sun!" Lucas bursts out randomly into the quiet. The ride zooms us back to Earth and we disembark the shuttle. "That's it? I want to do it again!" Lucas pouts. I smile at him with adoration in my eyes.

Stan's phone rings and Brian is shouting from the other end "Where is he? He has an interview in the lobby in 30 minutes! After that, he has two phone interviews. Bring him back here, now!"

"I'm not going," Lucas says with an indignant look.

"Lucas you already paused your tour five days. Anything else you'll be in deep shit. You need to pretend you're sick during the interviews with a hoarse throat." Stan says pissed.

Lucas looks at me out of the corner of his eye. Did he pause his tour to be with me? I look at him with both eyebrows raised. He gives me a shy smile.

"We're leaving, that's final," Stan says and starts to pull Lucas out. Lucas slaps his hand away from him.

"Brian is right, I am ruining things for you," I say with sadness.

"No, No, If anything you're helping me," He says panicked and pulling me towards him.

"We need to go to your interviews." I move past him and begin walking out of the building.

"Jen, Jen, wait up!" I don't stop until we are out of the park and waiting for the car. The car pulls up and I walk to the other side and enter.

Lucas gets in on the other side and looks at me like he's pissed. "I didn't want to leave,"

"I'm not going to be the cause of ruining your future,"

"What if you're my future?" He says angry.

"Don't say shit like that when you're leaving in four days." I raise my voice and then look out the window.

He goes to say more but Stan stops him. "She's right Lucas, let it go." The ride is quiet the rest of the way. We rush to the hotel room and Lucas gets changed.

"Will you be here when I get back?" He says his voice breaking.

I look at him like he's ridiculous. "Of course,"

A/N: I suggest listening to "Look At Me" By Carrie Underwood