It is said

We accept the love

We think we deserve.

I think that is complete bull.

We accept the love we have know.

We accept the love we grew up with.

We accept the love we expect.

And that is the reason

I make excuses for the actions

Of those around me

When they do abusive things

Or say things that shatter me

Or tell me how worthless I am.

Because that is the only love I know.

The love I know is a fist to the ribs.

The constant reminder of how ugly

And fat

And unattractive

And stuck up I am.

The love I have learnt is the type

That causes me to brush off comments

About how I am a bitch

And a whore

And selfish.

The type of love I have been exposed to

Is the type the strikes you when your down

And sometimes cares enough

To give you a helping hand up.

And that's the type of love I accept.

95% abuse, 5% tolerance.

So when people ask me

Why I put up with what I did

And was friends with that person

I tell them

That it's because it's all I've ever known.