The waitress places down our order 

My heart sinks

When I see what you've ordered for me 

A medium hot chocolate 

With cream and marshmallows

I give you a weak smile 

And you grin back, your dimples deepening 

The scoreboard illuminates in my head

350ml of milk - 156 calories

3 tsp of cocoa powder - 12 calories 

1 splenda packet - 0 calories (still has energy though) 

5 marshmallows - 115 calories 

1 tbsp whipped cream - 52 calories 

Total - 335 calories 

I wince 

That's 165 calories off of my daily allowance 

No

My old daily allowance 

My new, medically prescribed allowance is 1,400

It makes me sick 

To even think of that many molocules of fat entering my body

I want to cry 

As the fattening liquid 

Slips down my throat 

But all I can see is your grin 

At me being normal, old Kat again 

But I'm already figuring out how to burn off

Even more of myself