I'm forgiving myself for loving you.
No matter how many times I try to stop- I really try. But you're an addiction and I understand how my brain makes me want you. It's nothing I have power over. I need to stop beating myself up over something I can't change. I forgive myself for being in love with you.
I know that seeing your name makes my heart race and if it's been longer than usually my chest starts to constrict. You're like a hit of dopamine and I can't control when the euphoria comes and leaves.