seunghoon had to tell her, he just couldn't further hide it. by now he knew exactly how yeji had felt, when she said, that her heart was tearing up from the feelings she couldn't show.

it wasn't even any special day and seunghoon didn't even want to make it seem special. they had met up like usually and were roaming the shopping mall at 11pm.

suddenly he stopped walking in the middle of the way between two shops. the blonde turned around and raised and eyebrow at him.

it came although, it wasn't the right moment for it. nothing about them was right, so it truly didn't matter. 

"i love you."

"don't do that to yourself"

yeji felt too guilty. the sobs already started dwelling in her throat.

before she could collapse, seunghoon was already there and held her in his arms. "i told you, i'm here when you need me. i don't care if you don't feel the same."

"that's a lie." she managed to mumble. "it's not like i don't want that, but i'm so scared of losing you one day."

seunghoon lightly patted her head. "then let's just not fall apart." people were staring at them and he turned around slightly, so they won't get to look at yeji.

shit, why did i have to make her cry.

"do you really want that?"

"well we're already fucked up enough."

so she kissed him, like she had never kissed anyone before and this time it wasn't just to make her ex jealous.