They sat in the car, staring into one another's eyes. Messing with each other's fingers, giggling every now and then. The only light source coming from the moon and the stars. That's all they needed; well that and each other.

They'd been seeing each other for over a year now. He still hadn't left his wife. He was in love with this other person but he couldn't just up and leave his wife. She depended on him, not just financially but emotionally too. 

He wasn't happy with her. Not only that but he wasn't sexually attracted to her. That's not to say she wasn't beautiful or sexy — she  was, he just wasn't attracted to women. He didn't find any of this out until he'd met his lover. He took one look at his lover and immediately knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him. 

He meet his lover at this cafe near his job. He was a barista. Jaebum was a frequent customer there. They wound up talking one night after his shift. At first, the older thought he'd just made a new friend but that was not the case. He soon found himself thinking of the barista very often. He found himself very excited whenever he went to get coffee or whenever they texted.

He loved the feeling. He'd never felt that with any girl he'd ever dated, not even his wife.

One night, while they were hanging out at the coffee shop, the older decided to take him on a date. Of course, the barista agreed and a year later, here they were. Together and going strong.

Being with Youngjae, Jaebum was definitely at his happiest. Sure they fought every now and then, but who didn't? He was the one he loved oh so very much. 

That's not to say his wife didn't love him. She did, but he didn't love her the way he loved his little sunflower. He loved his wife like a friend. You shouldn't love someone like that. Not someone you are married to at least. 

When he first met Ra Mi, she was the nicest, most sweetest, person he'd ever met. They met at a bar. He'd gone there to get smashed. He had a horrible week and needed to bow off some steam. He got canned for yelling at another employee for not doing their job. Which didn't make any sense whatsoever. 

Anyway, she approached him and bought him a drink and started to flirt with him, naturally, he flirted back. Years later, he proposed to her and here they are, ten years later and married...happily according to her. 

How was he supposed to know it would turn out like this? He hadn't experimented until he met his now lover. 

Youngjae had noticed the other was gay the minute he met him. Whenever Youngjae smiled at him, the other would get all blush-y like a tomato. It was adorable. The sunflower loved it. 

Youngjae continually flirted with him. Trying to get the other to finally ask him out. What our little sunbeam didn't know was the Mr. chubby cheeked squirrel was married and married to none other than his best friend in the entire world. In fact, the little flower didn't find any of this out until three or four months into the relationship. 

When he did find out, it was a little too late. He was already fully invested in the other. He really say a future with that person. 

Problem was, the other hadn't told his wife about the relationship, nor had he come out yet. Thus leaving her to assume the marriage was in perfect condition. Oh boy, was that wrong of her to think. No matter how much Youngjae had pleaded his lover to tell her about the affair, he would always tell him not yet. 

He needed to find the right time to tell her. 

Right now though, the older just wanted to spend his time with his lover. To forget whatever problems they faced, including his wife. Even if it was just for a few minutes. Luckily, every time he was with the other male, he managed to forget everything. 

They got out of the car and were laying on the hood of it. Looking up admiring the beautiful moon and stars the good LORD had created. That what they were doing until someone's phone rang. They sighed heavily fully knowing who it was. 

"I'm not going to answer, this is the third time in the last hour." He said. He did feel guilty about it but it was the third time. He couldn't help the way he felt. He wasn't going to apologize for it either. 

Youngjae rubbed his lover's hand sweetly, "She's going to get worried. Answer." The other nodded not wanting to make his bean upset. 

"Hello?...No, I'll be home soon...I'll be there on time...okay...me too." With that he hung up the phone before shoving it into his pocket.

Youngjae sighed heavily. "Why don't you just tell her? We wouldn't have to sneak around, she wouldn't mess up our date night, no one would feel guilty about anything. For all you know, she might not even be happy in the marriage." 

"Oh yeah, that's why she threw a tenth anniversary party last weekend." He replied sarcastically. 

Youngjae rolled his eyes, "Sorry for trying to help." he got off the hood of the car and headed into the passenger's side of the car. Jabeum knew he pissed off his boyfriend. He sighed and went to his sided of the car.

He drove the younger home. When they got there, Jaebum turned to the passenger's side expecting to get kiss from the otherbut instead was greeted by a door slamming in his face.  The older got off the car and approached the other. "Look, I'm sorry I snapped at you. But telling her isn't as easy as you seem to think it is. She depends on me for everything. She needs me, Jae..."

Youngjae crossed his arms and huffed. A cute pout gracing his pudgy face. "I get that, but I need you too. The longer we hide this the more she gets hurt. Let's tell her." 

Jabeum furrowed his brows, "You know what?...I'll see you Friday, Jae." He got into his car and drove off.

All he could think about on the way home was how he made his blessing from GOD was mad at him. He knew he needed his too but he couldn't leave his wife just yet.

When he got home, his beautiful wife greeted him with a huge smile on her face. "Dinner is one the table, I just finished it." He smiled at her solemnly which she didn't seem to notice. She served him his meal and kissed his cheek. He smiled once more. 

It was a fairly quiet dinner. But that wasn't unusual. Even when they were dating, there wasn't much talk during meal times. 

"About the next two weeks," Jabeum started. "I have business trip." She looked at him with slight confusion. This was the first she had heard about any business trip. But she nodded her head anyway. 

"I'll get you your things later...Where to though?" 

"Athens, Greece. I'll be back after your birthday but when I get back we can celebrate it then, okay?" She smiled enthusiastically. He grinned before getting up and heading to the living room.