When I wake up the next morning, I feel something heavy laying on my waist and a thumb pressing into the side of my body softly. I open my eyes slightly, seeing Harry's arm wrapped around me tightly, his face nuzzling you into the crook of my neck softly.

I enjoy his breath tickling my skin for a while, feeling his hand lay on my tummy, moving up and down with every breath I take.

It's a little lovely.

I move away though because my tummy suddenly feels a little weird. Maybe it's because I haven't eaten yet today.

"Oh", Harry says, moving away on his own, "'m sorry."

"No, don't worry", I whisper, my eyes still closed, "I didn't mind. I mean, eh, I did. Like, I didn't. It didn't bother me when I was sleeping."

I hear Harry chuckle into my hair before he moves away completely and suddenly, I feel a bit lost and cold and lonely.

I try to sleep for a bit again afterwards, ignoring the feelings, but Harry apparently has other plans.

"Louis", Harry says for the thousandth time in the last two minutes, "Louis, Louis, Louis."

I groan and try to cover my ears with my pillow. Harry rips it out of my hands and shakes my shoulder. "Wake up, for fucks sake. Louis. Wake up. Louis. Now."

I open my eyes just to glare at him angrily before closing them again. "Louis, for fucks sake. It's eleven. If you wanted to spend your whole holidays sleeping, you could've stayed at home."

"Or I could've left you at that stupid rest area", I grumble, eyes still closed.

Harry snorts and shakes my shoulder again. "I know you love being in my company, don't lie. Plans for today?"

I admit my defeat by opening my eyes, wiping them with my hands once before shaking my head. "I think I planned on sleeping a little more in my holidays, Harry. You know, have a day of rest."

He rolls his eyes and takes a bite from a muesli bar. "Sure. Then let's just drive today and see how much we can get done. I feel like we're not really moving forward anyways. You wanted to be at the coast within the next five days or something."

I nod. "I know. I think we drove a little too far into west, to be honest. Yeah, let's make up for some driving today."

I smile a little bit at him nodding excitedly about this boring plan and reach out my hand, signalling for him to get me something to eat.

He hands me a chocolate bar and we finish eating in silence before using the restroom again and packing all of our things into the back so we're able to sit down in the front.

"Let's head south", I say and click onto the little icon so the map on my phone opens. It's been a few days since we actually followed the route so we're a bit behind now. Not that it really mattered. This road trip isn't going to plan at all anyways, so we can as well drive wherever we want, as long as we get to my family meeting and Harry's friend in time.

We drive in silence for most of the time, I even drift off to sleep for about an hour while Harry drives. It's about four hours later that Harry takes a turn very suddenly and I already can see the car crashing into one of the trees, but somehow, he manages staying on the very small path.

"What the actual fuck?", I shout, gripping onto my seat tightly, "What do you think you're doing, for fucks sake?"

Harry just grins and I really feel like slapping his face in that moment. "I saw a sign that said that there's a lake a bit further."

"So you just decided to drive here, nearly kill us, destroy my dad's car and all of that without asking me if I even wanted that?"

He nods. "Exactly. I saw it last second, as you might have noticed, so I didn't really have the chance to ask you."

I sigh heavily and let my head fall against the headrest. "You're gonna get us killed."

He just laughs and continues to drive down the very small, Stony and curvy path. I'm pretty sure that if another car came from the other direction now, we'd be stuck here forever.

Luckily, we make it down the path without any car nearby. No one really seems to care about this spot because once we arrived at the end of the path, there's a small stony beach and a big, rather beautiful lake revealing right in front of us without anyone around.

"Now tell me the effort wasn't worth it", Harry says and grins proudly before unbuckling.

I roll my eyes and don't answer at all so I don't have to compliment his idea in any way and follow him out of the car.

The water looks pretty blue and clear and if it wasn't so cold outside, I'd definitely jump in. "I wanna go in", Harry determines. I know that tone. I know I won't convince him otherwise anymore when he talks like that.

"You what?", I ask even though I understood him very well the first time.

"Yeah", he repeats, "I want to go in."

"That's just absolutely stupid. I'm cold and I'm wearing a fucking hoodie. You'll probably die if you do that."

"No. You're just fucking scared and boring. It's just very noticeable you're two years older than me. Already getting boring."

"Don't you dare say that", I exclaim and put a finger into the water carefully. It's not even that cold but I still hiss as if it was, just for the effort. "I'm not boring."

"Then go in with me", he says and walks back to the car that's parked a bit further to get his trunks.

I scoff and dip my whole hand into the water. It's so stupid I'm even considering this. But somehow, it seems temping. It could be fun, couldn't it? But then again, I can't let this crazy, stupid hipster convince me of all those stupid, childish actions.

"I'm ready", Harry says and comes running down the way too Stony beach, it must hurt his feet like hell, but he's just grinning, stopping right in front of me, revealing his stupid yellow trunks under the colourful towel. "You have three minutes to decide and then I'm going. With and without you, even though it's for sure be more fun if you would come with me."

He smiles softly and goddamn it, why does he have to smile like that? I scoff and roll my eyes before trotting back to the car. I can't believe I'm letting him decide over my trip like that. I pull black trunks out of my bag and put them on in the van before wrapping a towel around my waist.

Once I step outside, I already regret my decision. The wind is going pretty strong and it's actually really cold. I frown when arriving at Harry again and he chuckles quietly. "Having fun, old man?"

"Shut the fuck up, H, or I'll actually just push you into the water and you'll freeze slowly and painfully."

"Okay", he says, putting his hands up in the air, "Chill out, serial killer, I won't do or say anything more to upset you. You're actually scary, God."

I laugh and he rolls his eyes with a small smile on his lips before throwing his towel onto the stones and making the first step into the water.

"Oh", he breathes and squeaks a bit afterwards, "That indeed is cold."

"It's not that bad", I say, and I'm not sure what exactly has gotten into me that I need to prove my point so badly, but I take two steps into the water so I'm in knee-deep. I try not to scream and hold my breath for a bit, scared my lungs will just freeze or something.

"Yeah, was just kidding", Harry says and grins before going in further until the water is just above the waistband of his trunks, "It actually is rather warm."

"Hot, nearly", I say and chuckle quietly before stepping in further until my belly button is underwater.

"Yeah, it's burning on my skin", he says and splashes a bit of water onto my skin.

"Okay, actually fuck off", I say, trying to continue breathing and splashing even more water onto him.

Before he goes any further, I jump into the water completely, diving down. For a moment, I see my life pass before my eyes and feel like I'll die, but maybe it's not that bad after all.

When I reach the surface of the water again, trying to catch for air, Harry is diving down as well, appearing after a second, shaking his head so he'll get the water out of his hair.

"Wonderful", he says, lips trembling and laughs.

"Extremely relaxing."

"Best bath I've had in months." He smiles at me softly and I smile back, seeing his eyes sparkle a little and my tummy flutters just a little with that unknown feeling.

"Now, was it a good idea, or wasn't it?"

I roll my eyes again and try to swim for a few meters without my arms just freezing and me going down and dying. Harry swims after me and without warning, he pushes my head down. I get up again after a second, gasping for air and looking at him as angrily as possible.

"Fuck off, Styles. You're the worst."

He laughs again but before that annoyingly beautiful sound can escape his lips, I push him down, keeping his head underwater for a little longer as pay back.

He pushes me a little what doesn't really work in the water once he's up again and gasps for air. His lips have turned a little blue by now and tiny drops of water are falling from his eyelashes and somehow, he looks so very beautiful.

We stay in the water for a few minutes more, splashing water onto each other, laughing and trying not to freeze to death, but after about five minutes, we're both shaking and our lips and fingers have turned a little blue.

"Outside", Harry mumbles, teeth chattering and I smile with a soft nod.

We both wrap our towels around us, him hopping up and down to try and warm up before we're walking to the car.

I get dressed behind the car while he's inside and wait for him to exit again, towel wrapped around his hair and the camping stove in his hands. "Tea and soup?" He asks and I nod.

We prepare the tea first before using the left-over heated water for some instant soup.

I pull the teabags out of the mugs, throwing them somewhere into the bushes, hoping it's not bad for nature while Harry fills two bowls with soup.

We climb back into the car carefully, sitting down on the bed, sighing happily as the hot water runs down our throats.

Harry smiles at me like that again, as if he wanted to say something but didn't. I smile back like that. As if I could tell him something, I don't even know what it is, but don't. Maybe I know what it is, deep down, but then again, it's not really time to admit that to myself that.

"Movie?", he asks, pointing to his laptop and I nod happily.

He preps the pillows against the wall and once we lean against them, he places the laptop on one of mine and in of his legs after having covered us with a blanket. I continue eating my soup and he turns on some weird comedy while we warm up slowly.

I'm not sure if all the warmth really only comes from the soup or if maybe, it's his shoulder pressing against mine, maybe it's his dimple showing when the guy in the movie says something, maybe it's his pinkie nearly touching mine under the blanket.

We watch the whole movie without really talking at all, but that's okay because somehow, it's not an uncomfortable silence. Somehow, all of this feels really right.

At some point, a few minutes before the credits start playing, I feel Harry slowly falling asleep next to me, his head dropping down onto my shoulder. I try not to move so he won't wake up because it feels pretty nice, having him so close. Even when the movie is over for at least half an hour already, I keep sitting like that, staring out of the window, feeling his cheek against my shoulder, hearing him sigh in his sleep quietly and I never want it to end.

He sadly wakes up just a few minutes later, rubbing his eyes and looking around confusedly for a bit. "Oh", he says when he realizes where he put his head, "Sorry if it bothered you."

I shake my head slightly. "It didn't."

He smiles softly and my tummy is tumbling again.

We stay in the car for the rest of the day, Harry scribbling into his notebook most of the time, while I read for a bit before texting Zayn and Mum for a bit.

We end up falling asleep to a stupid reality TV show, Harry's hair tickling my cheek softly as he rolls over after having fallen asleep.

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