I feel as if I open my eyes after a short nap,

And "poof!", find myself half way across the globe

Flying pass the mountains, flying pass the sea,

Letting myself driven away by the breeze.

While walking on the school's courtyard,

I have watched people walking pass my life

Some of them I barely remember their faces

Meet once, and forever apart,

Leaving no traces

While some just walk pass,

Some flash a glance,

Some bump into me.

I have blossomed in my professions

I have drowned in my own sea of insecurities,

But the most important things is

I have decided who I want myself to be,

And I'm working for it.

There have been nights when I wake up from nightmares,

from suddenly remember there is homework due tomorrow that I haven't done,

from getting cold,

from a strange, creepy sound,

from my roommate's snores,

from my rumbling, empty stomach

from the ache of my back,

when I roll off the bed onto the floor.

So I set an alarm clock to wake up the next morning to do my homework,

So pull the blanket and wrap it around my body,

So I put the earplugs into my ears,

So I eat some snacks and drink some tea,

So I clamber up, and get back onto the bed,

So I just console myself,

So I just wipe off my own tears,

In the dark.

There are scars on my heart,

There are bruises on my skin,

There are unspeakable secrets

There are triumphant victories.

A dream is no longer a dream.

A sleep is no longer a sleep.

It is the reality.

It is a life of a fourteen-years-old girl,

Who has to live away from her family.

~October 4th  2016~