„So she is still dating that guy?" Dokyeom asked me sadly and I tried to smile.
„She is. I wonder when I will hear that they are getting married. Even though I won't be invited."
„You want to go?" Vernon asked.
„It's so weird... all these years I have been dating with different girls so I can forget about her and I thought I did. I was doing fine these years when I didn't see her it was all ok until I met her again. That's when I realized that I wasn't ok at all. I realized how much I missed her and wanted to be next to her. So I panic when I think they will get married someday in the future. I should be happy for her but I am so selfish I just can't." Jun patted my shoulder and they were all worried for me.
„Hey I am sorry I didn't want the mood to change like this. Come on I bought chicken let's eat, drink and have fun."

It's more than enough that I am stressed about this I can't make them worry too. I think it was thanks to them that I could get through these years. People would be happy to find one good friend for life but I was lucky to have 12 at once. I should finally put my feelings for her away. It makes no sense. She will never love me so what am I holding onto why can't I move on?

Sowon P.O.V

„That's how I met him again." I told Luna the story while we were sitting comfortably on my couch. She was totally prepared to stay the night.
„That bastard finally disappeared why did he have to come back? I can't believe it. One bastard disappears while the other comes back." I chocked on my water.

„What?! I mean how unlucky you are meeting these idiots." I placed down my glas. I tried not to think about him but I really miss Jungwoo.
„Don't make that face! I know very well that you are missing him instead of hating him."
„I can't just hate him Luna we dated for 10 years."
„That's the point. You guys dated for 10 years that man invited you to dinner broke up with you and even had his luggage picked up from your home. without telling you anything."

True he really took all his things with him but he left our things here. It was full of pictures with the two of us he didn't even take one of it with him...
„I can't believe you still didn't remove all these pictures." she was about to get up.
„Please give me time. I will remove it when I am ready."
„What should I do with you? It must be so painful it all happened so quickly you didn't even have time to process it.
„I am too busy too feel anything. I wake up go to work all day come back home, go to sleep because I am so tired. I didn't have time to be sad and when I did have time I always did something to keep myself distracted."

„It's ok to cry Sowon. You don't have to push your feelings away." she was really worried for me.
„I am ok. Trust me I would rather have it this way." She nodded.
„Don't worry about Jeonghan. Just do your job and you are gonna be fine. He will be gone soon."
„You must be hurt too." I told her and she was confused.
„Seeing Jeonghan again. After all you liked him in high school didn't you." she widened her eyes thinking I didn't know it.
„I didn't know that you knew."
„How could I not? Your eyes always sparkled when you saw him. He is the only one who was blind."
„You know? I am so glad I never confessed. Imagine I would have been a victim of him."
„Trust me I would have killed him then. He can never hurt you." she smiled and hugged me.

She was right just get through this project after that everything will be fine. Luna and I will be on our own and we will be happy. Without them.

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