Sunday 8th December 2019
21:00

Dear Diary,
                      I have decided to begin writing a diary about my thoughts and feelings, as most people use a diary for, as well as events that happen during my day. I may post these on Wattpad, I don't know yet...

Today started out as a rather average day. I completed half of my wood tech homework for Mr Scott, played minecraft with Tyla, and updated a chapter in my wattpad oneshot book.

I went on Pintrest, looking for different writing scenarios for one of my books when I came across something called 'touch starvation'. I made a chapter in my roleplay book with the prompts I found before searching about it more.

I have found I have many if the symptoms which includes body image issues, high stress levels, loneliness, mental health issues, long hot showers, skin arching and feeling numb all the time, and wrapping myself tightly in blankets.

I've read that people can die with this and many babies have.

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I don't want to die...
Why am I crying..?

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I'm such an emotional and pathetic mess... I still wonder why I haven't ended everything yet...
My parents are telling me it's time to go watch the last episode of my favourite show. Time to put on a fake smile as act like everything's ok...
I know it isn't...
It never is...
They don't understand...
...No one does...