Finally , after several weeks of being okay .I could join school normally again and attend all the classes that i have previously missed . One fine Saturday , when i was laying around at home Jordan came over with Jasmine and told me to get ready immediately as they wanted to take me out for lunch in the caffeteria nearby my house. I didnt bother to get dressed and wore whatever i was wearing , little did i know that the nightgown i was wearing had a slight transparency effect. I know this wasnt appropriate , but i wasnt aware .I reached the caffeteria and saw Logan and everyone else who shouted SURPRISE!!!And they had a cake with them . Guess who was there? YES CHRISTIAN. Logan invited Christian over for my surprise , the surprise was for the end of all my misery.Logan pulled me aside and told me to change my outfit as it was inappropriate so Jordan took me back home along with Katy who was also present there . I changed into my little black dress and we went back to the caffeteria . 

  I saw everyone there and i was overwhelmed , we took pictures and i took a picture with Christian . My first ever picture with him , i was too nervous but Logan led me to Christian. Christian kept his arm on my shoulder for the picture and it was the most awkward yet memorable feeling. We went to another restaurant after that as the caffeteria didnt have a variety of food to offer. We sat on a long table , i sat between Katy and Jasmine . Christian and Logan were right infront of me and we even played truth or dare , the most classic game known to everyone.

  Mia was also present there and she sat near Logan and Christian . It was Mia‟s turn to ask Logan and she asked him"Out of all the girls present here , which one is your favourite?"Logan replied that this was a tough question and he giggled 

 "victoria obviously" he answered , I grinned at him and when it was my turn ,Mia asked me the same question . I wanted to say "Christian" but i suddenly got reminded of the actions he did so i said Logan confidentally. Christian stared at me continuously and Katy took me out of the restaurant only to tell me that Christian is the one for me, not Logan.And i replied , Logan was never the one inthe first place.  

  I went back home and Christian texted me and said "hey thanks for today" and i was like "for? I barely did anything" he said well just thanks then , so i was like okay .Even though i wanted to talk to him , i couldnt .   When Jordan was driving back home with me in the car along with Mia . (Yes ,Jordan was allowed and able to drive) He received a phone call saying that my aunt from my dad‟s side , the one that was living with me passed away . Remember the one who was suicidal? She passed a way on her way to the hospital.

  Ive never witnessed death in the family before and i didnt know how to react to this , i wasnt able to cry but i was constantly reminded of the memories i had with her . The times when i had to dress her up and make her look normal just like the others . She went for interviews and i helped her rehearse what to speak there .She was pretty close to me but i wasnt able to cry as i really didnt understand anything. Afterall , i just came back from my own surprise party. So , when Jordan dropped me home right about the time when Christian messaged me . I looked for someone at home who could give me information regarding what has happened  , no one was home except Shaina . Her mom dropped her to my house as her caretaker wasnt there . She told me that ,aunty had passed away with tears in her eyes . Yet , i was still unable to cry. 

They brought my late aunt‟s body back home and we conducted a funeral . Noone was willing to eat anything , so i had to cook for everyone . I saw my grandma screaming and crying , my other aunts crying my mom and dad weeping and Jordan was also really sad . But i kept looking at her body wondering , what on earth happened? Apparently , she has been sick for a really long time but since she had this habbit of "faking" her sickness this time when it actually happened noone believe her . They did a blood test for her but the results werent even out yet when she passed away . There is some controversy that proved Jordan‟s mom to be somehow responsible for tampering the results . But whatever it is , i really didnt care i just wanted her soul to rest in peace and im sure heaven has just earned another angel in disguise.

  Christian texted me later that night when i was actually crying . They took my aunt away inside a vehicle for dead bodies and they had to cremate her the very same night . Christian said " Deepest condolences vic , im sure she is in a better place now" Logan called me as well to check if i was okay. But i didnt reply any of them till next morning . 

  The morning after that was silent ,everyone gathered in my house for a family prayer and Christian started chatting with me from this point onwards .From a "condolence" message , he asked me if everyone was okay and if i was okay .I started replying him plainly with not much excitement as i wasnt in the state to accept the fact that my aunt is gone forever .After a week , Christian made a group chat with Jasmine . And , they started chatting so much it was very noisy for me . I barely responded because i was busy cooking or doing something else . But Christian used to personally message me , "hey where are you , why isnt your phone with you?" i asked Logan if Christian was suffering from some kind of attack because he was practically chatting with me day and night .It became a routine , i mean just a while back he used to loath me . Logan kept quiet and just told me to go with the flow .

  In one of our late night conversations ,you know what they say the later the night, the deeper the conversation . He asked me : 

  "Vic , do you still have feelings for me?"

 I spammed Logan immediately , but Logan was already asleep by then. I didnt know what to reply so i just said ...

" Um.. i choose not to reply"

  He told me that he knew everything .Since the time he was with Jaynie , he knew i had feelings for him . When i questioned him further , he said that Jaynie told him about it . Well , what do you expect from a fraud like that disguised relative right? 

Christian continued the conversation and told me about his entire past with Jaynie and that he was no longer with his current girlfriend . They broke up 2 months ago.He told me his entire broken life story with both his ex‟s . As for Jaynie‟s case , he told me that Jaynie cheated on him with another guy and as for his new ex , they broke up as her parents were against the relationship. Slowly and gradually , i got to know that all his misdoings werent entirely his fault . He was innocent as a kid but his girlfriends taught him all of those unecessary things.

  Logan and me were inseperable , so whatever Christian told me i used to tell Logan . Christian started chatting on a daily basis and the group with Jasmine eventually died as he preffered to text me personally thats what he said . Logan didnt feel that whatever was happening was actually right , Logan told me "Vic ,something big is gonna happen soon i just know it". 

  One fine night , when i was chatting with Christian and Logan was asleep already he repeated the question he asked me initially 

"Vic do you still have feelings for me?" 

This time i was not very reluctant to tell him the truth , the truth but not the entire one . I told him that if you like someone for so long , the feelings wont fade away that easily . He told me that he needed to tell me something important and he was like 

"Vic , this may sound weird but i have developed feelings for you i know you might not be ready but i just felt like i needed to tell you "

  I didnt know what to respond it was 4 am and i kept staring at the message for atleast 5 minutes . The guy of my dreams confessed to me , i needed Logan badly so badly that for once in life , i had to wake him up . I called him once and he picked up immediately .   

"LOGAN! YOU dont know what just happened i feel like jumping but at the same time im scared" 

  Logan replied with his sleepy voice ,

 "yes Vic whatsup?"   

  And i told him that Christian confessed ,Logan took a while to respond he was probably rubbing his eyes . He replied plainly "congrats Vic" and i was like what do you mean congrats Vic? "WHAT DO I DO NOW LOGAN" and he was like , if you feel he is the right one then go for it after  all this was what i wanted but i was a child . I felt like i was too young and i was very childish indeed for my age , i get excited whenever the ice cream guy pass by , i get excited when i see balloons , i get excited yet scared when i see fireworks . 

  After 5 minutes of silence , Logan told me"well Vic , he got the best he can ever have what else could he possibly want"and i was like "dont flatter me , what do i reply him" and Logan didnt end the call that night , we spoke till sunrise . Every 5 minutes i would tell him with excitement"CHRISTIAN CONFESSED" and the next 5 minutes i would say "but im so small" and Logan had just the right amount of patience to handle me just like he always do.

  I replied Christian "i dont know what to say , im really happy but you should know that im childish , i act like a kid and im just small in general" 

Christian told me that he is willing to accept me in whatever form i come in , he even told me that he is willing to wait until im ready for this but he wouldnt want to let go of me as he felt that im the one for him . So , i told him to give me some time.

  In the meantime , he said that me and him, we can be best friends . I was hyped so i said okay . Days passed by and he was the most caring guy next to Logan who told me to sleep on time and he would send me cute paragraphs in the morning . He used to ocassionally tell me that he loves me but i would just give an emoji as a response to that as i wasnt ready as i mentioned eariler . Logan called me up exactly one week after Christian confessed to me , he told me that he too needs to tell me something important . 

 "Vic , i need to tell you something i want you to be the first to know " he said 

  "LOGAN.. u know Christian sent me another cute paragraph this morning" i interrupted 

"Vic , you need to listen" he continued 

  "yes sir whats up " i replied 

 "Vic , ever since you have been chatting with Christian Mia your cousin has been chatting with me , even though i barely replied her she used to text me daily and i think im into her now"

  MIA? That was my first response INTO HER? Was my second response . 

  "No Logan No" i said

  And he was so confused , he asked me why . I didnt have a solid reason to give him but from what i knew and what i heard from people , i had enough idea that she is a player and has dated and dumped alot of guys and no way am i giving her the right to disrupt Logan‟s life . I explained this to Logan nicely and he told me that he was mature enough to understand . He said that i shouldnt worry and if she messes around , he would dump her before she can. 

I had no choice but to allow this for some reason , i felt weird . Mia called me the next day and invited me for lunch we were cousins , so we had a lot of topics to talk about apart from Logan. We went to a restaurant , a fast food branch and she was like oh Logan would love it if he was here.

  I corrected her and said , "No.. he would be happy whenever someone takes him toa fancy italian restaurant and he wouldnt like all this fast food"  

  "But he told me that he was fond of fast food probably you guys arent that close then" she continued 

 As much as i felt like bashing her for saying this , i stayed calm and kept in mind that i should respect Logan‟s choice. I started becoming friendly , i took her out for lunch dates and invited her over several times we started becoming close ,more understanding towards each other and this gave me enough confidence to tell her about Christian and she was delighted .

  Once at night , i was texting Logan about how my day went and left Christian on read for a little while . Christian asked me regarding who i was chatting with late that night and i told him that i was chatting with Logan confidentally and i even told him that i was telling Logan about my day.And Christian‟s expression was "Oh .. ur still close to that Logan?" and i replied"yesss! Of course!" 

 I couldnt control myself from telling Christian everything about me and Logan ,how we became close and how we managed our friendship till date i thought he would be happy to know . Christian wished me goodnight right before i could complete my stories and i was completely okay with it.

  The next day , we wanted to have a group call along with Logan and Mia . I loved the idea , i thought its a great way to bridge the gap between my love and my best friend Logan. My battery died during the first half of the call and Logan left the call right after that , when i turned on my phone again. Christian was mad at me , he told me that Mia left a message for me ..the message was"Please tell vic that Logan is charging his phone" 

  Whats wrong about that? Christian bursted at me in anger"Are you and Logan secretly a thing , you guys do everything together and why would Mia leave that message are you that desperate for him?"

  And i had no idea what he was talking about , he told me that if i only wanted Logan i should just leave him and that it wasnt possible for a girl to have two guys  in her life . I got scared and texted Logan for help , Christian turned of his phone eventhough i begged him to reply me and to sort things out , it wasnt what he thought it was , we were just best friends and that sit . He turned on his phone again later that night around 3 am when i was waiting for his reply , i called him immediately and we finally sorted things out by 5 am after a whole lot of explanation from my side. 

The next day , Christian wanted to meet me . Christian stayed nearby Jordan now and i was staying over in Jordan‟s house he was really excited to meet me and so was i.I made an alarm at 7 am as he said he wanted to go for a morning walk along with me and Jordan. That morning , my alarm went off and i woke up in shock at 7.15 i received 30 messages from Christian and Jordan was still fast asleep . I kicked him so he would wake up and right after that we heard the doorbell ring . I unlocked the door only to see Christian ,my hair was a mess , my outfit was horrendous and i wasnt ready . I ran away when i saw Jordan‟s mom approaching the door and she restricted me from going outwith guys early in the morning. Christian got pissed at me again , eventhough it wasnt my fault this time but he ended the argument by asking me if i wanted a slushie from the convenient store.

  We had a break of 5 days from school and 2 days have been wasted when i stayed over in Jordan‟s . My mom and dad planned to go for a family trip to a hill station not far from where we were staying , it was a 2 hours drive. Christian also had to travel at this time . I texted Christian from Shaina‟s phone as we all went for this trip , like the whole family .The next day after i reached , we started chatting again in the group chat that had Jasmine in it , for some reason that group-came back to life. 

 Early in the morning , i replied the group chat and all of a sudden Jasmine asked me about Logan , i replied her nicely and plainly as i knew Christian wasn't very fond of Logan and i was trying my best to bridge their gap. Christian got ignited in the group chat and said "why speak about Logan,  jasmine? He‟s nothing but a girl thief"I got so mad when he said this and even more pissed when Jasmine supported his words . I said nothing and left the group-immediately. Christian didn't talk to me fora week even though i begged him to reply me and show some concern .

  I didnt want to keep it to myself anymore ,how dare they speak about Logan in my presence . For what Christian said , i really didnt mind that as i knew he never liked Logan but Jasmine? What kind of a double-faced person is she? I texted her in the evening and told her roughly that if she has any problem with Logan , she should tell me instead of badmouthing him behind his back im so sure that im able to clear all doubts about Logan. Even though she replied me saying that she was just supporting Christian , i told her that she has no rights to talk about Logan in that way. 

  Days passed by , it has been a week since i last heard from Christian and i thought that all of this would be solved if I gathered enough guts to express my love for him when i love him so much why keep it to myself right? I just didn't have the guts to do so , Logan tried teaching me secretly but i finally decided to do so , for my own betterment . I asked Christian

  "whats the matter love? Why are we arguing continuously?" 

  He got so shocked and everything turned out the way i expected it to , he was so happy that he eventually forgot everything. Out of excitement , he asked me to plan a hangout with him once he comes back.

 Right after he came back , Logan asked Christian to join him for lunch and a game of bowling together with Logan‟s other friends. I thanked Logan for this , i wanted them to like each other . Christian agreed to go out with Logan and i had plans with Mia that same day . Later that afternoon ,Mia kept asking me to call Logan and ask him to join us for coffee . I tried calling Logan once from Mia‟s phone as i didn't want Christian to be pissed and Logan told me that he would let me know. The second time right after 15 minutes , Mia told me to call Christian as Logan was with him and to ask them to join us . I did that and Christian told me that he really wanted to meet me but Logan wasnt willing to leave from there. Due to this ,Mia made me call Logan once more but his phone was switched off. She made me call Christian so I could speak to Logan ,this was risky but i had to do it as she was really getting on my nerves i told her to wait until Logan‟s phone would comeback to life , im not taking any risk.   

  She made me call Logan three more times after that , and Christian picked up his phone once so everything was a mess .Logan shouted at me on the phone 

 "Dont you know the meaning of patience?We just reached and you have been getting on my nerves ever since"

  This was the first time Logan screamed at me and i ended the call immediately. I told Mia to speak for herself as i didnt want to be involved but she didnt dare to do so as she didnt want her relation with Logan to be affected , honestly this was selfish. But i was blinded by her fake niceness and i had to message Logan once more after an hour thanks to her . Finally Logan came with Christian and i didnt dare to even say hi to Logan , Christian asked me if everything was okay and i told him. He got ignited"How dare he speak to my girl like that ?"he said. I just kept quiet and went with the flow. 

 At night , Logan texted me an apology message and i couldn't even tell him that it was not my wish to irritate him like that , it was Mia‟s . I couldn't tell him anything as it would create problems for Logan and Mia, but most importantly Logan would also be affected. He explained me that i shouldn't be desperate like that just because i wanted to meet Christian , shouldn't be selfish and all that and eventhough i barely did anything wrong , i endured everything and apologized as well.Thank god , Logan wasn't like other guys ,once we clear out a problem it will be solved immediately.

  Me and Christian spent most of our time chatting instead of calling , and meeting was the rarest amongst them all as my mom always had a problem with him , she wasnt aware about Jordan‟s house incident nor the recent one . It wasnt like i lied to her because i didnt know Logan and Christian were actually coming . We used  to text each other till late night , and we just had one phone call . We shared everything during that phone call , he told me about his family and i told him about mine i didnt tell him anything related to Logan as i didnt want to ruin the ambience that we had self created at that time .During the phone call, i told him that my mom has a slight problem with him as she also heard the things he used to do when he was with Jaynie and she didnt want me to fall into bad company . He got so scared but i assured him that if he can change her impression everything would fall back in place. 

   "Does that mean we wont be meeting anytime soon?" he asked"I can try asking her nicely" I continued 

  He told me that if it was possible , we should meet on saturday . So , the night before the weekend started i asked my mom and her answer was a plain NO , i told her that there would be other people and that it wasnt just the both of us. As,Christian wanted a double date kind of thing with his cousin and his girlfriend. Even though we weren't dating , the only thing that we were lacking was a status. I tried persuading her but nothing seemed to work , only then Christian‟s cousins‟s girlfriend decided to speak to my mom on the phone and she actually gave her permission for me to go. 

  The day of the hangout , finally arrived. I was full of a hell lot of excitement and so was he , he picked me up from my grandma‟s house and carried my bag for me . I was impressed , in the car the two of us sat in the extreme last seating row and his cousin occupied the middle row.We reached the cafeteria and Christian sat right beside me , i didnt feel like eating or probably i was too shy to order anything unless when i was with Logan. Christian kept his hand around my chair , this was okay . Then he told me that he wanted to grab a snack from next door , he told me to assist him . We went outside the cafeteria and he told me to sit in the car for sometime with him so we could spend time , like just the two of us. It was really awkward because i didnt know what to do, he took my phone and started reading my chats with Logan until i snatched it back.He started playing with my hair , curling it with his finger and i felt really uncomfortable . I didnt know how to react, so i pushed his hand aside and showed him a cute picture of Shaina from my phone. He got closer and closer until i could feel his breath on my neck and he looked me right in the eye and my nose and held his hand was on my face. This was too extreme for me , i stood up and asked him to come back to the cafeteria with me , trust me deep inside i was trembling and i felt like crying for this . Ive never been intimate with anyone before ,im so young.

  When we reached back in, the moment we stepped inside he kept his hand around me  even though i struggled to move . I needed to text Logan so badly at that time , but Christian took my phone. Finally , i lost my appetite and decided not to eat until i reached back home. I didnt want to be alone in the car with Christian anymore , i told the other girl who was with us to accompany me in the car but she wouldnt, she told her boyfriend (Christian‟cousin) to assist me though. In the car , i sat in between the two guys and i barely knew the other one , he tried putting his arms around me for the second to third time but thank god i finally reached . I thanked him for the ride and walked away without looking back 

  When i reached home , the first thing i did was call Logan and he literally laughed at me for being so timid in the world of intimacy , it wasnt a joke for a newbie like me. And , i would never agree to all those things , i found it to be disgusting as well .Later that night , i got this strange feeling as if im suffocated in this relation with Christian i needed to tell him that i was uncomfortable but i didnt know how to start , luckily he figured it out by himself and apologized as well for it.

  We spent the rest of our days loitering in love through text messages and phone calls , every relation is never free from problems that pulls us into thinking that it must come to an end im aware of this , so everytime a problem arose between us i started to think more of "WE" than "ME"and that is why , ive always made the first move in solving issues. 

  Several days have passed and this particular day was the most tiring amongst them all , i reached home and took a long bubble bath to pamper myself . I left the bathing room with a huge towel on my head making myself look like a unicorn and proceeded to lay down on my mom‟s bed (as only my mom‟s room had a tub) i texted Logan and Christian when i was chilling , and suddenly Jordan along with his parents and Shaina entered the room. I stood up to get them to sit and Jordan‟s mom stared at me from top to bottom ,she raised her hand on me and i really didnt know why. Jordan‟s dad continued

  "We know what you have been doing Victoria" he said

 "What , i just came out of the shower?" i replied in a confused state

 "Who is Christian , Jordan told us so u better not lie" he continued   

  I couldnt believe Jordan would do such a thing to me , i looked at him right in the eye waiting for a reasonable response but all he did was look at his feet and the ceiling . I looked at Shaina and she gulped. I turned around to check if my mom was around and literally it felt like i was surrounded with haters. I told them to relax and that i would explain everything nicely but they provoked me to tell the mat that very instant. 

  I re-sat on the bed and hid my phone under the blanket , i didnt want anyone to confiscate it. Thank god it was on silent mode. I explained them that me and Christian are just best friends , well thats what its supposed to be in the first place as we didnt have a status. 

 "What kind of "bestfriends" express their love to each other everyday?" Jordan‟s mom asked sarcastically

  "Well.. Everyone" i said nervously 

 She suddenly screamed that i got so shocked , she told me that it was a cheap act for a girl under the age of 18 to express love to anyone else apart from her parents.It is against society. I nervously put forth the question regarding why society is always considered to be a priority and she gave me a kind of death stare that i could utter no more.

  Jordan‟s dad kept watching the entire scene without saying a thing all he did was look at me at regular intervals . 

  Aunt Jane broke the silence and said "That guy is nothing but a characterless ,shameless , disgusting , cheap guy" Thats it i thought , this sentence was the beggining to my rebellious behavior that followed . I got so scared because everyone kept attacking me and i needed a friend to tell me what i needed to do ,what i needed to say and just someone to guide me. Remember the girl i mentioned who was close to me and Christian at that time as well , well to sum it up she was one of the members of our group chat. I recorded aunt Jane‟s voice and sent her with the means of asking a suitable response even though i barely knew that whatever i was doing was incorrect. She did not respond and i had to quietly peek through my notifications bar every now and than just to check from under the blanket.

  My mom made her entry to the room and started supporting aunt Jane as if i was nothing . Why would you judge someone u barely even know about? I asked them with a frightened look. 

 Everyone in the room stared at me and asked me to repeat my question louder this time , i gulped and just had to as i felt it was wrong. I asked once more "Why would people judge other people who they barely know?"

  "You dont need to "know" a person to make assumptions about them , you can see it just by looking at the person‟s face"aunt Jane replied. 

 "But thats just judging a book by its cover, i thought we werent supposed to do that" i continued

  All of this , i recorded and sent to that one friend. She told me not to backanswer anyone as it would make the situation more intense and we can never predict its outcome but i have no reason why , i just cant handle this society norms and whatever aunt Jane was saying. 

  Aunt Jane had no answer to the question I asked , my mom looked at me and told me that Christian is responsible for my rebellious behavior and that ive learnt howto backanswer from him (even though he barely had nothing to do) . Mom thinks that Christian is proud and shrewd as he kept posting pictures from his vacation .Like how is this even wrong? Posting pictures from a place you PAY to visit , is completely okay . Its his life after all who are we to stop him?

  My dad entered the room to take a few important papers and i hid behind his back like a baby to protect me from whatever was happening at that time , he just gave me a pat on my shoulders and walked off abandoning me with all these people i call"family".   

  Jordan‟s dad finally decided to put an end to everything , he walked towards me and gave me a pat on my back well, not a usual"pat" because he used his fingers and slid it up and down giving me a ticklish feeling. 

  He told me , "whatever that is happening right now , must stop immediately. You will be given time to forget about Christian and your time starts now Victoria" he said

  With this , everyone left the room. I had about 4 voice messages by this time that I had sent to my friend . Should i tell Christian about this? No i thought it would shatter him completely but i did ask advice regarding this and my friend told me that i shouldn't be hiding it from Christian , sooner or later he has to know 

 "What if you tell him later when he fall seven deeper for you wouldn't that hurt him more Vic?" she asked . And this surprisingly made sense , i couldn't really think for myself nor could i tell Logan about this because it wasn't important to do that at that crucial time and this friend of mine knew Christian in and out so she shouldn't give me wrong advice would she?

 The two of us , me and my friend decided to consult Christian‟s cousin about this ,yes, the same cousin who went with me for a double date when the uncomfortable intimate scene happened somehow .  I Wasn't close to him but my friend was so we made a group chat and discussed . He told me that I should tell Christian and if i didnt have the guts to do so , we could make a group call or something and talk to Christian nicely about this.

He informed Christian about the group call and everyone agreed with this idea. We started a group call and there was nothing  but silence that i had to actually check whether the call was actually on or off as it was too quiet. Christian‟s cousin broke the silence and said , "Christian Vic has something to say to you" and i could only gulp in fear at this time.   

  "Look.. Christian... you are aware that my mom isnt very fond of you right? I told you the other day?" i asked 

  "yes but i thought you said i can always change her impression" he replied

  "yes.. but apparently my aunt here , she found out everything about us and she doesnt like the idea that we are especially since we are an under aged um.. a couple somehow" i replied 

 "What did she say?" he continued

 Christian‟s cousin briefed everything and Christian could understand nothing so the2 people in the group call decided to leave  so i could have privacy and could explain Christian my way.   

  It was only me and Christian now and i told him that i would never leave him.This was the fact , he was my biggest crush and he is now mine how can anyone possibly think of leaving ? 

  Christian completely broke down and ive never heard anyone cry during a phone call , because to be frank , ive never cried during a phone call except to my mom when i was in pain at that time. The fact that it is Christian who was crying made the situation even more unacceptable . I assured him that there was nothing to worry about even though his cousin sent him the voice recordings as evidence . It old Christian that i would fix everything in a matter of time , i just needed sometime. He ended the call and switched off his phone the entire night 

  What is the one thing Victoria would do when she doesnt know what to do with life? Correct! Logan is the solution to every problem . I texted him and he told me that i should consider leaving Christian as he always used to fight with me and stuff but i didnt pay heed to what Logan said , i just needed to tell him i think he is just my best listener and telling him about my life is just in my daily to do list.

  At this time , i was sitting in the living room and my mom told me that i should sleep with her tonight , as she didnt"trust" me enough. I sat on the sofa in her room waiting for my dad so i could tell him about this and he would probably understand . My mom fell asleep and i kept forcing my eyes to open to wait for dad as i knew meeting him in the morning was a difficult task. Finally , he entered the room and i was chatting with Logan telling him everything in more detail ,i also told him to keep me awake until my dad comes back. My dad looked pissed but i didnt really care , i wanted to keep the situation cool and mild. I was using his charger at this time and he asked me for it back . I smiled and said "No dad im using it" i didnt know he was actually pissed at this time and i tried to talk to him. He asked me in a harsher tone the second time and i still said no as i misplaced my charger.  

  This enraged him and he shouted suddenly, a guy who never used to shout at me just did because of a charger. "WHAT IS THIS CHRISTIAN BUSINESS?" he asked roughly

 "Dad .. i need to talk to you about that you see.. he is.." 

before i could complete my sentence he snatched my phone away from me and said "lets see how you can charge this thing now , ive noticed you are always on your phone" he said.  

  I asked for my phone back as my chat with Logan was opened and its not a joke if my dad reads it so i decided to just let it go for a day. My eyes were teary but I thought that it could never get worse , theentire situation i mean. Until.... 

  "Open your phone right now" he said

  "Huh?" i asked , perplexed. 

  He shouted at me and my mom woke up ,he wanted me to type in my passcode and this is definitely not possible . It was bad enough for my mom to know about Christian i wonder what would happen if my dad finds out .

 I pretended that i didnt listen to what he was saying , he escalated my phone to his height and threatened to drop it if i wouldnt unlock it. I begged him to explain everything nicely to him because this was the only thing i could do at that time , i cried continuously and for the first time ever , my dad raised his hand on me. He pushed me from my standing position until i was on my knees . I was starting to  loose my breath and turned to my mom for help so that she wouldnt just watch the entire scene like a mere spectator . She couldnt do anything much , there wasnt any option for her everything was outrageous so even if she tried to help ,my dad could have done anything to her in his state of anger its just the fact that i was in that situation all by myself , i couldnt do anything except vent it out on my mom it isnt her fault but i screamed "ARE YOUJUST GONNA STAND THERE ,MOM?" ive always tried to help her whenever she needs it , whether it is with the chores or whatever. My mind was entirely blocked at that time and it was getting even more difficult for me to breathe , but my dad just didnt seem to care. I thought i was his princess , do princesses get treated this way? He thought that i was faking it to distract him from his purpose.

  Finally , i called up one of my cousins who was aware about me and Christian , because perhaps i forgot to mention but i needed a consultant and this cousin of mine , knowing all of his experiences , the heartbreaks he faced and his maturity assured me that he was the right person to consult and so i did. I had to call him up in the middle of the night to calm my dad down because things were really going haywire . He spoke to my dad , and my dad was silent during the call .. the moment the call ended he looked at me as if i committed a new mistake and he  slammed his room door and refused to look at me . My mom was with me , i was shaky and still in a state of shock and she kept consoling me up to the point that i felt i needed Logan even though my mom was with me. My phone was taken away ,turned off and hidden. I couldnt inform anyone , my mom forced me to sleep inher room on the matress and so i did. My weeping irritated my dad so i had to use my hand to cover my mouth and trust me this is truly the saddest moment you can imagine , especially when the heart wants to pour all of its content to drain and it just gets bottled up because doing so will disturb my dad.

  I couldnt sleep the entire night patiently waiting for sunrise to sneak out from the room and to figure out where my phone could possibly be . I heard footsteps at about 8 am and the room light turned on ,i hid under the blanket to prevent anymore self harming disaster like what just happened . I also heard the room door open because it tends to make that particular "sneaky" sound like in horror movies , and after realising that everyone left the room i creeped out from bed as if i achieved some kind of freedom and i began phone hunting . I saw my phone ontop of the television table so it wasnt particularly hidden , i laid down on the matress yet i kept myself alert i didnt want anybody reporting to my dad that i took the phone without his permission and i began texting Logan the entire scene that happened last night , i spammed him with about 30 messages until he finally replied me he was in his shop at this time and good signal is rare there but surprisingly he was able to reply on time. He told me to calm down and make sure that my dad was okay , apologizing isnt a mistake he said even though i told him that i really dont think i was doing anything wrong at this time but well the kids have to back out always in the end right? I felt a little more contended after telling Logan because i couldnt really tell Christian about what happened in actual detail but i had to somehow i mean , out of all the people he has to be the first one to know. 

 Jordan texted me later that afternoon right about the time when i was about to inform Christian by sugar coating the incident . In the beggining i really didnt want to speak to Jordan , after knowing that he is fully responsible but he kept spamming me to give him a chance to justify his reasons i ended up arguing and i didnt realise Christian was left on read , Christian got pissed and told me to severe ties with a cousin like that but this wasnt right , blood is thicker than water after all and everybody has the tendency to commit mistakes right? All thanks to the argument i had with Christian , the plan of telling him about the incident got procastinated. I could only manage to tell him later that night and his reaction was pretty bad , he started telling me that my family doesnt consist of good people , they abide by the judging rules of the society and they are selfish. I couldnt endure the things he had to say about my parents , so i somehow back answered him for the first time ever and i told him that if he truly loves me he would stay with me through all this instead of deteriorating my motivation to find a solution to this problem  .

  I couldnt really face my dad that night , so i met him only the next morning. The next morning itself , he stared at me and uttered nothing and quietly left for work well.. i somehow understood what he was trying to do he wanted to build up the guilt within me until i finally realised that it was time to let go of Christian . He was right about the former but expectations for the latter will never be fulfilled from my side. We went for family dinner later that night , and he finally spoke to me he as in my dad . He said "Look , you are big enough to understand that this is a trap and you are way too underaged for it"

  "But dad , everyone of my age...." 

"You are not everyone else , you are Victoria Savannah so keep up that pride within yourself , im giving you 3 days to let go of Christian" 

"WHAT?! I shouted , forgetting the fact that i was in a restaurant 

"Thats impossible " i continued

 "He‟s really nice dad"   

  "Give him a chance please , we arent even dating"

 All of this statements , as if unheard received no reply. My mom finally interrupted the intense conversation and she said

 "3 days is impossible .. Give her 2 weeks atleast I understand this generation"  

 My dad had to give in to her , but even though i begged him for more time and for a last chance all of this didnt work.He said that if i continued to annoy him he would decrease the time limit so i had to say yes and think of a plan to escape this immediately.....

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