He fell asleep while we were chatting , this was our usual routine i would always be the one sleeping by five in the morning even though he would act like he wasnt sleepy from this short period of time i got to learn about his sleeping habbits. The next morning , its not like i was waiting for him to text me "goodmorning" but it was his routine and if something goes wrong in the routine of a person means something is wrong with the person. I started feeling so blank suddenly , blank in the sense that i was bored and i wanted to talk to someone . I wouldnt say i longed for Logan‟s text but "talk to someone" as in any person , would make me feel nice. I waited till late night and since my sleeping routine has been inversed during this summer vacation , i would sleep in the morning instead of night time and would always wake up by night time instead of day . I did however keep my phone‟s ringer upto its maximum volume capacity just incase someone wanted to chat , i still wouldnt say Logan as „someone‟ eventhough i was waiting for his message.

  It went on like this for three days and i was really confused like whats up with this guy , he was okay during the wedding party day and suddenly he just planned to dissapear like a ghost. After a complete three days of not chatting with him , he hit me up with a "hi" and not that i was happy but i wanted to know where he went all along as he wasnt online or anything as well . I didnt want to show him that i was excited because of his message , even though i might be but i did ask him "where have you been?" and he was like ive been right here . I wasnt sure if i should smack his head for telling me that he has been here while the truth of the content is the entire opposite or should i just chat in a way that would make it seem like i couldnt be bothered nomore. I wanted to be in between these two situations so i was like , "um.. Logan clearly went missing for three days". And Logan just told me that he wasnt in the mood to use his phone , i told him that i was really bored and felt blank and empty.He took this in a wrong way thinking that his dissapearence was the reason behind my loneliness or something until i told him not to be over confident. 

  I was going out for family lunch when he messaged me at that moment and i informed him about the same , he told me to text him the moment i reached home as he had something important to tell me . I was agitated like what if it was something related to Christian? Did Christian insult me again? It was like wild thoughts running through my mind . The moment i reached the restaurant and i could connect to the wifi there i spammed him with twenty messages and forced him to tell meat least about the topic of concern , he wasnt very happy i could sense it from the way he was texting yet he told me not to worry as it had nothing to do with Christian I felt relieved immediately , and the moment i reached home later that evening he told me to wait for like an hour as he had to go out somewhere. He messaged me after three hours and told me "finally ,can i speak to u now?" i was still awake and i was actually bored so i was like okay. Me and Logan have never spoken on the phone before , we were just chatting buddies i mean ive never spoken to a guy friend on the phone before except Jordan though ( but than he is my cousin). Logan asked me if i could call him just for a bit and i was hesitating to do so until, he told me that he really needed a friend to talk to at that moment and since he helped cheer me up during my broken days of thinking about Christian , (although im still as broken now as i was before) i felt like it was my duty as a friend atleast to return the favour so i was okay for him to call me up and in the beggining of the phone call there was a lot of awkward silence.

  "vic...vic hello?" 

"yes logan im here tell me whats botheringyou ?"   

  Speaking as if we didnt know each other like professional strangers he finally told me that his ex has been eating his head for the past three days . Perhaps , this was the reason why he wasnt in the mood to use his phone i presumed. He told me that his ex wanted to get back together , but he was tired of her tantrums. In the beggining his ex wanted him and later on she found someone else more suitable than him for herself and again after that she begged forhim . He felt used like a toy and its not like he has completely forgotten about her but he told me that he prioritizes his self respect more than anything in this world.He wasnt wrong , to be honest but i didnt want to be the intermediate . I told him to give her a final chance , just one last time but to warn her not to mess up again this time.  It wasnt wrong for me to say this right?Logan denied my offer immediately , he said that he would be willing to do that only if his ex didnt make stupid rules for him to follow . One of the main rules was that he wouldnt be allowed to talk to me anymore . I told Logan that its okay if he couldnt talk to me , i tried to be understanding but he didnt want to let goof the friendship i shared with him for a girl that used him probably. To be honest ,i didnt wanna let go of it too but i tried calming him down and told him that anytime he changes his mind , i would be okay with his decision but he should inform me about his decision one final time beforehand. 

  He didnt change his mind and he is that kind of stubborn guy who chooses friendship over anything . We were chatting this one night and i was simultaneously chatting with Jasmine too .Jasmine remember? The girl who was Christian‟s friend when they used to study together in their former school . She was great company to me , but i didnt tell her anything about Christian yet until this time. The same time Logan started chatting with me was the same time when this guy who was her former school mate and present one too also started chatting with her. And you know whats the best part? Logan and this guy were good friends , just like me and Jasmine so we had this kind of group chats together . All of us are insomniacs , especially me andJasmine. She told me that she had feelings for the guy who she has started to be close with during this summer vacation and asked me if i have feelings for Logan as well , i denied her immediately. It was than when i told her about Christian and the feelings that i have developed for him upto this date. She said that she knew about it all along but she wanted me to break my bubble myself and tell her whenever i felt like it , she didnt know much about Jaynie and Christian but she was confirmed that yes , both of them were in a relationship and might still be in one.

  She also told me that before Jaynie ,Christian had feelings for her and tried to ask her out . Jasmine told me that she didnt want to date a guy that she was bestfriends with in the past as a breakup would ruin their friendship . Their childhood friendship that they somehow preserved till today. Since that day onwards , Jasmine and Christian never spoke to each other as probably Christian felt humiliated. I started to think like what if Christian is a player? I mean how could he change his mind that easily from Jasmine to Jaynie . Its been such a longtime but im still head over heels for him ,no Logan or whoever would be able to take his place , thats what i felt at this moment . I told Logan that same time about what Jasmine told me as me and Logan generally share everything to each other and he was like didnt i tell you christian is that type of guy? "You should  move on! Its about time and i‟ll help you"said Logan. 

  As much as i didnt want to move on , i realised that i actually do have no choice there has not been progress over the year and ive not heard from him as well .Logan was there for me the whole time i was going through this so i decided to show him a little niceness from my side instead of nagging about Christian all daylong as he also just went through a recent breakup. He told me that we should make plans and hangout before school starts ,this time not as strangers anymore but as best friends. Logan was my first ever guy bestfriend , and i was surprised that i was actually comfortable. So we made plans ,not only the two of us ofcourse we decided to go out along with Jordan and Logan‟s so called sister , the girl who was my company in the party.

 I asked my mom for permission and since she knew Logan‟s parents quite well she  allowed me to go immediately . One of Logan‟s guy friends was driving and i thought i was gonna die , a kid my age was driving but he was like professional at it somehow there was this other guy friend too that i wasnt close to , i mean our only conversation was like hi and bye thats it.I was mostly talking to Logan and his so called sister , lets just call her "sister" from now on. We stopped in a local caffeteria down the street and this other guy dropped his coffee all over his tshirt we ended up bursting in laughter and i hate to admit but i actually enjoyed their company.  The usual nights went on , me and Jasmine were chatting as usual and she was close to Logan‟s ex at this time but , i was so sure she wouldnt tell my secrets as her secrets were always safe with me . There are things that she told me that remained discreet from Logan. 

We had a prayer gathering coming up soon so me and Logan were busy discussing about that and like always , we were deciding what to wear just like how we chose each other‟s outfits for the wedding. The moment i wanted to take pictures of my outfit to wear for the prayer , he told me to hold on for a second as his ex messaged him. I thought that this was the perfect opportunity for these two to settle things as i didnt want to be known as a mess creator . I kept my phone on airplane mode so that Logan wont have to reply me and i went on to choose an outfit for myself . After an hour , i got so bored and i thought that i would receive good news coming from Logan‟s side instead , i received 30 messages from him looking for me while my phone was inactive. He told me that his ex wouldnt understand his point of view , he also told me that his ex had made plans for the entire gang (the gang that im a part of now and i didnt even know about this) and they wanted to watch a horror movie , Logan begged me to come and even threatened me that he wouldnt go if i refused to come. 

I told him that this was probably a way for his ex to settle things with him , but Logan was just so stubborn and begged me for like twentytimes atleast that i didnt have the heart to say no. I promised myself , not to walk near him or communicate much to him infront of his ex as i dont even think she would appreciate my presence there.Logan chose my outfit (as usual) and he picked me up the next day afternoon , the car was full and his ex was sitting in the back seat. I was in the middle row with Logan and his "sister" . Jasmine was there too , so i had company. We bought our movie tickets and we grabbed lunch right before the movie started. Jordan met us there , he didnt come with us though but he did join us for the movie. Since i was already pretty close to Logan‟s "sister" i wanted to sit in between her and Jordan.Didnt i mention that my behavior during every horror movie defines the word terrible? I would end up shouting as if the theatre was my house and i had this bad habbit of kicking seats or pinching the person right beside me due to fear. I didnt care if i would pinch or scratch Jordan but the moment i sat down , i was in between Logan and his "sister" and i was like" ohdamn what next?" deep inside. His ex gave me that death stare and i didnt know what to do . I wasnt even as bothered about his ex , i was mostly bothered about who to scratch what if i scratched logan out of fear?

  The movie began and yup , i did exactly what i thought i would. I ended up embarassing myself and jumped on top of Logan , pulled his hair when the ghost character made noises in the movie . I remember giving Logan about 5 scratch marks and all he could do was hug me and tell me that was just a movie scene ,nothing to be scared about with a big smile on his face. I didnt realize he was hugging me as i was already too distracted, i slapped his mouth and told him to shutup instead as the movie was getting  intense. I felt guilty after the movie and felt the need to apologize , i said sorry to Logan and he called me funny for that.Like what in the world is so funny about that? We went home as my mom was already looking for me , overprotected you see. My mom was the only mom who would call every hour to check on me and since Logan took the responsibility of taking care of me , he didnt want to dissapoint my mom so he dropped me home along with his "sister" in a cab right away.

  This was my life , i was treated like aprincess everyday by my friends and by myfamily. What could a girl possibly ask fornow? I wanted Christian still as badly but istarted to realise that life wouldnt alwaysgive you what you want and like when lifegives you lemons learn to um.. take it andmake lemonade out of it and just enjoy thedrink.   

  We had this prayer thing , the event i mentioned earlier about just the following night. Logan was going too and so are most of the people i know , Jasmine wasnt coming as she wanted to accompany Logan‟s ex as she wasnt too well . There were fireworks all around the place and Logan knew that i was not brave enough to stand infront of where the fireworks were getting burnt but i wanted to see how they did it. He held my hand and took me to the front , he waited for me till i was satisfied out of excitement looking more like a 7 year old kid i pulled his shirt and he was like "yaaaaa vic i get it , its pretty isnt it?" we enjoyed ourselves and jasmine‟s guy (the guy she liked) was with us too , we missed jasmine though. I reached home pretty early , Logan was still there and i was chatting with Jasmine who then told me that Logan‟s ex wasnt in good shape and she requested me for something the moment i reached home ,before i could even change to my night  gown.

 She told me that i should be more considerate towards people , and i really didnt know what she meant. I just got back and all so i didnt argue with her or anything , ive never argued with her in general and all of a sudden? She told me that it was cruel of me to snatch Logan away from his ex and i should give both of them their own personal space to patch up. It was really surprising to get to know all this from Jasmine especially , who is my special friend at that time. I never had the intentions to seperate the couple and being close to Logan wasnt my initiative. I decided to take her words calmly and just try to listen to her , maybe its for the best?Logan‟s "sister" called me that night itself ,she suspected that something was wrong because Jasmine was behaving differently towards her as well she told me to tell her about what was bothering me immediately but i didnt have the guts to do so as , what if she would tell Logan and what if a mess would be created out of nothing? I chose not to tell and remained silent , i also told her that its been a rough night for me and i really needed to sleep . I apologized for being rude and she ended the call. I was awake the whole night but i didnt reply to anyone‟s messages , Logan kept texting me and i had the urge to respond but i couldnt. I really didnt know how Logan found out about what Jasmine told me ,Logan‟s "sister" found out too. They called me and Logan texted me saying that he knew what happened , it was already about 2 am and he wanted me to give him a chance to justify.

  We hardly spoke on the phone but he probably realised that this was something important since he didnt have a room of his own , he sneaked out and called me .He told me to calm down and to ignore whatever Jasmine has told me to do . He ended the call and we continued our conversation through text , he told me that his ex probably just lost her mind and he confronted Jasmine along with his"sister" they didnt like the idea that i could  be controlled by someone‟s words . I didnt have the energy to respond i told them that it was time for me to go to bed. 

 The next morning , Logan apologized for his ex‟s behavior and for Jasmine‟s behavior too although it wasnt his fault at all . Out of curiousity and self guilt i asked him if i was the reason behind their breakup somehow and he told me like as if i was out of my mind , as he wasnt in good terms with her even before he became close to me. I didnt reply to any ofJasmine‟s chats , she told me she was sorry for being rude and all i could say was "itsok". I couldnt be completely normal like how i was with her before but i believe that everyone deserves a second chance.And , time covered the distance between us soon enough we all were back together like a pack of cards. Me , Logan , Jasmine ,the guy she was close to and Logan‟s sister. Jasmine told me that she couldnt control her feelings for the guy anymore and she asked for my opinion whether or not to tell him about her feelings .Honestly , this was too intimidating and it was a no from my side because i felt like it was too early , she consulted Logan‟s ex who provoked her to go for it  . The guy wasnt as cool as we thought he was , he wasnt "ok" with the fact that his best friend Jasmine "liked" him.

  Me and Logan didnt want to intervene ,but being good friends of theirs we decided that we have to help them somehow . Days , months passed by and we kept trying to patch them up . Logan was like , "honestly vic if that was you and you confessed to me i wouldnt be overreacting upto that extent" . He made sense somehow , i mean come on she‟s ur bestfriend afterall!. I used to chat with Jasmine‟s guy eventhough i tried to patch them up together , Jasmine probably didnt like that oh well,  I was disheartened honestly , i was only trying to help. 

  Things were not falling in place for me ,but yet i still had logan , "his sister" and my other friends who treated me like no other they used to come over every Saturday and pick me up to go for a drive ,grab an icecream and drop me back home.All this without my notice , it was like as ifit was my birthday every weekend as i kept getting surprises and surprises throughout. 

  My life was fun atleast this was how i used to describe it.

  One fine day , my friends called me up and asked me if i wanted to go out for lunch , i was not feeling too well so i decided to stay back home . They did come over to visit me (even though i only had a cold) they were really nice . They went out and after Logan reached home ,he texted me as usual. One of the guys in our gang messaged me and asked me if i could talk to him personally as there was something bad going  or probably gonna happen soon . I told him that i would call him as soon as i can , i asked Logan if everything was alright and he told me that nothing seemed to be wrong when they went out . This guy was new to their gang as well , he is the guy i never had conversations with except hi and bye so for him to message me out of the blue means something is up for sure. 

  The moment i called him , he told me that there is a new controversy about me . In the car , he told me while they were on their way back that Logan‟s "sister" mentioned  a new girl liking Logan and Logan was like "ah i know who ur referring to" and then Logan was like"victoria right?" and they giggled as if i was their fish caught up in their bait. Am i used again? Was i being used ? but why would a guy like Logan do that to me?Impossible. I refused to believe the guy who told me about this and i wanted to interrogate Logan immediately. He told me that i should not mention about any of this to Logan as his reputation would be ruined and he promised to show me evidence that Logan is just trying to use me to move on from his ex.

  My days from this point onwards turned out to be weirder than i expected , earlier it was just Christian on my mind now its Logan too , but not in that sense . Logan would never do such a thing to me . This guy who was new to the gang started texting me on a daily basis which made me feel a little bit uncomfortable as i didnt know him that well and i cant seem to figure out what his intentions were .Like what was he trying to do? He started talking to me about all sorts of things , i was so desperate to inform Logan but i just couldnt gather enough courage .However, Logan knew that this guy has been texting me for some time and he even told me that the guy is somehow into me . I couldnt say anything and Logan was confused , he told me "well,arent you gonna give your honourable opinion about this matter madam"? and i was like "um no its all good , people like each other"and i dont think Logan was contended with my answer .

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