Days continued and in my late night chat with Logan he asked me something strange out of the blue , he asked me "vic ,what if one day someone will ask you out on a date?" plainly i replied "well , i‟ll take a screenshot of the message and ask for ur opinion" and Logan knew my condition , i would never date before the age of 18. 

  Logan continued and said

 "what if im that person?"

 I replied , "well dont be weird .. i would still ask for ur opinion" 

Logan : " well , i would tell you to say yes"

Me : "one thing is for sure , you‟re completely drunk" 

Logan : " dont think about it too much"

  While we continued chatting , it was 3 am and i received a phone call from an unknown number . I picked up the phone thinking that it was Logan pranking me as he always used to call with an unknown number . When i picked up the phone , i heard a strange thick loud adult man‟s voice   "hello" , it said .I was trembling , it was 3 am . I asked him if he dialed the wrong number , he kept calling me with some other girl‟s name and he told me about how he enjoyed last Saturday night with me .I trembled and i told him "what Saturday night? I dont know you"He continued , " well dont play the innocent victim , we both had fun after having three shots together"I hung up and texted Logan immediately and he told me to block the number that instant , i did what he told me to and i was so confused i couldnt understand what the anonymous guy meant . Logan told me that the guy probably mistook meas someone else . Finally , i decided to act natural like whats there to get so hype about right? Exactly after 15 minutes , i received a text message from another anonymous number and i really couldnt understand what the text meant so i copy– pasted the chat to Logan and he was shook . He told me to change my number the very next morning and not to reply to any of those messages . When i provoked him to tell me what it was about , all he said was that someone is trying to play dirty games with me . And , he didnt wanna talk about it anymore . The next day itself i told my dad that i wanted to change my number but he told me that he was busy so i had to wait for another day .Logan made sure that i would inform him whenever i received any of these messages again . Surprisingly , i did not receive anymore messages from the guy so i felt a bit relieved.

  In the evening , my mom knocked on my room door and wanted to talk to me as she said that its been long since we had our last mother and daughter session. She started to brush my hair and asked me about Logan. She thought i was into Logan , i mean why does everyone thinkso ? i had to explain her my whole friendship history with Logan and she was  so fond of Logan ever since then . Did i mention that she disliked Christian? I really dont know why but she did like everytime i used to play overtime nearby Christian‟s house , she would come thereafter work and just drag me home . When i asked her the reason behind this , all she could say was that its for my own good .Well , it doesnt matter now that he is gone. 

  My mom was a cheerful and a bubbly person , she started cracking jokes about school and all and we were having a nice undisturbed conversation until my phone rang , i thought it was Logan calling with his name hidden you know the usual Logan style of calling always with his name hidden. I didnt want to pick up the phone as i respected the fact that i was with my mom and all . My mom gave me that look and asked me why i was so scared to answer the call , i told her that it was Logan and he can wait its not a problem.She looked at me with a sudden stare and told me to pick up the phone , i took the matter lightly and i was like okay then maybe she wanted to speak to Logan right?...

  "Hello" I said. 

 "remember me? " 

This voice belonged to the same person last night , the guy with the thick rough voice and my expression changed completely . I look dumbstrucked and my mom told me to keep the phone on speaker .

 "remember where we went on Saturday ?u looked smoking with the red dress i gave you!" the voice continued.  I told my mom that i had no idea what this guy was talking about , i didnt even know the guy and my mom started to believe me and she wanted to track the unknown number somehow although it was generally impossible to track a hidden number , Suddenly , the unknown guy replied "vic?" 

  I swore to god , i told my mom i really didnt know how this guy was aware of my name i didnt know him and my mom felt betrayed for a second . She gave me the look that showed as if she didnt expect her daughter to do this . I literally didnt know what to say i started screaming on the phone while asking the guy regarding how he figured out my name . My mom did not take this matter nicely ,she actually thought i had a hand in all of this . I dont blame her because of the fact that the guy actually knew my name , i told her to call Logan and ask him because he knew the truth . Instead , she confiscated my phone , eventhough i started crying she chose to take my phone until she could figure out the truth all by herself. I didnt know what to do , i needed Logan at this point but i couldnt contact him at all.

  At night , i tried sneaking in my mom‟s room to take my phone but it was locked so i had to wait till morning all by myself feeling all perplexed and just confused in general . The next morning , she returned my phone to clear things out with her and the first person i thought of was Logan . I called Logan at 7 in the morning and actually woke him up for him to speak and convince my mom . He explained her everything and only than did she believe me and even apologized to me . I apologized to Logan and he really didnt care that i disturbed his sleep . His only reaction was " i know you need someone ,speak up whats the matter " and i told him about the entire incident and trust me i felt so relieved even though it was just a matter of a phone call . Logan asked me if i wanted to go out with him and the others during the weekend , but then he was like"u know what lets forget it" and the only reason he said this was because he knew i wouldnt be in the mood to go out so he decided to stay home as well so he could video call me .  

  Sometime later , we had school as usual and after several days of pure happiness flowing in my life and Logan‟s life of course . We looked like the typical bestfriends in tv serials . We attended the same computer class and my seat was always reserved beside him . I remember this one time , he texted me during computer class asking me the reason why i was staring at him continuously while i actually wasnt and he continued by saying"i guess every girl is into me , and i bet ur staring at me only because i look amazingly good looking today" and i was like " ew no dont get ur hopes too high kid" . 

  One fine day , i forgot to take my phone with me after computer class and Logan was staying back to complete his classwork. I completely forgot about my phone until he came back to class to hand over my phone to me . He looked different , his eyes looked more fierce and i started nagging about how i managed to complete my math homework on time . This time ,he didnt bother to listen to me and acted like he wasnt interested . Something was wrong for sure . Logan never acts this way with me i thought he was joking just to scare me a little bit and i kept bugging him the whole time and all he told me was "you left your phone unlocked". Thats it .And i was like so? So what if its unlocked?I couldnt understand what he was saying and it was about going home time by then, before i could go home the captain of my"club" the one im in , the same as Logan .He came up to me and told me that my name has been inserted in the singing competition that was coming up in the next two days . I wasnt ready at all , i didnt even know what this is about and i couldnt stop the guy from walking away it was too late .

  I came back home and did my usual routine , washed my face and laid flat on my bed waiting for a good afternoon text from Logan but i never got it . I messaged him and there was no reply , although i waited for 2 hours . The latest he used to reply was like 10 minutes? I pondered on what he said for a whole hour . "You left your phone unlocked" what could that mean? I checked my messages and opened all my social media with no hints . Until something struck me all of a sudden . My informer‟s messages . Could it be that Logan read everything? 

  I remember that i cleared all my messages before school , and for the sake of satisfying myself i checked my last message with the informer . And guess what ? even after clearing all the messages yesterday, i was probably in a hurry that i didnt clear my chat history today . And my informer has been chatting with me daily like i mentioned before and my reply was always " i really dont think Logan would do such a thing" and my informer just texted me in the morning saying that ,Logan has bad intentions towards his"sister" and that he has been staring at her inappropriately for the past 2 days. This informer guy has also been awkwardly flirting with me , but i never responded at all . Did Logan read all of this ? he must have been so heartbroken if he did.I decided to call him , i left 15 missed calls yet he wasnt picking up and i asked Jordan to call him for me . Jordan told me that he was with Logan and that Logan‟s battery was dead . So , i was kinda relieved because he doesnt hate me or anything .My informer called me after 5 minutes , to tell me more about Logan eventhough i wasnt interested and he told me to check Logan‟s phone and his chat with his"sister" if i didnt believe him. Ive never touched Logan‟s phone or meddle with his personal life in that way , it was always him who used to tell me everything . I told him that this wasnt right , whatever he was telling me wasnt right and i hung up. I waited an hour after that before finally trying to call Logan once more , this time he picked up the phone.

  He seemed so different and didnt say hi or anything , he was just like "yes victoria?"he called me by my full name . Does that indicate trouble? I asked him if everything was ok and he probably got fed up of me asking him again and again and finally 

he told me " u know what vic , i wanna be completely honest with you" 

 I replied "please do " 

Logan continued by saying " i saw all ur chats , ur deleted chat history got restored and i saw what you had to say about me to ur so called "informer"

 I told him that it was never me who said anything against him , it was that guy and only him . Infact , i was always against my informer . Logan told me that if im into"my informer" why didnt i tell him? I told Logan that i dislike that guy and i was only into Christian. All those flirty text messages werent sent by me . Logan said "i thought we tell each other everything and i thought that atleast you are gonna back me up when someone says all that against me but instead ur okay with that same guy to send flirty messages to you" i told Logan i needed a chance to explain , it wasnt like that . He hung up on me before i could say anything more . He did not reply to my text messages or my phone calls and being a girl who is more of a fighter than a cry baby , i decided to solve the problem instead of crying about it . I called my informer and told him about the trouble that he had caused for me i told him to call Logan and apologize immediately and to explain him that i had nothing to do with this. Yet ,this informer guy refused to listen to me as according to him he has never lied about Logan‟s facts , it has always been based on the truth . Finally i asked for proof , i wanted evidence coming from his side.

  Surprisingly , he wasnt frightened and he asked me to stay on the phone and not say a word as he wanted to call Logan‟s"sister" and he wanted me to listen to their conversation. 

  Logan‟s "sister " picked up the phone and i was so shocked to see how close these two are and when my informer asked her about Logan , she actually said "yeah well Logan knows that vic is into him" . Its either i was being betrayed or Logan was .I hung up and literally didnt know what to do . I didnt cry because i thought there must be a solution and the wrong ones will surely be punished . The next day , exactly one day before my singing competition we had our usual classes and this time i wasnt seated beside Logan for our computer class . He was quiet and didnt talk much to anyone except Jordan . I told Jordan to help me out in this and all he could say was

 "are you sure you dont like Logan in that way"?

  and i was like "no , what made you think so?" And he was like oh nothing! All this wasnt working and i was waiting for some miracle to happen. When i reached home ,Logan called me and trust me i was as happy as if i achieved something great and Logan said "Vic , i know you‟re into me there‟s nothing to hide anymore but.." and i was like "NO STOP , if i liked you in that way i would have told you i wouldnt wait until someone else would tell you"Jordan was beside him when he called me and Logan was like , "im really hurt thanks to what you did , you went hand in hand with ur informer against me" and i actually screamed at Logan and asked him if it was possible for me to do such a thing to him despite all that we have been through together . He kept quiet and later that night he texted me an apology message .  

  I had my singing competition the next day and with all this chaos how am i supposed to think? How am i supposed to practice ?Logan told me that he‟ll help me practice but i didnt want to talk to him much . Mia called me that same night and my informer texted me saying that he needed to talk to me as well for god knows what reason now . I still couldnt tell Logan anything so i decided to turn off my phone for the night and just focus on what ive to do next. The singing competition.

  The next day , my "informer" pulled me to the side of the stage before it was my turn to perform and he was like "hey you arent nervous right? or are you?" and i was like"what do you think? Im trembling here "and he was like its all gonna be okay . I was waiting for Logan‟s goodluck wish but he never appeared backstage. They called my name and it was my turn to sing , well it wasnt that bad . I kept staring at Logan throughout the entire song , just to gain confidence and all he gave me was a plain smile . After my performance , Logan went backstage to take me to sit beside him and he complimented my   performance with all sorts of things that a girl would like to hear coming from a guy .

  My "informer" was also happy for me but not happy with Logan for some reason again , Jordan and everyone were cheering for me and i won second place not bad at all for someone who was too stressed out to practice . Logan continued with his compliments until he dropped me to my car and he even texted me the moment i reached home , he wanted the video of me singing to show his mom , someone i was really fond of . Logan‟s dad knew me pretty well and we all were somehow interconnected . I went out for family dinner later that night and Logan texted me to inform him whenever i reached home as he had some news for me. 

  The moment i reached home , with full agitation i asked him regarding what he wanted to talk about and he was like "Vic ,Christian is dating some new girl " and i was like "what? Who?" and he said , yeah its um.. some senior from the school nearby. "Another seniorr?" and he was like yeah . Gosh , is my life that problematic somehow? This time i couldnt obey Logan‟s advice to like move on and all that . I messaged Christian , well i got his contact from Jasmine and i just said"hi" he didnt reply for a whole 12 hours and finally he replied "ya?" in the morning as if he wasnt interested at all . Logan didnt know about this or else he would have killed me for texting Christian , well obviously because he cared for me and everything related to Christian usually harms me somehow.

  I asked Christian "hey there is this thing i wanted to ask you about , can we talk?"and he was like "go on.." so i decided to finally break my bubble and ask him if he was dating someone new . And out of full awkwardness he was like "nah , she‟s my cousin" deep down in my heart i wanted to say "cousin my foot!" the last time he said "cousin" he was referring to his   girlfriend that i never knew about .Surprisingly , my chat with Christian didnt end there . He asked me if i wanted to come watch a movie with Jasmine and some other mutual friends ?u know like we shared a lot of mutual friends right? So yeah . I was nervous because i didnt want to invade his quality time with his friends but then i thought to myself "when will i ever get this opportunity again?" i told Logan that i was invited for a hangout and he was like"wow , Christian started a conversation with you" and i was like "noo.. I.." but ididnt want him to get pissed so i said yeah!Confidentally . Being a girl , who cares the least about her looks , I , Victoria Savanah, for the first time ever chose my own outfit two nights before the hangout just because Christian was gonna be there. I even researched on how to style my hair ,like what kind of hairbands to use and all .Logan knew what i was doing although i never admitted to him , he was like "go just the way you are , it would be nicer " i told him that he was out of his mind , my hair looked like a broom. The morning before the hangout i decided to go to the saloon nearby my house to straighten my hair because i couldnt do it . Logan didnt know about this though.

  It was the day of my "special" hangout and Logan told me to keep my phone active so that he wouldnt be stressed out looking for me everywhere and i asked him"arent you gonna wish me good luck?"And he was like " goodluck with Christian Vic" 

  I reached the place and saw Christian there standing infront of me after such a longtime . It was like as if all this while , my efforts to move on from him was useless , all my feelings came back just by looking at him . Just like the first time when i saw him in the convenient store . U know how in movies , we get that effect of butterflies in our stomach. It was no longer butterflies , it felt like the whole forest was in my tummy i was so excited for no apparent reason . We walked closer towards Christian and he asked us if we wanted to get our movie tickets first . We agreed , we as in me , Jasmine and the others. My seat was supposed to be beside him coincidentally and i felt like calling Logan and just jumping on top of him for no reason . Logan texted me and asked me if everything was okay . I couldnt text much so i told him that i‟ll call him once im home . Christian was the only guy in the hangout but his guy friends were gonna come too later that evening. When we reached inside the theatre just before i could sit beside Christian ,Jasmine told me to move and she sat beside him . Thats okay , i thought . After the movie , we went to grab snacks and Christian asked me for my phone . He saw  Logan‟s notifications and just swiped it up he asked me , so.. "is Logan your guy?"and i was like "what no way". He smiled  and we all had to leave , i had to drop Jasmine and the others back home.   

  When i reached home , i texted Logan giving him an idea about what all happened and he was like "hope you‟re happy vic" and i was like "Logan i‟ll never be able to move on , im so stuck to him its crazy and i want it this way " and Logan patiently listened to my rants and all. I texted Christian the same night "thanks for today i had fun! " and he was like"yeah sure vic thanks too" that message i will never forget , because it made my day literally just that made my day. I never expected Christian to crack me up later that night , it was around midnight when he texted me . "  Hey Vic are you up?" 

and I was like yeah ,i was chatting with Logan but somehow asked his permission to reply Christian first , like what if he needed something urgently right?. He replied me very late after an hour or so and asked me if i would like to join him and his so called"cousin" , the "cousin" that Logan referred to as his current girlfriend as well as some other mutual friends . I was delighted and i ran to my parents room just to check if they were awake so that i could ask their permission right there itself , i didnt realise that was a mistake all thanks to my excitement so , they screamed. Well , not"they" but mom screamed at me pretty badly as in the beggining itself i mentioned that she wasnt fond of Christian , it was by God‟s grace that she allowed me to go for one time and probably she didnt want me to take advantage of her always giving into my needs . She clearly said a flat NO but i thought of trying in the morning again as she's generally nicer during the day than night.

  In the morning , it was the same answer no matter how much i tried begging for it .I couldnt tell Christian the actual reason why she didnt allow me (well obviously) so i had to intentionally and with my heavy heart , ignore him . Later in the afternoon ,he called me but i couldnt hear anything thanks to his poor signal . Can you imagine the joy i went through looking at his name pop on my phone . I told Logan and he was like dont force it , otherwise my mom would be stricker in the near future. With that came an end to my conversation with Christian. 

  To be honest , thats how my days passed by . The usual day dreaming about Christian and feeling the slight sensation of a broken heart . The only difference is that in my case , i had Logan as my companion. Just a few days later , Logan told me that Christian is back to doing all the things that oppose the word innocent with his current girlfriend , it was notJaynie . For the second time , i asked him what these things were and he told me"remember the anonymous guy who called you saying all those inappropriate things and stuff" i was like "yeah whats that got to do" , he told me that Christian has been doing all "those stuff" with his girlfriend despite being a young teenager , we havent even reached the point where people could define us as "young adults"

  I didnt know how to feel about this but i had a very strong feeling that things were gonna go downhill for me . Everytime i think about what Christian has been doing all his life and what he is currently doing i drown even deeper in my thoughts . Like as if i was in some titanic movie , and Logan‟s words were the punctures that drowned the entire ship . I trusted Logan and refused to believe that all this was fake, he would lie to himself but im sure never to me. Is this what you call heartbreak?Imagining the vulgarity , the dirty actions of my fellow loved one makes me sick ,sick with anxiety and sick with everyone else . There were times that i had to unecessarily yell at Logan because that is all that is left to be done for me eventhough it hurts as well to do so. 

  There was a wedding coming up , and this time Logan was not invited . It was just for close family and friends , i had an idea that this ceremony is hosted by one of Christian‟s acquantaince and Logan really didnt want me to go , he said that it wasnt worthed and that he wont be there to handle me if i see something "unwanted"related to Christian . Being more of a warrior without exaggeration , i told him that if Christian doesnt even care about me why should i be affected by his foul deeds . I want to put on my new dress ,carry my smile and walk with confidence as if nothing happened . Logan undoubtedly said yes . He chose my outfit and my matching bracelet . Mom made me use that black line on my eyelid again ,eyeliner i suppose but i was finally dressed. In the car , i received a message from Logan‟s ex. She started a conversation with me and Logan told me that it was okay for me to chat because there was nothing wrong in it as my conversation with her got extended , so did the intensity of it . She asked me if i was still into Christian , out of the blue and i told her "not sure" , i didnt want to assure anything to anyone as it has been a very long time and i was embarassed by the fact that im unable to move on till date. She told me that "what if you like Logan instead , i really think you like Logan right now i mean its everywhere , admit it wont you?" I didnt want to tell this to Logan as he kept telling me about how good his ex was as an advicer . I told her that "ive never thought of Logan in that way , he‟special like a brother" and she went on typing "hahaha" for the whole minute until i decided to ignore her.

  The moment i reached the venue , the first thing i saw was Logan‟s grandparents and i really thought he was pranking me when he said that he wasnt gonna be there but after looking for him in the entire venue he actually wasnt there . We went to congratulate the newly weds we as in , my parents and me. And there he was ,Christian sipping his crystalline drink right infront of me . I couldnt control my expressions , he looked at me from top to bottom and walked away as if i was nothing , as if he didnt know me . I told my mom that i was really sleepy while the truth was that i felt like bursting . I saw Christian nearby the staircase with this girl, his current girlfriend . Laughing , giggling and literally staring at me . I walked backwards with hopes that they wouldnt notice me and ran to the lobby . I spoke to no one in the car , and no one when i reached home . No energy to rant to Logan or wake him up as he fell asleep while waiting for me . I rolled on my bed without changing my outfit , trying to sleep but nothing seemed to work .Watching entertaining videos had no more effect on me , i went downstairs to grab a glass of hot milk that i had to heat from the fridge .