A/n: This is a prayer to God. I hope you like it! 🙏🙏🙏❤🙏🙏🙏🌹🌲

Sometimes it's hard to know,
Sometimes it's difficult to understand,
Why am I born?
Why am I here for in this world?
I can't seem to find it.

I am jealous of many other people,
They finally found their meaning.

What about me?
God, why am I born?

Tell me what am I here for?
You are utterly unfair.
Was I born to be unlucky?
Was I not meant to actually live?

I almost died as a child.
I could have already gone back to you.
The world hasn't tainted me back then.
Now, I'm a sinner.

I love you and I have faith in you.
Even so, my dear Lord!
Tell me why was I born?
What is my mission?

I keep on searching for it.
I keep going on circles.
I need some kind of reason to keep living.
Why did I survive as a baby?

I made a mistake when I quit my job,
All because I can't adapt to our messy world,
Tainted with fear,
Tainted with separation.

Was it really a mistake, though?
Thinking about it,
If I didn't quit it, my life would totally be more of a mess!
Even so, my life is now black and white.
It was as if I don't have meaning at all.

Why am I here for?
Why give me something to be happy with?
You took it away in such a short time.
Why give me happiness in a wrong time?

A/n: Yes. I'm ranting at God right now. I still hate the pandemic as it caused me to lose my job.