MAH MOM IS MAKING PASTA SAUCE TODAY BUT SHE SAID IT'S FOR TOMORROW BUT THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID LAST FRIDAY OR SATURDAY OR SOMETHING AND WE DIDN'T HAVE PASTA THEN LIKE GOSH DARN IT MOM Y U BE LYING I WANT MY PASTA XDXDD

I also cut my finger in Tech Ed, and it kept bleeding, but I think it's good now~

It got pained by a clip clamp thing, but I wasn't even trying to clip myself or anything, I was just trying to remove it but then it went SHWACK and flung closed and it slapped my finger or something, I dunno XD

I had some more ideas for Qesald animal things - I think it was some sort of cat or bird or something - but I forgot XD

ALSO I HAVE A THING

SO when chatting with people sometimes, I subconsciously get louder or something??

It happened today in Tech Ed, and Spanish, and it also happened on the band bus (probably more than I realized knowing myself XD)

But I dunno why or any correlations or anything??

I couldn't think of anything, so I dunno XD

It's weird :3

One time I was telling the Toris person something - I forgot what it was XD - and then I dun remember whether it be Matthaboo or Alfred who told me that I could be heard from the back, so I just kinda sat there awkwardly, and then the color guard instructor said not to pick on me or something like that, but it was amusing and awkward XD

I also caught myself getting loud when I said "If I don't care about you" and my band director looked back at me, and I panicked cause I was freaking out whether she's bothered that I was getting loud or if she heard me out of context, and it still bothers me now even tho it was a while ago and she shrugged it off but I cAnt hELP iT bLEEEEeeeEEHHH KMS

*worries about getting in trouble for doing something a long time ago* XD

LEGIT Going into fifth grade, when we were outside the elementary school for Little Dude's orientation thing, I wrote my name on the wall thingy with a cherry, and my mom told me to stop cause I'll get in trouble, so I tried to cross it out so that they wouldn't know that I was the one who did it, but I still saw my name, and we left, and every time we passed the elementary school on the bus, Id freak out and hope I don't get pulled aside (even tho they probably got it out XD) and EVEN NOW I feel on edge when I go to the elementary school, but there are other reasons for that too X3

It's like PTSD XD

But anyways, I can't help but freak out cause of things XD

I have been practicing, but county band is next week and I'm just like crAP I don't feel ready XD

I think I'll be fine? Maybe I can get a higher chair? Maybe I won't derp up auditions?

Then again, I'll probably go full out holding-back-tears-and-tight-throat panic-mode spoopy time and forget how to do a Bb or something like that knowing my luck XD

But eh, I'll try XD

*gives pep talks to self*
*feels confident*
*goes into room to audition feeling good*
*stutters over a word, trips on air, or something else small but stupid*
*ego crashes*
*does okay on audition, but better at home*
*Hardcore regrets life decisions*
^^Actually me XD

I'm actually pretty confident when it comes to marching band or concert band, cause I could actually play the things, but when it comes to county or pit I'm like "NOPE" *tries to play things but does it quietly cause experienced people can hear you and intimidation*

Speaking of marching band, I'm pumped for next season, but it's still several months till then kill me XD

I hope I get a solo by the time I graduate, cause that sounds like fun X3

One time in marching band, I almost ran into another person cause I was back marching, but I never did that before cause I thought we moved the line back, but then the majority didn't do the thing, so it was where it normally was, but I couldn't see cause I was going backwards XD

Good thing I could hear the clarinet hardcore squeaking so that I didn't run into them *glares at poor excuse for clarinet player*

Dude, we have one crap clarinet player and one fantastic one, so I guess that balances out XD

*casually indirectly compliments person who isn't even here to hear it* XD

Do other people do that?
Make a good compliment for someone that they'll never hear?

Cause that's legit my life XD

Hey, ya wanna know what I wanta do this band season?

Be nicer to strangers, cause during ACCs I think it was, or some other competition or something I dunno, we were walking to the field thingy after we performed, and I remember picking up a water bottle for someone in front of me, and I think I ended up doing some other stuff too, so Imma make it a goal to do more stuff like that this year cause bringiNG PEOPLE HAPPY :D

AND I'M GONNA HAVE A LEGITIMATE HIGH FIVE COUNT FOR THE WHOLE BAND SEASON INSTEAD OF JUST ACC'S :D

It's gonna be great X3

LET'S MAKE A GOAL

HOW ABOUT ONE THOUSAND HIGH FIVES FOR THE WHOLE MARCHING BAND SEASON, STARTING WITH THE FIRST FOOTBALL GAME LET'S GO B3