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*heads up, this is just venting, don't fret*

What am I doing with life?

What is life?

What is emote?

What is motivation?

For the past week, my brain has been in a zone of "what" and "why" and

"whaaaaaaa-?"

I honestly have no idea what the heck I'm doing or why I'm doing it or what I'm supposed to do or anything, and it's bothering the heck out of me, but I'm guessing it'll go away someday?? Somehow??

What??

Internal screaming??

I don't need to talk about any of this further, really, I just feel like venting a lil bit, so don't worry

But nothing feels real right now. Everything I do feels like an act, even when I know I'm just being myself, but why is it like that?

Why doesn't anything feel natural?

Why does everything feel staged?

Time is going by so fast, yet it feels so slow??

It's like five months till 2018

What happened?

It felt like forever, but it feels like I got close to nothing accomplished??

I always feel like crying, but I can never do it??

And even when I am enjoying myself, it doesn't feel real??

It feels like I'm constantly out of place, even when I do what I usually do that made me happy, but now every happy moment feels completely drained??

But I'm not really upset either??

Everything's just blurred out and hazy, I dunno, but no one can do anything about it??

I dunno, everything I do feels forced, even in my sleep, it's stressful, but hey, what can I do?

Wait it off. That's what <3

Have this picture of a gerbil and forget everything I said~