school's back in a couple weeks and I've still got a lot of hw to do I think

I've finished the first 21 Chem questions, I've gotten through the first six chapters of Gulliver, I did like thirteen questions on the Anatomy and Physiology first assignment (the teach pursuaded me into joining with the trout rip me and my manipulative brain), and I tried to teach myself Government vocab jazz?? but I'm bad at stuff?? and I remember before that I was confused with what vocab words I was supposed to do cause I counted and didn't have all the vocab words if I remember correctly??

So I still have to do the rest of Chem, which is halfway through, seven more sections of Gulliver questions plus the rest of the reading, the vast majority of A&P, and the entirety of Gov. cause even tho I tried to work on educating myself before I have no idea what I'm doing so I'm probably just gonna go do the assignments and educate myself once I have a general understanding of what I'm doing

also I finished my resume if I decide to apply for a job, and tbh I'm pretty proud of it

I still have yet to show my dad, and he even said he can show me his resume today 

his resume is literally 16 pages long and he left plenty of things out, while I'm over here rocking a one-page resume cause the only experience I've ever had consists of community service things, and I was able to put three things down for that

I was so confused on what to do for the "awards" section that the template had, so I changed it to "accomplishments" cause the band director suggested it and I liked the idea, and I finally filled it out, and tbh I would hire myself lmao

idk if I'm gonna do it yet tho cause scheduling and crap, so I'll still have to talk to people about all that fun stuff

growing up is complicated it's weird

like, I need car and insurance to get to job, but I need job to make money for car and insurance, or I need experience to get job, but I need job to get experience

need college to get good job, but need good job to pay for college

lmao what is this world we live in

my dad talked about a psychiatrist when I suggested that I'm interested in becoming a therapist maybe, which is basically a therapist who's allowed to prescribe drugs,  and I rlly liked the idea of doing that, so I looked up how long it takes to become one

it takes 8-12 years of schooling

and I'm just "boi I just want something inbetween graduating and becoming a novelist I don't wAnt this"

and I also looked up that a normal therapist for mental health takes like 8 years to complete, which is not as bad, but price of the schooling is ALSO a factor of the equation

the equation of life is basically

money + satisfaction + health + pain + suffering + deals with the devil + sustenance = life

there's a snickers bar in the freezer and I rlly want it but it's probably someone else's and I wouldn't be too jolly if someone else ate my freezer candy (or candy in general) so I'm not gonna take it and hope someone offers it to me lmao

basically the three professions I'm looking at rn are editing, teaching, or theraping 

idk but yee