Boi I only remember .5% of what I said today and 28% of what I actually did, everything's such a numb blur I had no idea what day it was 98% of the time

Frikkin percentages

The Band Director didn't come in till the afternoon, and I didn't like the substitute

He stresses me out whenever he subs, don't ask why

My memory has been more crap than usual lately, I may or may not hafta get some sort of agenda together

I keep forgetting to do stuff

Frikkin Arlo has yet another thing wrong with him now, and now he sounds jacked up when I tried to play him

The seventh grade flute player - though she's a good person - keeps frikkin aggravating me and physically hurting me constantly, taking and touching my stuff without permission, taking jokes too far, don't get me wrong, I do like her, but she pissed me off today, I wasn't in the mood for that crap

I'm kinda glad I have all my major periods after lunch, it's less stressful

I can do last-minute work, and it's great

I almost had a visible mental breakdown in American Cultures today, everyone was yelling and being stupid while they were trying to install a new smartboard in the room next door, and I was legit so close to losing it, I'm just flat out done today

And the thing is, no one even really did anything. It's just me stressing out over little things, and it's bothering the heck out of me, but hey I can't do anything about it, all I can do is keep trying to be my "normal self"

I just can't wait to get out of here, to university, so I can get out of this school and house and actually have the control I want to have

I have not been myself lately, I have not been awake, but maybe some adjustments can help me out, but it'll take a while

Can't tell if I'm just not feeling myself or if I'm just not myself in general, no one has said anything - thank goodness - but I'm still figuring stuff out

Typing this up is making my head hurt, so I'll probably take a nap or some thing