I've been helping myself get better mentally over the past year, and I believe it's been successful so far

I've been focusing on myself more than everyone else while keeping that generous and caring part of me that I hold dearly

But I feel like the more i take care of myself, the more I lose

I've lost some good friends whom I still find good in, but I've also ridded toxic and emotionally abusive friendships

But even with the bad people and thoughts gone, I feel lonelier than I've ever had been

Sure I've still got close friends who I adore and appreciate to no end, but the thought of how much I've lost gets to me

I've lost a lot

Night time thoughts always get me down