It's past 1:00am what the hecc

Boi

So let's talk about crap~

Last Saturday, I was using the restroom before we left the competition

I got stuck in the stall

I tried to open it normally, it wouldn't budge, then I tried to lift the door to open it, cause that was what I did to close it

It didn't work

I started to panic cause I legitimately couldn't get out, I was stuck for like 30 entire seconds that felt like two minutes, which is longer than it usually takes to exit a frikkin stall

But I got out, so that was cool

I'm also realizing how bad my memory is getting, I'm forgetting to do pretty important things, but I found a lil journal thing around the house with barely any pages filled out, so I tossed those and now I have a fresh journal

It's pretty neat, I think

I forgot to call the person who fixed instruments, but that's alright cause Arlo is still in the band room, so my plan rn is to pick him up tomorrow, call the guy when I get home, then go to the place as soon as possible, cause I miss my child

I spent time with Spirit today tho, and she was good too. She's great to hang around with

You can't just force her to do things. She doesn't respond well if you try. There's gotta be a mutual trust between the two if you want the outcome to sound good

That's with anyone, basically, Burrito and Arlo too

Gotta take care of the children, but the only one I haven't harmed so far is Spirit

I gotta get my life together

Gotta take better care of my children

I clean them every time they need a cleaning-WAIT OH LORD

I DROPPED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM

AAAAAAACCCCKKKKKKKKK MY CHILDREEENNNNNNNNN

SHOOT I JUST REALIZED

SPIRIT WAS JUST LUCKY

EEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

MY CHILDREN I PROMISE I LOVE YOU

SHOOOOOOOOTTTTTTT

I need to take better care of my kiddos

Frikkin

Band kiddos are kinda like vikings

They name their instrument/weapon and treat them like a legitimate person

Except you don't bash others with a heckin musical device (tho that'd be pretty effective depending on the instrument of choice)

Speaking of memory (a while ago) Toris sent me a reminder today (yesterday??) to get my stuff signed, and even tho I already did it, my brain went "daw thanks fam if I didn't check my stuff earlier I would've completely forgotten"

Toris is quality 👌👌

bUt I'm TrYInG tO GeT BeTTeR aT StUFf

Frikkin after 1:30

I miss my child, in the band room somewhere

I don't even know where he is in the band room

My Band Director's piccolo is nice, tho

She's a bit of a squeaker, but BD said she didn't hear it, and she rang out nicely, so that calmed my nerves a good deal

FrIKKIN WIND THO

IT SUCKS WHEN THE WIND BLOWS WHILE PLAYING ANY OF MY KIDDOS, CAUSE I GOTTA FIND HOW MUCH MORE PRESSURE I GOTTA USE AND THEN THE WIND STARTS AND STOPS SO SOMETIMES I PLAY TOO HARD WHEN IT'S DOWN OR NOT HARD ENOUGH WHEN IT PICKS UP, IT'S FRUSTRATING FOR ME AND MY KIDDOS

Wind is nice when I don't hafta play, but it should get out when I gotta do the things

Especially when it's blowing right against the air flow

Jeez, mother nature

I really miss my child

I swear this emotional attachment towards inanimate objects is not normal but what can you do

It's like frikkin Roderick Usher talking about how vegetables have feelings

At least vegetables are living, I'm emotionally attached to tubes of metal with holes

But it was so weird marching around and not playing, especially when the one key isn't bouncing back up, and when I did attempt to play neither of us could help that it sounded bad, he felt extremely wounded, and it legitimately hurt that he was in "pain"

Can't wait till he's back to good health, cause ever since I got him his one key was a bit stupid, so he'll be fixed right up and be even better than he was before

Precious kiddo 💛