I'm tired as heck but I'm making the this thing anyways simply because

why the heck not

I just finished the English Emerson project thingy and turned it in

I wrote a TON of things, so yeet

I have a stupid bump on the tip of my tongue and it sucks

anyways

County Band auditions was today, and I'm actually not a complete mess, surprisingly

OKI SO I JUST CHECKED MY EMAIL RIGHT NOW AND GUESS WHAT GUYS I APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE FOR MY HALF-ASLEEP EXCITEMENT

I GOT A SCORE OF 143 AND LAST YEAR I GOT 126, SO THAT'S A 17 POINT IMPROVEMENT RIGHT THERE, AND I DIDN'T THINK I WOULD GO UP THAT HIGH

I ACTUALLY GOT INTO FIRST FLUTE GROUP, WHICH I WAS NOT EXPECTING SINCE LAST YEAR I WAS IN THE SECOND FLUTE GROUP, AND CHAIR 6, HAVE NO CLUE HOW MANY CHAIRS THERE ARE, BUT I ACTUALLY MADE IT TO FIRST FLUTE I CANNOT E VEN

lOOORRDDYYY It's too late to be this excited this late, but I'm so heckin happy I was not expecting this much of a jump, I would've been happy with second flute fifth chair, but I'm guessing what I've been doing and the things I've done helped a lot more than I thought it did

Now that that's out there, I feel like talking about the actual audition thingy

My fam took the ninth grade trumpet player there since she didn't have a ride, and the car ride there and back was fun 

When we got there, we kinda went different ways cause she was playing on the piano there after practicing, and I ended up talking to two other people from another school

They were cool. They weren't all too experienced, and it showed, but they are good people

We had fun before auditions

My band director and the one from another school were judging my room, and I was the very last flute to go (heh, last year I was second to last and this year I'm the very last) so before I started I had a nice chat with them

It was fun

When I went back to the auditorium, I actually ended up talking to a group of people from another school, which was enjoyable, and all of this made me think

I'm actually getting better at talking to people in a period of a handful of months

Last year I couldn't talk to anyone, and even though all of the people I talked to today spoke to me first, I didn't just awkwardly say things to do what I need to do, but awkwardly say things in a way that people can relate to/find amusing?? If that makes sense??

idk, it's too late for this, I was stressed as heck before auditioning, but after I learned what parts of the song I had to play it was like a weight just lifted away, but then I made a few mistakes in all the parts which stressed me out at the time, but then it didn't take long for me to not worry about that because the tone sounded better than last year of what I can remember, but then I started worrying about if I actually did well or if being tired just made it seem better, 

It was a heckin ride of emotions and mental breakdowns (I find it hilarious that the people I talked to asked me how I was so calm) but reading that email relieved me sO heckin much, I cannot express in words

Not that I can explain too much with words hEYO 

Anyways, the worst part of countys is over, the second worst is reauditions, but I'm excited

There are a lot of things I do not like about Countys (and probably Districts). When I first got to the table with all the other second flutes last year, I was greeted with a wave of hostility and tension. They seemed so overcompetitive and serious, everyone was practicing their music, and I kept getting glares from people, and at the time I was ready to cry because I was so nervous and overwhelmed

But then after reauditions, everyone was so friendly?? What the heck

And then there are some groups like that while other groups of instruments that I saw were like "oh hey whaddap howzit??"

Boi

But that's basically my biggest complaint about Countys. Other than that, I adore the music and getting to play with a number of people who are more advanced than I am. The power you feel while playing with such a diverse band with different backgrounds - some from private lessons, others public school lessons or even self-taught if there are any - with music challenging enough to be fun, I adore it. 

idk if I'll be able to make districts, but heck I'm overjoyed