Ya know that title can apply to many aspects of my life. But I was specifically talking about me starting a new book. Why do I do this to myself? It's called 'Friends till the End' and it's about trans girl, Max and a depressed girl, Asher and their friendship. It's all original characters, not a real ship. Ah, it's such a cute idea and I had to write it. Like, it's not actual cute but like you get me. Go read it and tell me I don't suck at writing. (but don't actually say that, I don't like people lying to me)

But the title can also apply to mental health. Because it's really all in my head, right? Like, I'm actually making things worse for myself and it's all my fault. Eh, sounds right to me.

Oh, anecdote time.

But before you read it, answer this question:

What do you think I look like? (ie. hair color, skin color, sex [biologically female or male], eye color) Answer honestly, I won't take offense to your answer.

Okay, so you've answered, right? Good, now you can read on.

So I had to go to this party thing today, which I totally didn't enjoy. I was sitting in my room, which is upstairs, and my mom was calling me to come downstairs. I was kinda pissed off and when I responded, my voice sounded lower than it usually does. Essentially, I sounded like a guy. I heard my mom say to whoever was on the phone, I think my dad, 'ugh, that voice she uses makes me think I gave birth to a trans'. Ew, like actually disgusting. Her voice was just so condescending and ugh. That's so closed minded and rude. And like technically I'm trans, just trans non binary. I would rather die than come out to my parents. I mean, I want to die anyway, but you get it, right?

Also, my friend asked me to explain the difference between sex and gender to them and I actually found it kinda hard. They weren't really getting it and I didn't exactly know how to better explain it. Sex is what you are biologically and what doctors and scientists use. Gender is how you identify as, how you feel you are, and has nothing to do with your sex. Is that a good explanation for the difference?  I'm horrible at explaining things, but then again I'm horrible at everything.

Okay, that's it. I'm done, bi.

-SoftxRacoon