vent!!! not real
tw sui

im sorry

is this all that's left to say?
all these years of sadness and pain
led the end to come today
and put 10 shots in my brain

and all the pills i decided to take
and all coping methods were fake
i fell apart and i did break
this is the decision i wanted to make

you have the right to be filled with rage
the truth is you'll forget me as you age
seeking reasons with every turn of my diary's page
the truth was kept in my head, a mental cage

i wanted to die everyday
i begged, sobbed, even prayed
but whoever's in charge didn't want it my way
no matter how bad i wanted to leave, they all want me to stay

it's too late, the decisions been made
my debt in everything has been paid
my life had been taken by my blade
and watch, over time, our memories will fade