Bas' POV 

After brushing my teeth I stepped into the shower and let the warm water wash off all the sweat that I got from making the long trek to Kong's house. I was just starting to realize now that I was making Kong as my shield against the truth that I refused to face: that even before we had gone on this vacation I had been in love with P'Godt. The reason that I refused to accept it even to myself, well, especially to myself, was because I was afraid of getting hurt. P'Godt is obviously straighter than a measuring stick. How would I expect him to have an ounce of attraction towards me?

My tears started to mix with the water that was hitting my face as I raised it upward. I couldn't tell which was flowing faster, my tears or the shower water.

When I finally felt drained of all emotions, I turned off the shower knob and stepped out of the tub, grabbing my towel and drying myself quickly. I put on fresh pajamas and made my way to the bedroom. I was bending to remove the bed cover when I felt my hair being dried briskly from behind me.

"You can get a headache from sleeping with your hair still wet," P'Godt scolded me as he continued to dry my hair with his towel.

I liked the smell of his towel. It smelled the same as him, pleasant and manly. It took superhuman strength to keep from turning around and hugging him tightly and resting my cheek on his chest.

I shook my head to banish my embarrassing thoughts.

"Why are you shaking your head? You've had enough? Okay I'll leave you alone now," said P'Godt all in one breath.

"I'm okay now, thank you, P'Godt," I said, going to my bag of toiletries where I kept my hairbrush.

After brushing my hair in place I climbed under the covers of the bed and shut my eyes tightly.

"Good night, P'Godt," I said almost in a whisper.

"If it's alright with everyone I'm gonna turn the light off now," announced P'Tae.

He seemed to have appointed himself as the keeper of the lights and doors and windows ever since we started our vacation in this cottage. I'm sure everybody was grateful to him for that.

Once the room was enveloped in darkness, for some reason my heart started palpitating, and also for some reason I could hear P'Godt's heavy and labored breathing beside me.

I suppressed a scream when I felt his cold and clammy hand take mine.

"What are you doing?" I whispered to him.

He did not reply but slowly and very quietly turned to face me. Then he pulled the bed covers over us and started to kiss my neck.

I was starting to like it when I realized that what he was doing to me could have been borne only out of physical desire and not out of love.

Was he just missing his girlfriend? I had not forgotten that he was straight and even had a girlfriend.

With all the strength that I could muster, I pushed him off the bed and he fell with a loud thud on the floor, making everyone stand up from bed and making P'Tae run to switch the light back on.