I thought I was learning
And bad thoughts were burning
Out of sight and out of mind
But not even that seemed to be working
It wasn't about God's purpose
Cause then please God feel free, go ahead and tell me why am I hurting
If we're created all equally and are made to live happily
Then explain to me why all these tables are turning

Why is the world screaming bad probabilities
Why can't they ever once yell some real apologies
For all the pain and suffering that everybody lately has been causing me

I didn't used to feel this way
Just used to go about my day
With not a care in the world, rocks to childhood me were pearls
But that all disappeared once I saw what it's like to live in this place

Used to be living in a liquor
Pouring and pouring til someone decided hit you
Used to be richer than richer
Spending and spending til someone decided to de-rich you

All day every day began to start feeling like a bad day
Driving expensive cars now doesn't feel quite the same way
Now that the gas ran out I ain't speeding in a fast lane
Your life was all planned out and so was mine
But after yours took, I think I went a little insane

Steering wheel, of my car
Lost control, you at the bar
Popping pillies, swallow far
The afterparty,nap in the yard

If I could fix everything don't you say I wouldn't take the chance
But you lost yourself way before my weak self even got the chance
Tried catching you but I failed that
Just watched you fall, felt so slow yet so fast
My vision slowly goes black
From all the time that I had that
Time to, at least call and tell you
That I'll always have your back

I wanna say that I tried
But I think that that'd be a lie
Maybe I'll go and hide
So my mommy never hear me say that I've wanted to die
Cause she's always telling me that when I do, it straight-up makes her wanna cry
In my control, it is not in mine
Already lost myself, and I can't be helped, walking with fractured minds

You were never careful