I'm having trouble sleeping...

I usually end up in tears when I stay up...I can't forget the past...I feel so insecure...I'm traumatized, scared, upset, angry?I'm not completely sure...I was molested and raped...To be honest...I might...Go back and...That will end up with someone dying...Me or someone else...I could honestly care less right now...Why is this so hard?What did I do to them?Is this going to happen again?Did I do something wrong?Was I a Mistake?Why me?I don't understand...

Every time I try to understand...I feel my heart, breaking...Splitting in two...I don't know what to do...Am I dying inside?Yes, slowly...And no one seems to care at home...Do they even know?Probably not...Oh, well...I'm slowly Drifting away...From reality...Why can't this be a dream?Why is everything...Always...Going down...I feel so...I don't know anymore...I just feel like dying, all the time...I guess that's all...Bye...

"When someone tells you it's alright, ask yourself.Is it?"

"When someone says, their doing fine.Ask them, are you sure?If they aren't okay...Hug them and reassure them.If they are, smile and say you just wanted to make sure"

I don't know anymore...

-Sam