(I have no more chapter names)

I feel so stupid...You know...I'm a terrible person yet...I don't tell...Anyone

I feel as id I'm drifting away from reality...Is there reality or is this a dream? I could care less at this point...Honestly I don't give anymore fucks about life...I know the one phrase everyone says "But you have so much to live for!" No I don't...My fucking father is sick in the head...My cousins are too!

Even my own brother...I only forgive him...I want to forgive the others, but it's just so hard too...No one truly understands...I'm alone, I feel...So dead inside...I don't want to go back, but I might...If I do...I'll kill myself...I'm serious...Wanna know something?CYS laughed at that...They thought I was joking...I'm not...That's fucking messed up...Why would I joke about killing myself...? I literally almost jumped out a fucking window... tried to die...Cut...I failed every time...No scars...No harm...People wouldn't let me...Not really sure how to feel right now...Bya

Here's a little song -> Irony

https://youtu.be/Pa3jyGj9NxI

Well, seeya

-Sam