~~Her

When I saw him I couldn't believe it.

When he hased me outside, I knew he was there. I could feel him right outside my passenger door. Something inside of me was telling me to sit and not drive away.

That magnetic pull never faded. I could still feel it and it was as strong as ever. Maybe even stronger since we haven't been around each other for so long.

I felt it as we walked into the coffee house together. I sighed as I pulled away from him wiping my face once more.

"Can you order my usual? I'm going to go the bathroom." I asked looking up at him.

He smiled and nodded. I knew he would remember my usual. It wouldn't change. I hated the taste of black coffee. I tried coffee with him for the first time and I hated it. I like the frilly creamers and sugar.

Standing in the bathroom staring at my reflection I laughed to myself. I looked like I had just been ran over my a dump truck and they backed up and ran over me again for good measure.

All my eye makeup was smudged and in complete chaos. I had no lip gloss left on my lips and my eyes were bloodshot making me look high or drunk, probably even both.

I wiped my face down making myself look presentable and re-applied lip gloss. I shrugged at my new reflection. This was as good as it was going to get.

I walked back into the coffee house to see him sitting at a table. He was staring at my coffee that was right in front of him. His own coffee being held in his hand.

He looked to be in deep thought and worried. I watched him for a minute as he blew out a breath and looked up to only look outside. He ran a hand through his blonde hair. He looked stressed.

I sucked in a breath and calmly walked towards the table.
"Thanks. How much do I owe you?" I asked nodding towards the coffee.

"No. You don't owe me. 4 french vanilla shots and 4 shots of liquid sugar right?" He asks.

I nodded and smiled. "I knew you would remember." I said softly. I didn't even think he would hear me.

"I remember everything." He whispered looking into my eyes and I gave him a soft smile.

We sat in silence for a few minutes sipping our coffee. It wasn't exactly an awkward silence but it wasn't comfortable either. Neither of us knew what to say next.

"I'm at a loss of what to say now." He whispered chuckling softly.

I laughed.

"Me too." I agreed.

"Where do you work at now?" He asked. The last time I saw him I was still interning at the radio station that I currently worked at.

"98.7 gave me a full time position after my internship. Funny enough. I get to interview you guys in 2 weeks. I actually tried putting in leave so we wouldn't run in to each other." I explained.

"Damn. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to like ruin all of this or anything." He said shaking his head. His eyebrows pushed together in embarrassment.

"No. It's ok. Like you said it would have happened sooner or later." I said placing my hand on top of his. I could still feel the spark his warmth gave me whenever I touched him.

He smiled at my hand. "You still give me the tingles." He whispered.

"Same." I said smiling softly.

"I thought when I saw you I would scream, yell, or throw a chair at you like in a wrestling match. I definitely didn't think I would drop my pop and break a glass." I thought out loud. He laughed.

"I deserve all that though. This year has been so very good for me professionally. A new album, a new tour, and staying busy. But personally...Uhh...I...I went to rehab." He admitted truthfully looking down at his coffee.

"That's amazing. I'm so proud of you for taking that step." I said softly.

"Thanks. It terrified me. They took away my cell phone when I got there. My only communication to the outside world was visits from the boys. They would only tell me and I quote "you were still breathing"." He said using air quotes.

I laughed. "They did the same with you. They were just trying to protect us both." I explained and he nodded in agreement.

"I missed you though. Through all of it and through the detox and the cravings it was you. You were at the forefront of my mind. You were right there no matter what." He said finally looking at me rather then his coffee cup.

"You have no clue how happy that makes me. But I'm scared. I'm not trying to be hurtful when I say this. But you broke me. We were engaged. Planning the wedding. She was the straw that broke the camel's back per say. I couldn't deal with it anymore. I had given you everything and more." I said to him.

Tears rushed back to my eyes.

"And I will never deserve you. Never again. But please let me be here with you. Not just tonight but start small. Start as friends again." He said.

"Oh but we were never friends. You were so mean in the beginning." I said laughing.

"Because I was terrified of you. You were 16 and the most headstrong girl I had ever met. I thought you were going to beat my ass. Plus you were beautiful. Still are beautiful." He said and we both laughed.

"I was intimidated by you. Yeah y'all were cute but you. You had me wrapped around your pinky finger as soon as you starting banging on those damn drums." I said shaking my head.

He laughed and smiled at me. "Have you heard the new album by chance?" He asked.

I shook my head. "My boss was going to give me a copy to listen to before your interview but I haven't gotten it yet." I explained. He nodded.

"Why?" I asked squinting at him.

"It was the album I put my heart and soul into." He said and I nodded.

"Well when I listen to it. I will let you know." I said.

He held up a finger telling me to wait.

He grabbed his phone out of his pocket and sent me something because it only took a moment for my phone to vibrate in my pocket.

"Ha. Thanks. Can I listen to it tonight when I go home?" I asked and he nodded.

"Ya wanna get out of here?" He asks and I nodded smiling at him.