What are you trying to look for?

        The truth

        That's a lie... What are you really looking for?

        Me...        

        My hand moves slowly sketching the lines of the characters in my strip. The bubble discription haunts my mind for some reason. The words along with the character which surprisingly reminds me of stupid Sean. How is it possible for me to be able to draw his pompous attitude... and that smirk that just drives me crazy.

        I slam my book shut not knowing where on earth was I taking the volume of the book now. I mean I haven't been able to make one decent page at all since... well since Sean decided to make a sudden appearance in my life.

        I let out a frustrated sigh and look up at the classroom door, usually Sean is here a little bit after I'm here. But not today, he hasn't shown up at all ever since what happened in the morning. Why do you care? He's obviously just going on to see how many other girls he can get to fall on their knees.

        Psychology class began, and it didn't matter if I didn't care if Sean stepped right through that door. But that was the thing, he never did. Class continued on without him and it seemed like things were back to normal. Back before I was conscious of Sean being in the room. This ache in my chest began to nag under my skin. Then the feeling of guilt started to swarm up and it got me extremely annoyed.

For crying out loud he was the one that was going to homecoming with one of my minions. So what if I publicly went over and had James ask me to go to the homecoming. It's not like we both want something serious out of it.

The bell ran and I literally dragged my feet out of the classroom and over to my locker. Usually I would fix my lip-gloss and head straight over to the cafeteria and meet with the girls. But deep down my gut wanted to just get out of the school and call it a day.

"I'm so done with this day." I breathed and just closed the locker, leaving all of my books and stuff inside. I popped out my iPhone and unlocked it. For some reason I just wanted to talk to someone, anyone really.

As I went through my contacts I realized that every name that was on display. It wasn't someone that I could really open up to. In the end, my phone was just filled with names not real people.

"So the lying bitch has a heart." Someone whispers from behind me and I couldn't help but jump in place and turn. A hand appeared around my arms and I was pinned up against the wall. It took me a while to realize that I had made the journey to the opposite side of the school. I was near the gymnasium and since it was lunch time no one was really over here.

I looked up and starred into those damn judgmental multicolored forest eyes and I literally felt my shell crack just a bit.

"Please, hearts only bring you down." I snarked right back at him, and for a solid long silent minute we just starred at one another. I didn't understand why Sean would damn care if I was lying or something.

Finally his hand moved up, and for some reason I closed my eyes and flinched. Thinking that maybe he was going to lash out at me in some way. But instead I felt his thumb brush away some little wet droplet that was coming down my cheek.

"In time everything that you build up with lies will come down on you soon." He whispered to me but it didn't seem like his usual bitter angry tone. I looked up at him and for a second I didn't know what to say.

Why does this stupid hot headed brute care about me?

"You shouldn't even pretend to care about me." I snapped at him, knowing deep down that he wasn't pretending. I shoved him away from me, not wanting to admit that his words had shaken me just slightly.

"I'm not pretending. For some reason I can't stop and think that you need help." He chuckled darkly and just stared at me.

"Well obviously I don't need your help. You know who might need your help picking out the perfect mums and what not? Your date." I said not meaning for my voice to sound so hurt. But it did and I just wanted to runaway. I turned but his hand again captured my own and pulled me towards him.

His firm chest was something many girls would probably dream of. This was a perfect candidate for a romance movie, where the hero just holds the damsel and distress. Saving her from a fate or doom that the hero will fix. And then once they share an intimate gaze the kiss is all it takes to seal the deal.

That wasn't me. I am not a damsel in distress.

I didn't even last one second near him before again I shoved him away hard. Making him tumble back towards the wall.

"Don't you dare touch me like that again." I said my voice icy cold and stern. But as he looked at me with shock and I finally turned around to walk away. Secretly deep down, my inner damsel knew that I lied. I want him to touch me.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"Woah Jay, what's going on?" James asked me a bit concerned as I took us over to one of the supply closets and took us inside.

"I mean I got your text, and I thought that maybe something happened." He asked concerned as I turned around to look at him and gave him a playful smile.

"Well I had the sudden urge to kiss you again" I said biting my lip in a teasing way as my hands ran up his chest. His eyes slowly turned from concern to amusement as his hands slid down my sides and remained on my hips.

Lies, I want to kiss someone else.

"I didn't know I made that much of a great impression on you." He whispered leaning in to lightly brush his lips to mine. His hands pulling me closer to him. My hands running up his chest and wrapped themselves around his neck.

"Of course you did. Now can you help me, with this urge?"

Not really, his kiss was just a kiss... not like the almost kiss with Sean.

"Your wish is my command." In a second his lips molded against mine and yes we were kissing. Just kissing, his hands rubbed up and down my back. And yet it was just a kiss.

His tongue expertly slipped in between my lips, trying to heat us the kiss into the make out session in the closet.

But it was just a kiss.

I couldn't understand the difference between the first kiss I had with him in front of the whole school to now. Then I remembered why I kissed him, it was to make Sean jealous.

Seriously even my relationship was based off me lying to myself that I didn't care about Sean and Lidia going to homecoming together.

My hands started to tug at James hair feeling so utterly frustrated with myself. Only James didn't know that my frustration and kinky kiss had nothing to do with him.

Then the bells of heaven rang... more like my phone.

I pulled away from James with a guilty giggle, "I'm sorry I have to take this."

No I didn't. But thanks God.

James reluctantly let me go but I turned around and answered the phone, my mother's voice was on the other end of the line.

"Hi honey, tonight Ben wants us both to join him for dinner. Are you free?" My mother's tone was a mixture of hopeful and begging. In any other situation I would've lied my ass off in not joining them at all.

The more I distance myself from my mother's love life the better chance I had of not blowing my brains off.

But as James made his move to start kissing my neck trying to tease me and turn me on at the same time. God, this was just a horny jock that wants to get laid.

So in between of lying to my mother or lying to James.

James.

"Oh yes mom, I'll join you guys for dinner. I have to go, I need to go to tutoring. Bye love you." I said to her in a hurry especially when James had his hands underneath my shirt.

"Thank you for this moment but I have to go." I turned around to give James a peck on his lips. You could sense his displeasure about it but he disguised it well.

"I understand. I'll see you tomorrow?" He asked, and it's not like I wasn't going to stop being with him. Especially since homecoming was this week.

"Of course." I smiled and kissed him one more time before I got out of the closet.

Surprised to see Sean with an open locker right next to the door in which I was just making out with the quarterback.

Sean's gaze was of surprise and then it turned into disgust when James got out of the closet room as well. Sean slammed the locker shut hard it's loud bang resonating through out the entire hall. Making me jump in place.

"What a jack ass." James muttered and rubbed my arm.

God I'm so done with this day!