Author: Lancali

Summary:

Against the unforgiving landscape of a hospital, I fell in love with a mischievous, sun-eyed boy who became my only joy in that desolate place. That's what made it all the more soul-crushing when he committed suicide in front of me.

Since then, I've sworn never to love anyone again. With three exceptions: My friends, Sony, Neo, and Coeur, a little gang of rebellious, dying kids. Sony leads the charge with the air of freedom and only one lung to breathe it. Neo, a bad-tempered and wheel-chaired writer, keeps track of our great deeds from stealing to terrorizing our nurse. Coeur is the beautiful boy, the muscle, the gentle giant with a failing heart.

Before death inevitably knocks down our doors, my thieves and I have one last heist planned. A great escape that will take us far from abusive parents, crippling loss, and the realities of our diseases. So what happens when someone else walks through the door? What happens when a girl joins our party and renders me speechless with her mischievous smile? What happens when she has suns in her eyes, and as terrified as I am to lose again, I start to fall?

Word count: 110,000 words

Chapters: N/A

This has been a long-awaited story. I realized early on that this was a very well-worded book. It's a brilliant book, but how the author uses those words will make you endure so much pain. You know how there are quotes from books that are like the best lines rights, this is basically a book of quotes. Every single sentence will do something to your heart. Whether it'll be pain or joy is questionable. 

I love reading that category of books when you don't even realize that you've been reading for 30 minutes straight cause you're so into it. It tells you how great a book is. I felt like I was taking a nice walk at some moments and free-falling the next. But either way, I couldn't stop reading it. This book brought a lot of emotions and I honestly don't know what to say. It was amazing and I'm still gonna be feeling this book for a couple of days.

My mid-reading notes;

I'm literally 5 pages in and I just got hit with ;

"We spent our whole lives together pretending, but if you pretend for too long, reality reminds you one way or another that it doesn't like being insulted."

I feel like I got slapped. I do mean that in a good way tho. This is on the 5th page btw so Im not exactly spoiling. This is very deep and usually, I have a hard time reading these things but it really touches my heart and so I probably have a fun time reading this. (Fun not happy)

I love their friendship so much. With literally all of them being in such terrible health conditions and still having so much love for each other is so beautiful. I really hope it doesn't break my heart (i think it will tho). 

Okay, I am officially at the halfway point and I finally cried. Honestly, it feels great, and that scene was written very beautifully. My heart is in a little bit of pain and im a good mix of sad and happy. If you guys liked Aristotle and Dante then you're probably going to love this.

I stopped reading this for a week cause I had gone on a school trip and usually whenever I pause something I do not come back to it whether it's movies or shows or books. So when I continued reading I felt great that it caught my attention almost immediately and it felt like I was binging it all over again. For me, this is the type of book I'm gonna need to take breaks while reading cause I'm constantly getting punched in the heart. And I don't just mean its sad, I mean it's beautifully written and you just need to ponder the writing every once in a while.

The sheer amount of love they have for each other is just so lovely. Just that enough can make a grown man cry. God, they're more than just best friends, they indeed are the definition of found family. 

So I finished it and I just feel numb. I am so tired, this book completely exhausted me in the best way possible.