▽Modern AU

△Levi x Cheating?Reader

△she

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You hurried into your clothes with your messy 'after-sex' hair when you heard somewhat quiet footsteps echoing in the hallway outside of the bedroom that a nervous you and a sweaty blank faced Ryouma occupied.

"(Name)? Is that you?" Your boyfriend for 4 years called out to you.

"Shit!" You hissed and gave up trying to conceal the 'truth' along with a Ryouma who was still nonchalantly dressing up.

Your heart was racing like those F1 racers and your stomach was churning rather painfully and it was not because of last nights Indian food.

You had already expelled all that out after you ate them last night.

So what was this ticking time bomb in you?

"(Na-)" Levi stopped mid-sentence and refused to register the information after witnessing a half naked man walk out of their bedroom and whispering "Sorry." to him while his own fucking girlfriend just fucked someone else on their own bed they slept on.

You started to tear up immediately when you saw Levi's hurt expression.

You didn't know what hurt more though. The fact that he showed you that he was in pain, or the fact that he covered it up with an apathetic visage a couple seconds after.

Be strong. You can't falter now.

You blinked back the tears while enveloped in a heavy atmosphere.

Levi simply couldn't process this at all. Why was the most loyal and romantic girl ever cheating on him?

Was it something I did?

You took in an extremely deep breath and let out a shaky one.

"Levi, let's b-break up. " you spoke up after a couple more breathing exercises to calm your soon-to-break-down-self down.

"Why...?" To say he sounded weak was an understatement and he only cursed himself for that. He was suppose to hate you now and not give into the urge of begging for you to stay.

"I d-don't l-love you anymore-" you started to tear up.

Then why are you the one crying?! I'm the one who wants to cry!

"Tch. Whatever, at least we're even now. " he spat out rather venomously with a glare that could make even the most alive person dead.

"E-Even?" You tried to ask in your normal voice but all that came out was a surprised and scared trembling voice that could be compared to of a mice.

"I stopped loving you a long time ago, I was just putting up with you because I pitied you. This was bound to happen anyway, so thanks for lessening the hassle. " Levi said rather distant and monotonously while looking down at you like you were trash soaked in decade-old bacteria.

Although it was all lies.

All completely harsh cruel lies. But could you blame the man? He was going to propose to you in a few weeks for god sakes. It was just his vengeful side speaking out. He just wanted to hurt you as much as you were hurting him now because deep down, he was breaking apart.

And so were you.

You couldn't even move anymore. Your knees were going to buck if not for your grounded and frozen feet. The tears were pouring non-stop and it felt like everything came to a halt.

He doesn't love me anymore.

When that fact had settled onto your fragile state, you dropped down onto your knees and started to cry into your hands.

He doesn't love me anymore.

Why is she crying so hard when she's the one who's breaking up with me?

Levi couldn't bare to hear your weakened sobs and unfiltered choking. He wanted nothing but to whisper sweet words to you and cradle you in his arms like he always does when you go into a hysterical fit of tears like this.

But he couldn't anymore.

You had betrayed him and his love, so how could he?

After what felt like an eternity of crying and Levi silently breaking apart although still staring at you unmoved on the outside, you spoke up of what would be the last words you'll ever have him by.

"C-Can I get one l-last kiss?" You whimpered out like fragile china.

Yes!

Was what screamed in his mind, but he knew you didn't deserve his loving touch anymore, so out came the brutal words that broke you even further more than you already were.

"Over my dead body, bitch. "

And out he went from your life.

•••

It had been a weeks.

A few alcohol induced weeks with hardly a wink of sleep.

Levi had it hard.

He wanted nothing but your touch and the way you felt in his protective hold.

He wanted-no, scratch that. He needed you.

But how could he still think so fondly of you when you did nothing but prove his love for you wrong?

He looked at the ring warily in his palm. That cushion cut diamond ring which was suppose to be on your ring finger by now is mocking him and his dreadful state in his own fucking palm.

"Fuck you. " He said as clear as daylight and threw the symbol of marriage and love across the room.

Fuck her.

He thought bitterly and started to chug down another can of beer that could never get him drunk.

Right when he was about to smash the can against a wall, the door flung wide opened and revealed the person he wanted to see least.

"What the fuck do you want, brat?! Can't you see I'm-" Higher the volume and angrier each word resonated with as he continued just to be cut off by the pained subjected younger male.

"Why?! Don't you love her?! What is-" Eren was about to punch some sense into the enraged broken man but Mikasa had interceded before things could get rather bloody for the German kid.

"Eren! No! " She barged into the lonely house, panting and holding back Eren, in time just to stop the dispute before it began to get physical.

"Mikasa! Why'd you stop me!" He yelled at her, completely shifting his anger to the asian beauty instead of the French man.

"You know why! She wouldn't have wanted you to get hurt! What are you going to say when she sees you all beat up, huh?!" She scolded him like some bad child.

Levi just stood there and tried to calm himself down before he killed those two.

"So what? I heal fast! It doesn't matter if I get beaten up! It's for avenging (Name)! Have you seen her lately?! She doesn't have-" but before he could spill your secret, Mikasa slapped him right across his cute little face.

Levi was shocked but he still held no emotion outwardly. Eren was too and he just looked back at her with utter disbelief.

"Eren. Watch what you're saying. " she growled out with her bangs shadowing over her beautiful eyes.

He knew he was wrong, but he just couldn't stand the fact that he couldn't do anything to save you. He just wanted to at least give you some solace, but he couldn't even do that now. So he just stomped out of the place, leaving the Ackerman's alone.

It was after a few moments, curiosity ate at Levi and he asked Mikasa.

"She doesn't have much what?" He furrowed his eyebrows when she gave him the exact expression Ryouma gave him when she turned around to face her cousin.

He had a nagging feeling in his head but he chose to ignore it and waited rather impatiently at her response.

"Did you really mean it when you said you didn't love her?" She asked rather quietly. "The truth, Levi. "

"...No." He then gazed at the neglected ring on the floor across the room.

Mikasa followed his line of vision and almost gasped out loud when she saw the beautiful ring laying lonely in the corner of the room.

"Levi, I would do anything to make your life hell and you would know why. " She glared at him and he returned the gesture but she closed her eyes and sighed.

"What's your damn point, brat?" He scoffs out loud and rolled his equally mesmerizing eyes at her.

"But this..." she went over and picked up the slightly cracked diamond ring.

"What..?" He gave her a weird look as the bad feeling started to spread in him.

"She..."

Mikasa then broke her promise and told Levi everything with a heavy heart, all while his broke even further.

•••

The next few moments were a blur.

Levi ran out of the house and drove extremely recklessly to your destination with a pounding heart and watery grey eyes.

He couldn't be bothered less anymore. His selfless lover was about to leave him all alone again and all he had as their last memory was him spitting at her, "Over my dead body, bitch. "

Please let me make it in time!

"What room is (Full name) in?!" He yelled frantically at the nurse who was startled at the man who tumbled in his way hurriedly.

"R-Room 25, Hall C, 12th floor , s-sir. " She squeaked out when he glared at her.

As soon as the words left her mouth, he dashed towards the destination given.

Let me make it in time, please!

Was the only thing in his mind while he ran towards his objective.

You.

After pushing past a few nurses and doctors, he stood panting and heart pounding in front of your assigned room.

With shaky hands, he slid open the plastic door and peered in timidly.

The room was only occupied by this one breath taking, heart wrenching, soul aching woman who was dying of stage 4 pancreatic cancer.

(Full name).

The light framed you just right as you gazed out absentmindedly at the window, envying lovers and healthy people.

To Levi, at that moment, even with sunken cheeks, dark circles and pale complexion, you were still beautiful.

He forced his legs to move towards you. To be honest, he felt like nothing but the worst boyfriend ever with each step he took.

He cleared his throat and got your attention.

"Levi." you said quite weakly but your voice still held the intentions of being surprised.

He didn't like how you sounded one bit.

It was even worse than when you broke down before him that day when you supposedly cheated on him.

But all you wanted was try to spare him the heartache of losing yet another person he held dear. All you did was just ask Ryouma to pretend to have had sex with you so Levi could accept the break up and hate you. All you needed was just to give him another chance at living without having another person die in his life.

Even if he shattered your entire being.

But everything was put to waste when someone had told on you to Levi.

Both of you stood in that room in silence until he took a chair and sat beside you, holding your hand as if it were fragile china.

"Why...why d-didn't you tell me this?!" He spluttered out and looked into your eyes with his teary ones.

"Didn't...want you to...suffer with me..." With each pause, you took a deep breath of air to continue. It was painful and energy consuming to talk but what's the point of not responding when all you wanted was to have one last chat with the one you loved more than your own life?

And with each suffocating wheeze and agonizing breath you took to speak, his heart cracked even deeper and deeper to no repair.

"What if I wanted to s-suffer with you? What if I wanted to go through this t-together with you?!" He said through gritted teeth as hot tears rolled down his cheeks faster than a bullet train.

"Does...it matter?" You smiled at him in a bittersweet manner as your own tears started to burn at your tired eyes.

"What do you mean 'Does it matter?'?! Of course it fucking does!" He stood up with anger but still holding onto your hand gently, afraid he would inflict further pain into your system.

"Well, you don't...exactly l-love me any...more." You attempted to chuckled but all that came out was a soft cough, hopefully with no blood, and more tears that spilled out while his dripped onto your chest.

He had momentarily forgotten about that vicious lie he told out of vengeance.

"Hey, Levi?...M-Maybe fate will...be kinder in the...next life..." You said to him and weakly rubbed your thumb in circular motions on his rough but warm and slightly sweaty palm.

"H-Hey, quit t-talking like you're d-dying, (name)!" He snapped out of his daze and pain when he saw your form slowly perishing in front of his own god damned eyes.

"Maybe...it'll have you...love me 'till...days...e..nd..."

And with a dying breath, you smiled to yourself as the pain went away while warmth embraced your entire being and your pretty little hand went limp in his comforting one.

"Y-you're shitting me right? (N-Name)? C'mon! T-This isn't funny at all!!"

He shook you continuously and called for you over and over again but all he got was that dreaded monotone ringing sound that indicated your death.

"H-hey, (name)? Can I get one l-last kiss?" He grasped onto your hand like if he let go, the fact that you were actually gone would sink into his foolishly hopeful mindset.

But came no answer as he cried even harder than ever.

Because this time, it really was over a dead body.

Yours.

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In remembrance of my dear uncle. It's not exactly his death anniversary, but something that happened today reminded me of him.

Tbh I miss him but I don't really let anyone know since I'm not the type to grieve in the presence of other people.

I'll definitely join him one day and haunt peoples asses but for now, I hope you're enjoying the wings or floating ability, uncle😂☺️ #wingsoffreedom

So my teacher let me out early from a test and this was the first thing I did😂😂😂 #nosociallife

Inspired by Ariana Grande's One last time. It's a nice song tbh but the video just has too much pink sky for my taste😂