~Daesung~

"Come on, open it, open it" Youngbae says jumping up and down on the balls of his feet like a child about to get a present.

I chuckle and shake my head "calm down Bae, you're going to give yourself a brain aneurysm"

He giggles and settles down a bit, but still practically vibrates where he stands. I shake my head once again and lift the lip of the envelope, taking a deep breath, then pulling out the letter inside. I read over the letter, letting Youngbae sweat it out for a couple seconds before his whiny voice interrupts me.

"Daesung, come on, what does it say?" He asks with an adorable pout on his face.

I look up from the page with a small frown on my face and his eyes crinkle in worry.

"Dae... I'm... I"

I laugh and let a face splitting grin spread across my face "I got in"

He blinks at me, then his eyes widen to almost normal size and the grin the stretches across his face is beautiful, once again pulling his eyes back to tiny slits in my favorite eye smile we both share.

"You got in?... As in we're going to the same university?" He asks in that cute little rushed way he does when he's excited.

I nod and hand him the letter "full acceptance, love"

Youngbae suddenly squeals and before I know what's happening, I'm tackled onto Bae's bed, and I'm covered in my silly, overexcited boyfriend. Bae ends up straddling me, holding the sides of my face and squeezing my cheeks.

"We're going to be together, Dae" he says in the happiest tone, I've heard out of him in a while.

I snort and nod, once he releases my face "yeah... did you really not think I would get in?"

His eyes widen briefly and he places his hands out in a sort of defense "no, no. Don't even think that"

I reach up, caressing his cheek gently "then what's going on up there, love? Why were you so worried?"

Youngbae sighs and lowers his head, almost seeming ashamed "I was worried that you wouldn't get in, but because of my own stupid doubts, not because you couldn't get in"

"What do you mean, your own doubts?" I ask, sitting up, still with Bae straddling me.

Youngbae situates himself on my lap, his arms reaching out, and grasping onto my shoulders to stabilize himself, while he stares at me sadly "I was scared we'd get separated, I was worried you'd get into some fancy school before you got into the one I got into and then you'd change your mind about us going together... and you know that long distance relationships never work out in college... I don't want to lose you, especially when I just got you"

I smile and lean into him, snuggling into his chest and taking a deep breath of the man in my arms "I love you, Bae. Why would I ever want to leave you? How do you think I could leave you?"

Youngbae shrugs and holds me tighter "just my own stupid insecurities, I guess. Sometimes I doubt that you even like me, or if we got together because you love me or because it was comfortable and convenient"

I take a deep breath, finally understanding. Youngbae is a strong, confident person usually, but sometimes, Youngbae loses faith in himself, and doubts everything he's usually so sure about. It's brought on from him being stressed and over worrying, till he makes himself sick. I hate when he gets like this because he's such a beautiful, funny, and happy person, but when he lets himself get stressed, he becomes the worst version of himself and transforms into his own enemy. He lets all of the doubt and fear of failure eat him alive till he's not certain of anything, till he's falling apart because in his mind, the world he knows is doing the same.

I've spent many nights with Bae, since we were kids, helping him through his insecurities, denying his doubt, and fighting off his fears. I can't even count the amount of times I've helped rebuild this man from the pieces he crumbled to.

"Bae, listen to me for a second" I say, pulling away from him and forcing his head up so he has no choice but to look me in the eyes "I got into a really good school in Tokyo, a full ride and everything to their performing arts department"

Youngbae stills and I swear I feel his hands tremor against my shoulders "please tell me there's a but here"

I sigh "yeah, it's you stupid, you're the biggest but of all, pun intended"

Youngbae's brow furrows "what do you mean?"

"I mean, I turned down the offer because I want to be with you, I want to go to school, and experience our first years of university together. You're not getting rid of me that easily, Dong Youngbae" I say, smoothing my hands down the sides of his thighs.

Youngbae releases a breath that seems like he's been holding in for a while "so... you're choosing me over a scholarship to a really great school, in the city of your dreams?"

I chuckle and nod "I guess I am"

The man on my lap rolls his eyes "are you stupid?" he screeches.

My eyes widen as I scoff at him "you were just freaking out about me trying to leave you, now you're judging me for staying?"

"Well... that was before I knew about this opportunity... Dae, you can't not take that scholarship" Youngbae whines.

I roll my eyes "don't be so dramatic, I got one to this school too... it's just not in Tokyo, which though I'd love to live there, isn't as important as staying with you. Now quit worrying, I'm staying with you, I don't have to burden my parents to pay for my school, and I still get to go to a really nice university. Everything's ok, love... we're ok"

Youngbae's eyes stare at me with worried hesitance "so you won't later regret not going to Tokyo and resent me?"

I chuckle and shake my head at him "not a chance, Bae. I just got you, there's not a chance in hell that I'm letting go of you now"

He smiles lightly and looks down "I love you, you know that right?"

I smile and push the hair that had fallen into his eyes out of the way "I do, and I love you too. We're end game, love. So get use to me being around."

Youngbae smirks and looks back up at me "oh, I think I can manage"

I know then that I got him back, that my Bae has returned to me. All he needs sometimes is a little reassurance and a little love. He wouldn't be my Bae if he didn't need attention from time to time, and I wouldn't be me if I wasn't more than happy to give it to him.

"I can't wait to start my life with you, Daesung" Youngbae says giving me this deep meaningful look.

I sigh and lean into him, nuzzling my face into his neck. "I can't either, Bae. There's nothing but a blank page from the second we graduate. We can do and be anything we want, together"

He leans down to me and pulls me into a deep kiss, almost like he's releasing every leftover bad thought and worry into the kiss itself and in turn creating positive energy. I wrap my arm around his waist, pulling him closer to me and sinking further into the feel of Youngbae's lips against mine, while my hands slid up under his shirt, feeling the taut skin over his sculpted back.

Youngbae sighs happily, pulls back and stands up "come on, let's go meet the guys for lunch. We can celebrate" he pulls out his phone from his pocket and nearly skips from the room, causing my head to spin.

I groan, already feeling the absence of him on my lap. It's been like this since the first close call, every time i get close to getting intimate with Bae, he pulls away from me. It's confusing me and making me wonder if Youngbae is just hesitant to take the next step or if he isn't as affected by me as i am by him. Moving my hips to get off the bed and feeling the heaviness resting between them, i definitely know i'm affected, so how could he not be?

>>>>>

"So he's still pushing you away?" Jiyong asks, once our boyfriends leave the table to go play a round of pool.

They pick a table close, and i know it's so Seunghyun can watch Ji, and a small smile plays at my lips because of that information. Nothing makes me more pleased than to know how attached Seung is to his lover. After i had first met Seunghyun, right after the accident with Ravi, i thought Seung would never love again. His heart was so damaged and his views on love were painfully dark, i feared for the boy. Seeing the way he looks at Ji though, like a man who's seen all the world has to offer within one being, it's reassuring in a way i can't quite explain.

I smile and turn my attention back to Jiyong, who seems to be patiently waiting for my answer "Yeah, every time we seem to be in a comfortable position, or in the mood, he's quick to run away and i don't know if it's because he really doesn't want to, or if he just really isn't affected by me like i am by him" i say, airing out my frustrations "which are both big problems, because what if he's not sexually into it? Can you love a person romantically, without being sexually attracted to them?"

Ji and i have become pretty close as of recently, especially after those two got back from their weekend on jeju. Ji's just more open, like he's finally released a breath he had been holding for a long time.

Ji shrugs, placing his cheek in his palm, reminiscent of a disney princess "He's definitely attracted, you can tell by the way he looks at you. He wants to have sex with you, but maybe.... maybe he's just nervous"

"Nervous?"

"Yeah, you said Bae's never been with another guy before. Maybe he just doesn't know what to do and just kind of mentally shuts down when faced with the prospect of having sex with you" Ji offers, playing with the napkin under his drink.

I take in a deep breath and glance over at the boys, watching Seung laugh as Bae bends himself over the table to get a ball into the right pocket, which he does easily.

"You know, Youngbae never takes risky shots like that unless he knows he can actually make it" Ji points out, seeming to pay more focus to Seung, than Youngbae, even when pointing out such a insightful observation, but not much escapes Ji's attention, i've noticed.

My eyebrows bunch together and i finger at the rim of my glass, thinking over the underlying meaning to Youngbae's habit, or maybe his problem.

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I wake up to an empty bed, the sheets beside me strown around like the person who once laid there slept restlessly. I sit up and glance around, wondering where Youngbae could have gone, but don't have to wonder long when i see a dark silhouette across the room, sitting in front of the bright glow of my computer. Silent clicks fill the room occasionally and i quietly slip down the bed towards him, stopping when i finally get a good view of the computer screen and the intense looking porn playing on it. Youngbae has headphone on and seems completly encaptured by the images in front of him.

The guys on the screen, are going at it roughly, one bending the other nearly in half as he drills into the smaller guy under him. I shudder, feeling a small amount of heat fill my cheeks and my groin. It's very arousing to say the least, but also confusing as to why Bae is watching it in the middle of the night in secret. I stand off the bed and reach out patting Bae's arm lightly.

Youngbae jumps and slams the computer top down dramatically, before staying absolutely still, like an animal playing dead to get away from danger.

I sigh and reach forward, pulling the headphones off his head "Bae, you don't have to be embarrassed, i mean if you knew the amount of hours i've clocked watching porn on that computer, you wouldn't even bat an eye"

Bae's neck strains and i know he's very uncomfortable, so i decide to fix that. I spin around my office chair, so he's facing me and sit down right in his lap, pressing our hips together.

Youngbae gasps and finally looks up at me "you're hard"

I roll my hips forward, causing the man under me to bite his lip "yes, so are you" i chuckle "Bae, love. Why were you watching porn, not that it's not ok, i'm just curious"

Youngbae sighs and rubs his eyes tiredly "research, mostly"

I raise an eyebrow "what were you researching, how to make a human pretzel? Because, love, i'm flexible, but not that flexible"

He snorts "i always start out with softer stuff, but i kind of always end up at the harder ones" he says, rubbing the back of his neck, averting my gaze.

My stomach muscles clench, thinking that Youngbae might like it a little rough "if that's what you like then that's what you like"

Bae sighs "but that's just it, i don't know what i like. I don't know what you like. I don't even know how to do this shit. It looks easy in the pornos, but when it comes to actually getting in the moment, i freak out, and... what if i can't do what you like? What if it sucks and we have to break up, because i read online that sex is life half of a good relationship... and-"

I lift my hand from his shoulder place it over his mouth, silencing his tangent. Youngbae takes a large breath and swallows, nodding up at me. I release him and place my hand on his chest.

"Why didn't you say anything? Why didn't you just talk to me about it?" i ask rubbing my hand, comfortingly over his chest.

Youngbae sighs "it's embarrassing, i mean you are so charismatic and know a lot more about this stuff than i do. I was worried you'd laugh or tell me i was weird for asking to do something, especially if i don't even know if i'll like it"

I casually let my fingers trail down his torso, brushing my fingertips over the bulge in his boxers. Youngbae's breath catches, but he doesn't stop me.

"I would never laugh or make you feel bad about something you wanted to try and if you don't like it, we stop"

"That simple?" Youngbae squeaks.

I chuckles, deeply "that simple. We'll figure out what you like, don't worry, love. We have time to map out each others bodies, and getting there is half of the fun" i say, pressing my palm into his hardness.

He hisses and grabs my wrist "i'm not experienced with guys, i... i don't know how to do this"

I smile and push my hips forward, grinding our erections together "it's ok, i've got you. Let me guide you"

Youngbae's hands tremble as he reaches out to place a stabilizing hand on my shoulder, as i continue moving my hips in unpatterned, slow movements.

"D-Dae" Youngbae gasps out and it's definitely going on my list of favorite sounds, right behind his laugh.

I sit back and climb off of his lap, sinking to my knees as Youngbae's eyes stare down at me alarmed "Daesung, you don't have to"

"Shhh, you don't understand how many times i've had fantasies about my lips wrapped around your cock. Let me have this" i say, forcing a choked groan out of the man above me.

Youngbae helps me get his boxers down his thighs and i pull them off the rest of the way, then I spread his legs apart and slide between them. I stare into his eyes as i wrap a hand around the base of Bae's hardness, and to watch the way his face scrunches in pleasure, spurs me on like never before.

I break eye contact and move in, nibbling up and down the length, listening to the beautiful moans spilling from my love's lips. I tease him a little more, placing careful kisses and kitten licks in the most sensitive areas, then i place my lips around the crown, sucking hard, before sliding half of him into my mouth in one go.

I almost lose myself in the feel of him pressed into my mouth, the weight on my tongue, the press of him against my cheeks. The way the tip hits the far back roof of my mouth. It's electrifying to have him in my mouth, i can't even help my own moans as they erupts from my throat and vibrate the presence pressed inside, forcing a curse out of the man.

Moving him in and out of my mouth in slow drags, relishing in the way his hardness fills everything, even the taste of him is so delicious. I can't help but be obsessed at the amazing pressure against the back of my tongue.

"Shit, Dae." Bae curses, yanking delicately at my hair.

"Close?" i ask, pulling him out, relishing the taste all the way to the tip of my tongue before pulling away.

He nods, looking down at me with wrecked eyes "fuck" he states, then flies out of the chair, knocking me onto the bed, and climbing on top of me, and kissing me breathless.

His hands are everywhere, squeezing and rubbing all over my body, like he doesn't know what to touch or map out first. I moan lightly as each one of my sensitive areas are explored, while grinding up against Bae's thigh that's pressed right against my crotch.

Somehow my pants find their way off, unbeknownst to me until i feel Bae's hand wrap around my hard dick, adding  just the right amount of pressure and friction that will quickly make me cum if he doesn't stop.

My hands shoot to his shoulders, as he continues to pump me, and his lips mark my chest with innocent nips and kisses. His tongue flicks over a niple and my nails dig into his skin, while my back arches. He plants his lips around the bud and sucks it into his mouth, i call out loudly and probably leave marks from how hard i scratch up his back.

I shake my head furiously, my abdomen tightening and body lighting on fire all too soon and i finally get a steady hand on Youngbae's shoulder, using it to push him up and over, landing him on his back, to which i climb onto his lap and attach my mouth to his.

His hands go to my hips, while i rock them back and forth, rubbing or erections together, and sit up tossing my head back in pleasure.

I can't take it anymore and i reach over Youngbae, getting inside of my drawer and pulling out a bottle of lube. I come back and watch Bae swallow thickly at the sight of the tube.

"P-please, Dae" he gasps.

I blink and look down at him "please, what, love?"

He bites his lip and avoids my gaze "inside me, please"

My breath catches and i have to place a stabilizing hand against his chest "you want me inside of you? Is this one of the things you were afraid to ask for, one of the reasons you kept pulling away from me?"

Bae nods "i wanted you to fuck me, for our first time, but i didn't know how any of that really worked... I was scared"

I nod and place a hand on his hip, stabilizing myself as well from how fucking hot his confession is "i've got you, love"

I slide down his legs, marking his body with a couple marks as i go for good measure, and smirk at how beautiful the dark red looks against his tan skin. I pull his legs apart and situate myself between them once again, not for one second missing the slight tremor in them. I run my palms up and down his thighs to calm him and he relaxes beneath my touch, making me feel calmer as well.

"It might be uncomfortable at first, but you'll get use to it" i say, squeezing his knee lightly.

He licks his lips nervously, and avoids my eyes "i know, like i told you, i've done my research"

I stop short and an electric pulse surges through my hardness "Bae, have you been fingering yourself?"

Youngbae cringes and closes his eyes briefly "yes, ok. I have fingered myself a couple times... or maybe every night this past week. i just... i wanted to be ready."

My jaw drops and i pop open the cap on the lube, quickly spreading the substance across my fingers, and moving down to his puckered hole, playing with the rim, spreading the lube around the outside, then slowly sinking my finger inside, gawking at how easily it slips inside.

"You weren't bullshitting me, holy crap" i say, adding a second finger, a bit of a tighter fit, but easily manageable.

Amazed that Bae has done all of this just to prepare for me, i get carried away a little, moving my fingers around and thrusting a little more forcefully that i would have otherwise. I'm only brought back when a high pitched moan fills the room. My head snaps up to see Bae's back arched in pleasure and i realize that not only has he been playing with himself, but he's liked it.

"Fuck" i curse, and add a third finger, thrusting into Bae with a hurried pace, not really to stretch him, but mainly to see that look of unadulterated pleasure spread across his face.

I angle my fingers and Bae calls out, nearly shooting off the bed and i know i found the place i need to make him cum tonight. I need him to cum without a single touch, just by my cock. I know it's a stupid possessive feeling, but something inside of me craves Bae to be wrecked just by my dick alone.

I pull out, hearing a frustrated growl from the boy under me, to which i give a warning slap to his thigh and he quiets himself. I sit up onto my knees, and lean forward, guiding my length to his stretched hole.

"Tell me how much you want it, Bae" i whisper into his ear "tell me how bad you want me inside of you"

Bae moans and turns his head meeting me in a heated kiss, that's more tongue than anything, but it only fuels the fire. I pull away biting at his lip "tell me" i growl out.

"I need you inside of me, Dae. I need to feel your cock pounding into me. Please, Dae, please give me your cock" Youngbae whines, totally lost.

I smirk and kisses his temple "i'll give it to you, love. Don't worry, i'll take good care of you"

I place the tip at his entrance, applying slight pressure, but never enough to actually push in, teasing Bae just to see how far i can push him.

"P-please, Dae" he cries out, trying to push himself down onto my length.

Taking pity on him and on myself, i finally breach his entrance and start slowly entering inch by inch. Youngbae makes short gasping sounds, his hands wrapping around my biceps tightly, like he's trying to hold himself together.

I bottom out and take a deep calming breath, trying not to lose it at the delicious heat clamping down all around me " i know you've been playing with yourself, but damn, you're still so tight"

I say swiveling my hips making a slight movement, and making Bae's hips rise. I curse mentally, and place my hands on his hips to still him, pulling back a little and thrusting back in slowly, careful to let Bae to adjust, but unable to stay still.

"D-Dae, please. You're driving me insane, please move" Bae moans, as i continue my slow strokes.

Bae clenches around me and that's when i lose all of my self control all together, i pull all the way back so my tip is just left inside and i can feel his hole trying to pull me back in, so i oblige and fill him up all in one go.

Bae calls out and arches into me, trembling, as i start in a steady assault. I pick up a steady, but intense rhythm, thanking all those years of dance training for being able to keep up this pace. Bae moans deeply and grabs my arms, pulling me forward, connecting our lips. I feed into the kiss, soaking up every little gasp, every little 'ah' from his lips. I could see myself getting addicted to this sound.

I sit up, grabbing Bae by the arms, and pulling him with me. He wraps his legs around my hips, locking his ankles together. Bae starts moving his hips, bouncing on my lap, while i continue thrusting up into his heat, chasing the thing we both seem to be on the brink of.

"Dae" Youngbae wraps his arms around my neck and holds me closer to him "cum inside me" he pleads, and i don't even have the mental strength to object.

I grab onto his hips, position myself at the right angle and piston right up into the spot i know will have him calling out my name, and soon enough his back arches and he calls out my name like a curse, spilling all over both of our stomachs, and the sight of it sends me over the edge soon after. I ride out our orgazms, lazily pumping into Bae, till i can't hold us up anymore and we collapse onto the bed.

Bae runs his fingers through my hair, smoothing down the back of my neck, while his breathing returns to normal and his heartbeat slows beneath my ear. I wrap my arms around his waist and hug him tight, and Bae's other hand tightly hugs my shoulders.

"If i knew it would be that amazing, i wouldn't have waited"  he says, with a slight chuckle.

I roll my eyes and pinch his hip "asshole, do you know how bad blue balls hurts?"

He snorts and pets my hair more playfully "but it was worth it, because all of that pent up sexual energy turned you into a fucking beast, i mean damn it, Dae. That was fucking amazing"

I smile and snuggle into Youngbae more "yeah, it was"

"I love you, Dae"

I grin and angle my head so i can look him in the eyes "i love you too, Bae. Now lets sleep, we have to get up for school in four hours"

The answering groan i receive, makes me snort, and i can already tell that we'll be exhausted today.

>>>>>

"Tell me everything" Ji beams, rushing up to me as we walk into the school.

Youngae rubs his eyes, cranky and exhausted "you told him?"

"Nope" Ji answers before i can "you two just have that 'we fucked' glow to you"

"Excuse me?" Yoongi asks, coming up with the biggest shit eating grin on his face.

Hosek comes up next to him, placing an arm on Yoongi's shoulder "yes, please do tell us everything"

"There's nothing to tell, it's none of your damn buisness" Youngbae growls and grabs my hand, pulling me to our normal table and sets me down next to him.

Ji sits down in front of us, and i mouth "later" to him

He just giggles and nods, then adds a wink before leaning over and placing his head on Seung's shoulder, who looks slightly disturbed, but happy.

I turn back to the man sitting beside me, now conversating easily with Minji next to him, and i suddenly realize that my wish came true. I know it's silly but, a long time ago, when we were kids, just the three of us, Seung, Bae and me. i made a wish at my birthday party, it was just us at that time because we didn't think we needed anyone else, But I made a wish on that day, that no matter what happens, we'd all end up happy, that we'd all end up together and really, truly happy.

Even threw our friend group growing considerably, going through the stress of school, and even dealing with all the grand shit that life throw at us, we've all managed to come out happy and in love. I got what i wanted, my wish came true, and i know nothing will ever separate us. 

I smile and reach across the table, watching Seung give me a curious look before smiling back and giving me his hand. I grab Youngbae's hand, capturing his attention. His own lips pull up and the three of us share a moment of knowing, a moment of realization, that this may be the end of an era, but this isn't the end of us. Before anything else these guys will be my best freinds, and i know that with them, we can make it through everything. I'll always be happy with these two by my side, and i can't imagine a wish being granted in any way better than that.

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My Chickens!!

Here it is guys, the long awaited BaeDae smut chapter. I hope i did it justice, it's been awhile since i've written Smut and it was harder to do than i thought it would, but i'm pretty damn proud of how it came out and hope you guys liked it. I'm sorry for the long wait, but school comes first, you guys know how that is.

Now all that's left is wrapping up the rest of GTop, it shouldn't be more than three or four chapters, and i really hope you guys can stick around till the end, especially my loyal readers who have been here since the beginning. I love you guys and without you this story wouldn't be as loved as it is.

I really do appreciate all the love for this story and can't wait to see you guys soon!

kisses!!

사랑해 💕

~M~