~Jiyong~

The thin, dark line glides over my eyelid easily. Not too dark, but enough to make my eyes pop. I know Seunghyun has a particular weakness for it, so I can't help the smirk that pulls at my lips, because of it.

I glance over my shoulder in the mirror and roll my eyes at what I find.

"Stop it" I say glaring at Hwa Yun "you promised"

She sniffles slightly and pats her nose with a tissue, before smoothing out her beautiful yellow dress I had specially made for today. "I know, but what mother can't help but cry on her son's wedding day?"

I look away from her and blink rapidly "the kind that respects their son's makeup and doesn't want it to run when he starts crying too"

Minzy snorts behind me, from where she's doing my hair "bitch, we both know you're wearing waterproof eyeliner. That shit won't move for a week"

I chuckle and shrug my shoulder "I still don't want to look like a complete mess until I have to" I wiggle my eyebrows when Minzy meets my eyes in the mirror and she cringes.

"That's just gross" she comments, pretending to gag for extra dramatics.

I snort and am about to make a retort, when a short knocking sound fills the room. Hwa Yun stands up from her place on the couch and heads over to the door, to figure out who it is.

"I swear, if that's Seung again. I'm going to kill him. He only tried to sneak in here like twenty times last night" Minzy says through clenched teeth, clearly tired from playing keep away all night.

I fight the urge to bust out in laughter. My mother and sister had insisted that we keep the wedding as traditional as possible, which meant that Seung and I weren't allowed to see one another the night before the wedding. Neither of us were too happy about this, but we agreed for their sake, plus who can refuse Hwa Yun?

I stayed in a hotel sweet last night with my bridal party, which consists of Taemin (Seung and I kind of had a fight over the kid, but I won, since Tae's my best friend and Seung already has Youngbae), Minzy, Eunhyuk, and Daesung. I was perfectly content, even if a small bit distressed to spend the night away from the man I love. But apparently Seung was not. Much to my amusement, my fiancé had spent the entire night trying to break into our sweet to kidnap me, which I would have easily let him, if not for my army of bridesmaids.

Yes, I said bridesmaids. I may not be wearing a dress, (though, I think Seung would love it.) but I am a bride, damn it. My very expensive, custom tailored white suit with black trim makes me look like a princess, despite the tiara, so i can be a bride despite the lack of a vagina.

"Seung wants to talk to you" Hwa Yun says walking back into the main room, glancing nervously at her daughter.

"Hell no. They've made it this far, I'm not giving up when we're so close." Minzy says, putting down the straightener and placing a hand on her hip.

I roll my eyes and chuckle, already standing up, despite her temper tantrum. Superstitions are ridiculous, and Seung and I don't really do traditional. We never have.

"Where?" I ask, already on my way, like I can practically feel his presence.

"Come on, Ji. Just another hour and you'll see him anyway." Minzy whines, but makes no effort to stop me.

I smile at her sweetly as I pass "love, I'm not even in my tux yet. Trust me, he'll still be plenty shocked. My man needs me right now and I'll be damned if I deny him my comfort because of some stupid tradition"

"Let him go" Hwa Yun says, sounding amused "we should congratulate them or making it this long. I put him in your room, Ji"

I nod, having already figured that and move my feet a little faster, not realizing just how much I actually want to see this man until I have him within breathing distance.

Hurrying inside, I shut the door quickly and lean against it, taking a deep breath before I finally glance up. Seunghyun stands on the other side of the room, looking out the window, his hand in his pocket. My breath catches just at the sight of him.

He almost looks like a whole other man, and if it wasn't for the telltale stance and air around him, I might not have recognized him. Seunghyun looks like a damn model, his body fitted perfectly by the tailored suit, hugging every curve, every muscle... just the sight of him makes my mouth dry.

"Hey" he calls without turning around, his deep voice a melody that instantly puts my racing heart at ease.

"Hi" I say breathlessly, not even close to successful at keeping the longing out of my voice.

"So I'm guessing last night was just as much hell for you as it was for me then?" He asks, finally turning around, and holy fuck.

Seunghyun is already dressed fully in his tux and everything. I'm was kind of proud of my designs for our wedding outfits to begin with, but this, this outdoes anything I could have imagined. Seung's tux, I designed to fit who he is. Simple, quiet, but so fucking elegant and domineering. It's black with white trim, tailored perfectly to fit him like a glove. The final product they showed me the other day when I picked our outfits up didn't even do it justice.

His hair is styled in that classic messy, yet perfect way I love, highlighting his perfect features, like his sharp jaw line, and piercing eyes, which...is that... is that eyeliner?

"Are you wearing makeup?" I question, my voice sounding stretched, even for me.

Seung smirks, his obvious confidence fitting every bit of his attire "Taemin thought it would look good... don't tell him I said this, but he might be right"

I swallow thickly and nod a little "that he was"

Finally, I manage to pull my eyes away from the gorgeous man I can't believe I get to marry in a little over an hour, and walk over to the bed. Siting awkwardly on the edge, I pat the space next to me and wait till the bed shifts and I feel his weight settle beside me.

"So... you needed to speak with me?"

Seung reaches over and takes my hand "honestly, I just needed to see you, hearing your voice is just extra"

I melt at those words and turn my head, our eye meeting and the world quickly evaporates around us. I don't know how, but the next thing I know, I'm in Seunghyun's lap, and his arms are surrounding me.

"My baby" Seung coos "I was seriously so close to homiside last night. I mean, how dare your sister keep you away from me. You're mine, not her's"

I smile and bury my face against the side of his neck "do you know how many times i got caught trying to sneak out last night?"

Ok, so maybe I wasn't as content as I say I was last night. I couldn't help it. I missed Seunghyun next to me, his overwhelming warmth, his heavy, securing arms. I missed him so much, I barely got any sleep.

Seung's deep laughter warms my bones and sends a pleasant shiver up my spine. "We're a mess. We're hopeless. All I could do last night was toss and turn in bed. I couldn't sleep without the feeling of you next to me, and all I could picture was bending you over every surface in my sweet and making you scream till you lost your voice"

The gasp that leaves my lips, as a surprising shot of arousal surges through my body, can't be stopped. "Seung" I say a little breathlessly.

"It's your fault" he rumbles, sounding like a child pouting for getting a toy taken away "you had to cut me off a week before our wedding"

"I wanted our wedding night to be special" I argue, but feeling no fire behind it. I've been perpetually hard for the past two days, and my pride is the only thing that kept me from breaking and asking Seung to blow me in the shower, or begging him to fuck me open on the floor of our closet.

Seunghyun chuckles and squeezes his arms around me. "It will be, Baby. Just wait till tonight and I will have my way with you"

I sigh at that and kiss the side of his neck "I look forward to it."

"Come on, that's enough" Minzy calls, banging on my door "so help me God, if you two are having sex and ruining Ji's hair. I will get off on an insanity plea"

Seunghyun makes a distressed squeaking noise and automatically tightens his hold on me "no. I just got you back"

I smile at that and pull away so I can look into his eyes "you do have me, Seung. In every way possible. I'm yours and today we're making it one hundred percent"

Seunghyun stares at me for a beat, his eyes glassy with emotions he doesn't need to verbally express. I just know.

"You're not allowed to spend another night away from me again, ok?" He says, his fingers dipping under my shirt to trail a fiery line up my spine.

I nod and lean in to his touch "for the rest of my life, Seung. If it can be helped, I will always be right beside you as you sleep"

Seunghyun sighs and leans his forehead against mine, placing a small kiss to my lips "the rest of our lives, Ji"

I smile at that and nod "the rest of our lives. It's only just starting, Seung"

Seunghyun beams at me "I feel like I should be nervous, but every time I imagine standing in front of you up there... all I feel is excitement and a bit of impatience. I cant wait for you to be mine... like officially"

Reaching up, I let my fingers brush over Seung's beautiful jaw line. "We're almost there, my love... we're almost there."

Another loud knock, this time a bit heavier, comes from the door, causing us to jump slightly "I swear to the heavens... you two are so fucking ridiculous." Taemin.

We share a laugh at this and reluctantly separate. Seung walks to the door, but stops with his hand on the handle and looks back at me. "I'll see you up there?"

I grin at him and nod "I'll be the one in white, rushing down the isle"

His grin mirrors mine and he shakes his head "I'll be waiting with open arms, baby"

Then Seung leaves and I'm left with this impatient, longing feeling. I don't like being separated like this. The need to constantly be by each other's side thing, we got over a while ago. We're able to do our own things and spend the days apart now, but this is different.

It's like waiting for your favorite food at a restaurant. You know your food is ready, you can see it coming toward you in the waitresses hands, but she won't walk fast enough and you're so hungry. You can see it, you can smell it, but it's just out of reach.

"Come on, bro. Let's get you ready" Minzy says, giving me a look of fondness, instead of sass for once.

Ready. There's that word. Everyone seemed to feel the need, over the past week, to ask me if I was ready. It's such a big step, Commitment is serious, they'd always say. Of course it is. I'm promising my life to someone, agreeing to forever be by their side.

They're asking me if I'm ready for infinity with Seung? How could I not be? I've been ready all my life for Seunghyun. I've just been waiting for him to show up. Seung is the other half of me, the other piece I've always been missing and I'm beyond ready to officially join our hearts together.

"Yes" I say, grabbing my sisters hand and letting her lead me back into the living area "I believe I have an isle to walk down"

........

"I do" the words come out subconsciously, without hesitation. Of course I take Seunghyun to be mine forever. Of course I will give my soul to him for the rest of eternity. I already have in every way, except this final one.

"And do you choi Seunghy-

"I do" Seung says cutting the official off mid sentence.

The rooms erupts in giggles and a few scoffs (mainly from his friends and my sister).

"Babe, let her finish" I scold lightly.

Seung smiles sheepishly and shrugs, then mouths sorry at me. I know he's not though, and honestly, I know how he feels. Surprisingly neither of us are nervous or even hesitant, actually we're impatient, ready for this to be over so we can officially be husbands. Husband... the word sounds odd, but also delightful on my tongue.

"Do you, Choi Seunghyun take this man, Kwon Jiyong to be you're husband for the rest of your days, loving, caring, and supporting him through the good and the bad?" The official asks, her clear amusement shinning through at Seunghyun's clear impatience.

If his little wiggles and twitches weren't so cute, I would have gotten on to him a while ago, but again, I feel the same as he does. Plus, this is kind of one of the main reasons why i'm marrying this giant dork, because he never fails to make me feel like a giddy teenager, even when those years of hormones and butterfly's should be perfectly settled in my rear view. It's just something I've come to accept, or more so love about this man standing in front of me, bouncing impatiently like a toddler.

I see no end to the amazing jittery feeling i get when he touches me, no finality to the way my heart skips a beat when he smiles at me, nor do i possibly see conclusion to way my whole body and soul reacts when my name rolls off of his tongue. My whole being is centered around Choi Seunghyun, and he will never fail to make me feel like i'm that young kid, who's just starting to fall in love and experiencing everything for the first time.

"I do" Seung says, his face breaking into a heartbreaking smile that cause his eyes to sparkle so bright it's almost blinding.

Gods I love this man.

"Jiyong has asked to say a few words before the ceremony comes to a close, and Seunghyun has as well" the official says, smiling warmly at us.

She nods at me and i take a deep calming breath, even though i do it almost every day, i still hate talking in front of people. Seung squeezes my hands and finds my gaze, almost seeming to silently reassure me that he's here... just him. These words are mainly just for him anyway.

"When i first met you, you scared the living shit out of me" laughter hums in my ears, but the amusement shinning in Seunghyun's eyes is all i can seem to focus on "I was so scared that you would be that one person who could walk through my walls as if they were made of air, and that you'd be the one person who would make me feel everything I had been pushing down for so long. I was right, and i owe you everything for doing so" Seung tilts his head at me, giving me that stupid smile of his, the one I've come to love so dearly "i was so scared in the beginning that you would be the reason that i broke apart, but it took me forever to realize that i needed to break so you could fit inside, and gods your love filled my cracks perfectly and the happiness you gave me sealed everything back together. Because of you, i don't even remember what it feels like to be broken. You loved me through everything, and made me happier than i ever thought i could be. I love you with every inch of my being and i can't wait to spend forever with you"

"Shit" Seung suddenly curses quietly after a few beats and lets go of my hand to wipe at his eyes, before taking it back and squeezing.

"Alright, now from Seunghyun" the official says, sounding a little choked up herself.

"How am i supposed to follow that?" Seung asks, receiving a few chuckles, before he takes a deep, stabilizing breath and a serious expression fills his eyes. I prepare myself and thank the heavens that i wore waterproof mascara. "i never knew how much a loud, sassy, opinionated, and sometimes straight up bitchy diva could change my entire world, until he became my entire world" my lips part and i let a little faux offended laugh out, Seung smirks at me and squeezes my hand once more "before you i didn't even realize that i had just been coasting, maneuvering through a colorless life, with no clear end or point. Then i met this boy who lit up my world, like the most brilliantly colored, beautiful painting hanging on a pristine white wall. You stood out like no one else could, and exploded my world with meaning and warmth. I figured out pretty quickly that my life would just be a blank white wall without you in it, which is why i'm so happy i'll never have to know what life would be like without my masterpiece." i can already feel my cheeks dampening, and Seung lets go of my hand to wipe a few fresh ones, "We've been through so much, baby, which is why i know we can get through anything as long as we have each other. We're unstoppable together, and i know that forever with you will be an amazing adventure which officially starts today"

I bite back a small happy sob, and look up, blinking away as much moisture as i can. Seung takes the moment to laugh at me, but i know i saw his eye glistening just as mine had. We're just two sappy emotional idiots, standing in front of all our friends and family, agreeing to be stupid together for the rest of our lives, and i wouldn't want it any other way.

"Goodness, you two are so beautiful together and the love you share is truly one that will last through the tests of marriage. I wish you both the best of luck and happiness. Now all that left to do, is officially announce you as husbands." She smiles as us, and i feel my heart squeeze "you may solidify this bond with a kiss"

Seung and i turn toward each other, beaming and bouncing like the ridiculous over-sized children we are. Without even a hint of hesitation, Seung steps forward and grabs me around the waist, then turns and suddenly dips me. His lips are so quick on my own that i don't even have time to squeak in surprise. I laugh into the kiss, but eventually relax, trusting Seung not to drop me.

He brings us back up into a normal position, and kisses me for real, everything fading into the background as the gravity of what this kiss is. The first kiss as a married couple. The first kiss of the rest of our lives, and it's perfect.

"Alright, you two" Youngbae says over Seung's shoulder, loud enough to be heard over the applause and whistles "the rest can wait for the honeymoon.

We pull apart and laugh, then Seung pulls me into his arms, allowing me to bury my head in his neck. I breath in the familiar smell of Seunghyun and feel my whole being center. I give myself this moment before i get pulled away by my family and friends for pictures and the rest of the festivities. This is where i would... can spend the rest of my life if i want, wrapped in Seung's arms, tight and secure. This is my happiest moment, not just because i'm officially married to the love of my life, but because here in Seung's arms, i know I've made good on my promise to Seungri.

"Hey, we did it" Seung says, shielding me from the incessant demands to be released to my sister and Seunghyun's grandmother.

I smile against Seung's neck, pulling a small pleasant shiver out of him "so it appears"

Seung tightens his hold on me "You're stuck with me now, no backsies"

I snort and pull away so i can look into my husbands eyes "eh, I've been stuck with worse"

Narrowing his eyes at me, Seung leans in and kisses me pointedly "i'm serious... you're mine now"

I sigh happily and reach up cupping Seung's cheek "I've ceaselessly been yours for a while now, love, and i will continue to be for the rest of my life"

The answering beaming smile i get is worth all the cheesiness "Forever?"

"Always"

.....

Later that night after all of the dancing has finished, all of the champagne has been drank, and all of the laughs have been had. When Seung and I finally escape to our own world. We feel the full weight of what really happened today.  As Seunghyun looks down at me, while he rocks into me so gently and whispers my husband, I can't help the explosion of emotions.

Seung kisses me through the tears, holds me through the earth shattering orgasm, and whispers I love yous through the aftereffects of it all. My life, my soulmate, my husband. He's my everything I can't wait to see what forever looks like with him by my side.

>>>>>

"Seungri, i'm serious, eat. We have to leave soon" i say, drying another dish and placing it in the cabinet.

I turn back to look at the toddler, pouting at his half eaten pancakes and i sigh.

"daddy. I want daddy"

I sigh and continue drying off a cup, then place it in the cabinet "me too, baby"

In a second, the child is pulling at my neatly pressed pants and sniffling pathetically at me. I bend down and pick him up without hesitation. Screw those mothers association, neighborhood watch, snooty bitches who tries to council me about coddling Seungri. I will comfort my child when he needs it, and i will not let my baby boy cry at my feet when he needs me. Fuck those self riotous twats.

Seungri looks at me with those large, deep eyes that show a wisdom beyond his years, and it makes my heart clench harder. Gods i really miss Seunghyun when i look in my child's eyes and find my husband staring back.

"Would you like to sit on my lap while you eat? Will that make you feel better?" i ask, really needing this child to eat. He's not to the weight he needs to be at. He looks like i did when i was his age and that alone worries me.

The cranky little toddler nods and sniffles again, causing me to coo at him, while i walk over to the table and sit down with my tiny bean on my lap. He begins slowly eating his food, much to my relief. I watch my baby quietly, petting through his hair ( he needs it cut) and occasionally glancing outside the window.

It's a rainy, dreary day, and it just makes me miss Seunghyun that much more. When we were back in college and even after we were freshly married, we used to spend days like this in bed, wrapped up in each other. Neither of us wanted to move, just content to sink into our own world, like nothing else matters.

Since we had Seungri though, those days are almost nonexistent as the toddler needs constant attention. He has Seung's attention span, with my talent of mischief. This child is the devil incarnate and i love him with every inch of my being.

"Ri, are you done eating?" i ask, pushing hair away from his eyes ( he really needs a hair cut).

My son nods and spins around on my lap, folding into me and whining. He's almost as needy as his father. I chuckle and pet his hair, thanking the gods that he hates mornings just as much as i do. I have no idea what i would have done with another morning person, though i could use a bit of Seung's chipperness right about now.

I sigh and stand up, heading upstairs with an armful of toddler, hoping that getting him dressed will be easier than it was yesterday. I'm just not as good at getting Seungri in cloths as his other father is. I guess with years of getting me dressed, my husband is damn near an expert at this point.

>>>>

The toddler clings to Hwa Yun as she walks me to the door, and coos at my son, just like everyone does. I admit that he's kind of perfect, so i can't really blame them.

"Everything you need is in his bag, and i'll have my phone on me all day.. and-"

"Ji" my mom stops me, her amused grin pulling me back from dad mode.

Nodding, i take a big sigh "i know, i know. You have this"

She shakes her head and pats my arm, her eyebrows creasing in concern "you ok?"

The smile i give her, i know doesn't touch my eyes, but i try nonetheless "i'm ok... i'm just... stuck in my head today"

Another pat, followed by a reassuring squeeze, balances me a bit, but i know it's not what i need. Not by a long shot.

"It'll just be a few hours, call me for anything" i say, giving one last look at my son.

He reaches out and i pull him into my arms giving him a big hug, then kiss his head, debating if leaving him today is really a good idea. Hwa Yun answers for me, pulling the slightly fussing toddler out of my arms, and pushes me towards the door.

"Go, Ji. He'll be fine. Take the whole day if you need it" my mom says, and i give her a short nod, and open the door, trying to ignore my son fussing behind me, but i know she's right. This is good for both of us.

........

Pulling up the familiar road, the odd calm I've been experiencing all day suddenly fades and is replaced with a sinking feeling in my stomach. I hate this. Every year, it's the same.

I check my phone. 11:57am, October 28... this day is never easy.

A sudden knock on my car window nearly gives me a heart attack, as i jump and make a very manly noise. I look up, wide eyed to find Taemin laughing his ass off, doubled over and wheezing. This damn kid, i swear.

I get out of my car quickly and grab the boy... well... man now, by the back of his neck. "How dare you scare your hyung like that, every day you become more and more like your brother, i swear."

Taemin makes a soundless laugh and has to brace himself against my car.

"Asshole." i say, and wait for my best friend to get a hold of himself.

Tae finally calms and stands up, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me into a deep hug. I sigh thankfully and sink into it. He always knows what will make me feel better, but yet, it's still not exactly what I need.

"Hey, that's enough. Hands off my fiancée" a deep voice says behind us, obviously with zero seriousness behind it.

"Hey, Mino" i call and turn to my old friend, taking in how much he's changed in the past couple of years. He's been over seas working, and he just got back a few moths ago, thank god. Taemin's been a lovesick puppy without him, though i appreciate how close my brother-in-law has gotten with my son, since he kind of took over as impromptu nanny in his lovers absence.

Mino waves at me, but keeps his distance, always a respectful gentlemen. "I'm guessing my mom called?"

Taemin sighs and nods when i meet his eyes. I can't find it in myself to be mad about it though, i'm actually pretty pleased to have the support. This day is hard enough.

I start to head into the graveyard, but am stopped with a hand on my arm by Mino, before an umbrella is being placed above me. I want to argue, but i know it's no use, so i allow them to lead me down the familiar row of tombstones.

I kneel down when we reach his, and wipe off some leaves and dirt from the stone. I slide my fingers over the S E U N G H and stop, taking a deep breath. I try not to look at the dates. I don't really care to think about how old he'd be now, or what our life would be like today.

Standing back up, i give a silent message of peace and hopefulness that he's doing ok, then leave a single rose in front of his stone. It doesn't really feel like my chest is ripping apart anymore when i come here. I miss him like crazy, and i would give anything to have him back, but i'm content in knowing that we're both at peace. I'm living the life we both wanted and to me, that's the best way to keep him with me.

I'm sure he's watching over us, keeping a close eye, and sometimes i can actually hear his voice or feel his smile when life is at it's fullest. I've reached that life we always talked about, the simple, happy life we always dreamed of together, and i know he feels it too, that it's just as sweet, if not more than we could have ever imagined.

"Ji?" Taemin suddenly pops me out of my thoughts.

I turn to him and smile, feeling a little bit more at ease and lighter somehow "Yeah?"

Taemin wraps his arms around my waist and rests his head on my shoulder "come on, lets go get something to eat... god knows you fed my perfect nephew, but neglected yourself."

I roll my eyes, but can't find it in me to argue because i know he's right. They begin to lead me out of the cemetery, and i cast one last glance over my shoulder, giving one last meaningful look.

'Rest for now, my dear angel. I'll see you again someday'

......

I arrive back at the house and huff out a pathetic sounding breath at how empty it suddenly feels. I already miss my little bean, but i really need to get some housework done. There's only so much that i can put it off.

I round the corner heading into the kitchen, but halt instantly at what i find, or more so who i find standing at the sink, washing dishes.

He turns, as if he sensed my presence, and his face shows just as much relief i feel. In seconds were meeting half way in the kitchen, holding each other tightly, almost desperately.

Finally. This, this is what I needed. This is what I've been craving deep in my chest. Being in this man's arms never fails to recharge me, to make me feel whole and human again. Seunghyun is still after all this time, my safety net, my life jacket. I honestly don't know what I'd do without him, and from the deep content sigh the man releases, I know the feeing is mutual.

"You're back early" i say into the thick fabric of his hoodie. No matter how much his style has changed and advanced over the years. Seung will always be a jeans and hoodie kind of guy, and i love him for that. (It also means I get to steal his big ass hoodies on days I work from home and don't feel like wearing pants)

"I took an earlier train out last night. I missed you guys, and when i called mom last night, she said that you asked her to take Ri today. I knew i had to get here as soon as possible then. I wasn't thinking about the date, baby. I'm sorry, I should have been here" his deep voice fills my senses and squeezes at my heart. This man still can affect me so entirely, even after all of these years, Seung is still my center.

I smile and tighten my arms "it's ok. You're here now. And you know the whole point of me dropping Seungri off at mom's is so i could have a distraction-less home, right? I need to get a little bit of work done today."

Seung smirks down at me and kisses me shortly "and you'll have that. I'm only here for a few hours before they need me back at the gallery to help unload the new shipment i brought back with me"

I pout and grumble incoherent words into Seunghyun's hoodie, not too excited for my husband to leave again, just as i got him back. But the idea that he'll be back in our bed tonight though, keeps me from getting too upset about it.

"Until then, though... i'm going to fuck you into our bed, and make you scream so loud, the stuck up bitches from the neighborhood watch wont be able to look you in the eyes for weeks" he promises.

Seunghyun abruptly reaches down and grasps the back of my thighs, lifting me up and forcing me to wrap my legs around his waist, clinging to him like my life depends on it. A giggle releases from my lips as he rushes up the stairs, towards our bedroom.

Seung makes good on his promise. The other mothers on the block don't even bother to scold me the next day at the park when Seungri climbs into my lap, sniffling and wanting to be coddled, after he fell off one of the swings.

Seung just winks at me from across the park where he is getting ice cream, which causes a full round of flustered murmurs from the bitch brigade and i just chuckle, shaking my head, while checking our child for injuries. Gods, sometimes it surprises me by how much i still love this man, even when he's my greatest distraction, or my biggest downfall, he's still my everything and i couldn't be happier with how our little life turned out.

Sometimes, when i'm having a hard day, I'll head into the furthest corner of my closet. I sit on the ground and pull out a shoe box, one that is beat up and tattered, clearly different from the rest, but far more special. I'll open the lid and pull out what's inside, opening up the piece of paper and reading what's written on the page...

        JiJi, please don't hate me. I did what i did because it just hurt too much. It's not your fault, so don't be sad. I'll always be by your side, like you were always by mine. I need you to be strong and live the way we always talked about in our special place. No matter what, please be happy, JiJi, for both of us. I'll be waiting for you and we can talk about the amazing adventure you lived. I love you, always and forever.

                                        Ri.

The letter Seungri left me is simple, just like he was. Always to the point, and focused on what he wanted for the both of us. Ri probably didn't even realize it at the time, but what he did, managed to give me everything he... we wanted. I would give anything to have him here, by my side, but i will never not be eternally grateful for what my brother gave me.

Especially as i watch my husband walking towards us with his hands full of ice cream, smiling like an excited child, as similar to the smile i see so often on the boy cuddled against my chest. As i think of all of the amazing things i have in my life, all of the love and happiness, and can't help but to send a silent thank you to my baby brother. The boy who gave me everything i ever wanted, and the boy who is an unremitting part of me... always and forever.

~END~

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My Chickens!!

Here we are. Ji and Seung's story has finally reached it's close. It feels like forever ago that i started this one. This story that has been so emotional, and such a large part of me. It's finally at it's conclusion and it's such a bitter sweet moment for me.

I admit that i got a little emotional writing this final chapter and maybe why i had put it off for so long, was because it's kind of hard to let it go, but at the same time i'm incredibly glad that these two have the happiest of endings. It's like watching my children go off into their own lives. I wish the, nothing but the best of everything.

Though our time together has not ended and i intend to write many more stories in the future, our time for this story has, and i want to thank all of you guys so much who stayed with me through the numerous rounds of writers block and up-dateless months. You guys who continued to love this story and these characters as much as i do are so incredibly important to me. Seriously, you guys gave me the strength to finish this and i'm so thankful for your love and support.

I'll see you in my next fic!!

~M~