~Seunghyun~

The summer passes quickly, too quickly in my opinion, but it wasn't waisted in the slightest. Ji and I spent all of it together, despite the protests of our friends and family, who complain that we have a bad habit of shutting the rest of the world out when we're together.

Jinsoo suggested that we find separate activities to do in our own time to create a healthy distance between one another, but also made it a point to tell us that our attachment to one another isn't unhealthy or misplaced. We've been through a lot together and to be bonded in such an extreme that we don't feel the necessity of space, isn't odd, nor does it impact us negatively. He suggested a little distance over time though, so we don't become tired or bored of each other. We're just too happy to care about that right now, however.

We spent a few weeks in Busan on the beach, watching fireworks every night, and soaking up the sun everyday.

This is the fittest I have ever been due to all of the "extra curricular" activities we've been doing and I still don't feel satisfied. I'm not sure I'll ever get enough of Ji's body, of Ji's being. It's not just about the sex with us either, it feels like every time we are intimate, every time I touch Ji's exposed body, our souls bond further. Sometimes when I'm inside of my beautiful lover, I have a hard time distinguishing between his heartbeat and my own. This way we become even closer than before, something I thought impossible.

Ji also manages to drag me around to shop after shop and it seems like my hoodies and jeans are slowly disappearing. My wardrobe now consists of sweaters, fitted dress pants, and classy dress shirts. I feel like a life sized doll for Ji, but I can't really be upset when Ji gives me that gummy smile of his when he finds something I look good in. Especially since he nearly tears me out of them a few minutes later. The closet has seen some things, and I'm very glad that walls can't talk.

This summer has been amazing, but the ever ominous approaching fist semester at university is briskly creeping up on us. Next week Ji and I will be moving into an apartment close to campus, then we will have a week and a half to get situated before classes start, and everything feels like it's going so fast.

A part of me is scared shitless, I passed high school with the luck of my very intelligent boyfriend and what I like to call my intense charisma, but college will be different. I can't bullshit my way through this, and I'll actually have to put forth my best effort. Especially since I have a future to think of now. I have to support Ji, myself, and our inevitable family. I need a good career if I'm going to pay for the shopping and fashion addict known as Kwon Jiyong.

I'm happy to do so though, it's just a lot of pressure to be better, to do my best that has me a little stressed. I've never really had expectations before, no on expected me to go far or do something with my life. But now I have a person who's trusting me and relying on me to do something great... Ji believes in me, in us and I refuse to let him down.

Speaking of future, there's something I need to do before we move into our own place, there's a certain thing I feel has to be made right. Call me a little old fashioned, but it just needs to be done.

>>>>

"Seung, I respect that you have this 'thing' you have to do, but we have a week and I'm not even close to finished packing up our closet, let alone the rest of the room"

I roll my eyes "well you would be if you wouldn't insist on putting a label on every single outfit and organizing them by color, occasion, and season"

Ji blinks a few times, then clicks his head to the side glaring at me "do we have to have this fight again?"

I chuckle, amused at my little diva and shake my head "id rather not, today is a good day and it's going to get even better... let's not ruin it"

Ji's eyes narrow and he stares at me apprehensively "where are we going?"

I shrug and feign innocence "I don't know, I guess we'll find out when we get there"

Ji sighs and pinches the bride of his nose, but reaches out to take my hand contradictorily "you're insufferable"

"Love you too, baby"

.....

"Why are we here?" Ji asks, his eyes not really focusing on one spot, but I know he can't help but be drawn back to a particular area.

"I have something I need to ask him, and I want you here for it" I say, taking Ji's hand and leading him down the isle.

Ji squeezes my hand and I can feel a slight tug of anxiety in his grip. It's probably been a bit since he's been here and I know it still isn't easy for him, but this is the only way I know to do this properly.

We reach the familiar stone and stop, I read the words written on the face and feel a small ache in my heart. It still makes my heart pull to think about how young Seungri was and how bad he had to have been hurting to do such a thing. I silently wish him peace, before letting go of Ji's hand and crouching down in front of the stone.

"Hey, Seungri. I know it's been a bit since I've been out here" I've brought flowers to Ji's little brother a couple times since Ji showed me where he is. Ji doesn't know anything about it, but I didn't really know how to explain why I do it. I guess a part of me just comes out to understand a part of Ji that Seungri knew, a part that died with the younger.

"You come out here?" Ji asks, his voice barely above a whisper.

I nod without looking at him "You said he likes flowers, and I felt like he would enjoy a bit of company. Even if I just go on and on about you, he probably likes being updated about how you're doing"

I feel Ji's hand slip into my hair, combing the stands with his fingers, affectionately "Seung.." he says, his voice thick with emotion.

"Hold on, let me finish" I say, fearing that if I don't get this out, I might not have the courage to do this again.

"As I was saying, remember the last time we talked, Seungri? That important thing I asked you about? Well per our agreement, nothing bad happened, so I take that as your silent blessing. I know I will do right by him, Seungri. I know I'll make him really happy, so put your faith in me, yeah?" Silence follows the question, as I expected.

Seungri never answers back, obviously, but in an odd way I feel like he answers my questions and I can almost hear his words in my heart. I know Seungri would approve of this and I have a feeling he's watching right now, a smile similar to Ji's on his face.

I take a deep stabilizing breath and stand up, then turn to Ji, taking his hands into mine before looking him in the eyes. Ji's gaze searches mine, a shininess covers the edges of them and I can tell he's touched by my efforts and affection toward his little brother.

"Ji, baby" I begin, squeezing his hands " I'm not as great with words as you are, but I'm going to try my best to express what I feel"

Ji visibly swallows and nods, motioning me to continue.

I take in a deep breath and center myself "I can't really ever thank you for everything you've done for me, I can't really express what you've become to me. You came into my life and lit up my sky, showing me just how dark it was. You've made me a better man and made me dream of a better world, with possibilities I once thought too far out of my reach. You came to me when I needed you, when I didn't know I needed anyone and showed me a world that would be meaningless without you. I can never really thank you for everything you've given me, but I can start with giving you everything I am and promising you everything I will be" I let go of one of Ji's hands and reach into my pocket, pulling out a small box.

Ji gaps and places his free hand over his mouth, clearly shocked and for once in his life speechless.

I slowly drop to one knee, and watch as the tears spill over, sliding down Ji's perfect face "Kwon Jiyong, my beautiful light, my guardian angel... would you make me the happiest man in the existence of everything and marry me?" I question, as I open the tiny lid to reveal a ring inside.

Ji's eyes widen and he chokes out a small sob, then starts nodding his head erratically, tears free flowing and a beautiful smile stretched across his lips.

"Yes, yes I will" he says, finally finding his voice, though slightly horse.

I smile and shoot up, gathering Ji into my arms and lifting him off the ground, spinning him around. Clearly I knew he'd say yes, but a part of me was still apprehensive, a part of me doubted that he was ready, but he said yes, he agreed to be my husband, and I can barely breath, I'm so happy.

I set Ji back down on the ground and we gaze into each other's eyes, before I pull the ring out of the box and place it on his delicate little finger. A perfect fit, in more ways that one. Ji stares down at it and I wonder if he'll ever stop crying.

Ji finally looks up at me and shows me how sparkly and alight his eyes are. He looks stunning like this, and I can't help the passionate kiss I pull him into.

It only felt right that we make this commitment to one another before we move in together. A start of our life should begin with meaning and moving into our own place feels right now, feels real. Ji's mine, in every way, he's mine and I'm the luckiest man in the existence of humankind.

Ji's my happiness and I promise the heavens that I will do everything to be his. Today, as we officially start our lives together, I vow to devote every bit of my existence to this man in front of me, and to love him so much he forgets what it ever felt like to be alone.

'And I vow to you too, Seungri. I will protect your brother with my life and I will make all of his days happy, just as you wanted'

>>>>

~Jiyong~ *one week later*

The last box hits the floor with a heavy thud, probably one of my many book boxes. Seung groans as he straightens up. I observe the smallish living room, all of the boxs stacked around it, making the room look smaller than it is. We're all moved in now, the place is ours, but there's still so much to do.

I have to make this place a home for the next 4+ years. I have to make this apartment feel like Seung and me, make it feel like our place. It's a big job, but one I'm so excited for. It's like getting a new shirt, the possibilities of what you can do with it, the outfits you can make it into are endless.

"That's it, baby. No more boxes" Seung says, a sheen of sweat shining across his skin, making my stomach clench in arousal.

I smirk and step quickly over to him, placing a hand on the side of his neck. He jolts and looks over to me in curiosity, till he notices the fire in my eyes, then a similar one ignites in his own.

Wordlessly he turns to me and places his hands on my waist, pulling me closer to him, then gives me that sexy smile of his. I still hate it, but I have to give him credit that it's really fucking hot when he does it in times like this.

Seung leans in and lightly runs his lips across my neck, trailing up to my jaw, then to my lips. He kisses me deeply, stealing the air from my lungs and then replacing it with an inferno in my gut. I've come to the conclusion that I will always crave Seung like this, that even the lightest touch never fails to turn me on, but it feels like I'm never satisfied... I always want more and more of this man.

"Ok, gross" an abrupt cry, followed by slight snickering crashes into the moment, throwing ice water onto our flames.

I sigh and Seung growls lowly as he pulls back, setting a glare on his brother standing in the doorframe, with my hyungs and Minho behind him.

"Sorry to interrupt" Minho says, trying his best to fight a smile and refusing to make eye contact. "The truck is all unpacked, and we were wondering if you wanted to go out for pizza?"

Taemin curls his lip and crosses his arms "I'm not sorry, you two could at least wait till we leave before you start humping like bunnies"

I feel heat rise to my cheeks and tighten my hold on Seung's neck, signaling my distress to him. He blinks at me and narrows his eyes, before sending a death stare to the kid, who kind of looks surprised and affronted at the intense glare. Taemin straightens and at least has the common sense to look away.

"Are you sure you want to give him what we talked about?" Seung asks, his tone low and ominous.

I clear my throat and sigh "yes, despite the slight annoyances, he's still really important to us"

Seunghyun nods and relaxes his face "we have a surprise for you, kid"

Taemin glances at his brother apprehensively and moves forward into the apartment, but dares not to get too close, incase Seung is planning a trap. I chuckle at this, and pull away from Seung to dig into my bag sitting across the room, looking for that specific thing.

"Ji and I talked about it and we know that sometimes it gets a little hectic living with grandma, because it's far from the dance studio and also from..." Seung clears his throat awkwardly "from the dorms Minho lives in... so we're going to give you the extra room here"

I pull out a key from my bag and walk over to Taemin, setting a hand on his arm, before handing him the key "even if you rarely come here, it's more of a symbol that we want you in our lives and are planing for you to be a part of our future. Especially when you graduate, you'll have a place to stay that's close to the arts school a few blocks away"

Taemin blinks at me and then looks down to the key in his hand, breathing out a choked breath "seriously?"

I smile and reach up to clear the hair out of his eyes "of course Tae, you're family to both of us and we want you to come here whenever you want"

"Well almost whenever... make sure you call or text first before coming over at least" Seung adds coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around my waist.

Taemin suddenly wails and throws his arms around Seung and me, squeezing us tightly "I love you guys, so much"

Seung chuckles and disentangles his brother from us, taking a step back subconsciously putting distance from me and the boy. I roll my eyes at the giant jealous monster, and reach out taking Tae's hand in mine.

"We made a promise to always stay together, the three of us, remember? We meant that, Taemin. Family forever and always" I say, then reach up to wipe a tear off the younger's face as it spills over.

"This means a lot to me, Ji... thank you" he says cradling the key in his hands, against his chest, like it's the most precious thing in the world to him.

"Thanks for popping up in my life when I needed you, Tae. You've given more than you could understand" I says, rubbing my thumb across his cheek, like my Hwa Yun used to do for me when she wanted to give me affection.

"Ok, ok" Eunhyuk says stepping into the room and holding up his hands "I swear you two cry more than new born babies. Let's go eat some pizza and drink some beer, I need some testosterone in my night"

Donghae rolls his eyes "says the man who was on his knees hands and knees, begging 'daddy, please touch me' as I fucked you into our couch last night"

Eunhyuk's eyes widen to amusing proportions and a scary twitch developed in the right one, as he turns to his boyfriend. All of the color drains from Donghae's eyes as he takes a slow step back "I-I'm sorry... it just... you know I have no filter" he pleads.

Eunhyuk tightens his jaw and takes a step forward before uttering one bone chilling word... "run"

Donghae take off sprinting from our apartment, tailed closely by his livid boyfriend and I worry for a second about Donghae's life. He might really have pushed his boyfriend over the edge this time.

Kyuhyun sighs and looks up at me, grabbing Sungmin's hand and giving me a short smile. My relationship with my step brother has really improved since I've gotten my shit together. I think he was the one person who didn't coddle me and a part of me feels like I needed that.

"We'll wait outside, you guys can have a second to compose yourselves" Kyuhyun says, grabbing Minho by the collar of his shirt and dragging him out of the apartment, with Sungmin in tow.

Taemin, Seung, and I are left in the apartment. Tae looks up and stares into my eyes "you guys are sure about this?"

Seung sets his chin on my shoulder "of course, kid. I want you with me always, but grandma needs you too, so we'll settle for giving you a room at both places, so you don't have to choose. This is your home, too"

Taemin's lip wobbles and Seung quickly pulls away from me to collect the boy into his arms and holding him tightly "you're my little brother, and I'll always take care of you, I promise"

Taemin sniffles and holds on tight to the older "I love you, Seunghyun"

Seung kisses the top of his brothers head "I love you to, Taemin"

I smile at the scene and can't help the burst of emotions I feel in my chest. I've always admired the way Seung takes care of Taemin, the way he loves him so selflessly. It aches because it makes me miss Seungri something awful, but it also makes my heart swell at the love between the two. It makes me certain that Seung is going to be an amazing father, and husband.

I glance down at my hand and grin stupidly to myself. Husband, Seung's going to be my husband. The ring sparkles in the light and nearly casts a luminescent glow against my finger. We're going to get married and start a future together, this is the begging of us, the real us and I'm so happy.

A light click of the front door makes my head snap up and I realize that it's just Seung and me left there. Seunghyun stares at me, a fond smile resting on his lips, because he caught me once again admiring the jewlry on my finger.

"I guess I don't have to ask if you like it or not. It's one of the first fashion oriented things I've picked out and didn't know if you'd like it" Seung says, shyly "but since you always stare at it with this goofy grin on your face, I'll take it as a positive response"

"I love it, Seung. It's perfect, it reminds me of the two of us" it's a simple, thin white gold band, with one small diamond placed in the center. It's classy, but also modest, it's perfect "... it's more than anything I could have picked out myself" I say, running the tip of my finger over it.

Seung smiles brilliantly and steps forward, pulling me into a loving embrace "I can't believe you're all mine"

I sigh happily and lean up on my tiptoes placing a kiss on his lips "ill ways be yours, Seung"

"Forever?"

Seung closes his eyes and places his forehead against mine, while I whisper a confirming  "always"

That night we ate pizza, drank beer, and enjoyed the first taste of the rest of our lives and it was so beautiful. It wasn't what I've always imagined it being... no, it was so much more, and I know for a fact that Seungri was right beside me the whole time.

>>>>

~Seunghyun~ *4 months later*

The first semester wasn't as hard as I had thought it was going to be. I worked really hard and studied, I actually seemed to understand what I was learning in classes. For the first time I feel smart and accomplished, it also helps that I can tell Ji is proud of me. He knows I'm working hard, we both are, because it's more than just ourselves anymore, it's us, and that means something... that means we have to put forth our best for our future.

Finals is quickly approaching and everyone is walking around campus like they've either had way to much coffee or haven't slept in days. The fact that both of those could probably be the exact case is deeply concerning.

I walk into the library, looking around trying to find my little ball of stress who's been driving himself crazy studying. I find him amongst a sea of books and notebooks. His hair is a mess like he's been pulling at it all day, and he has deep circles under his eyes. I had to literally force him to go to bed last night and put the books down, but I know he barely slept.

Ji mutters to himself under his breath, his eyes blinking rapidly at the page in front of him. He's losing it and I think it's time I intervened.

I walk up casually to the table and begin closing book after book, stacking them on the side of the table.

"What are you doing?" Ji asks, looking up at me like I've nearly lost it. He's the one talking to himself and looks like he hasn't slept in days, and I'm the crazy one.

"Ji, baby, you're not going to accomplish anything like this. Let's go" I say, setting a sternness to my voice I know he'll listen to.

Ji opens his mouth to say something, but then sighs and lets his shoulders sag in defeat "where?"

I chuckle and help Ji pack up his backpack "you'll see"

....

I pull Ji into that bathroom and lean him against the counter. One of the things I was specific about when we started looking for our own place, was the bathroom, or more precisely the shower. I remember how important Ji's bathroom was to him and in times like these, I'm glad I made that choice.

I turn on the shower and play with the nobs, setting it to the right temperature and pressure. Once I know it's perfect, I turn around to receive Ji's confused and exhausted expression. I know if it were under normal circumstances, Ji would be bitching up a storm and asking a million questions, but right now, he just doesn't have it in him. That worries me and honestly it pisses me off a little.

"You need to take better care of yourself, Ji. I know it's important for you to study and get good grades, but sacrificing your health in the process isn't ok" I say, then make my way back to him and start taking off his cloths "I'm disappointed in you... I'm disappointed that you think a 4.0 is more important than your physical and mental health"

When I pull back, the look on Ji's face shimmers with emotions of guilt and regret. I kind of feel bad for making him feel this way, but at the same time, I'm glad that he's finally aware of what's been happening. Ji has a habit of coasting when he focuses on something this intently. He fails to think about how his actions and emotions affect others, but that's where I come in. Setting Ji back on the right track, and sending him in the right direction is my job. I don't mind though, I'd guide him through the rest of our lives if needed.

"I...I tapped out again, didn't I?" Ji asks, his voice sounding robotic and stiff.

I nod and help him out of his jeans "yeah, baby, but I've got you" I say, pulling him out of his shoes and wrapping my arms around my now naked love.

Ji folds into me and breaths in deeply, as if pulling my sent into his body. I grasp onto Ji and pull him into my arms by the backs of his thighs, wrapping his legs around my waist and carrying him to the shower.

I set Ji down once inside the shower and lead him under the spray. I move to step out, but once he sways and braces himself against the wall, I know I can't leave him. I sigh and step forward, caging Ji in my arms, helping him stand up straight.

Ji looks over his shoulder and sighs "you're getting your shirt wet"

I nod "I know, but I don't want you to pass out in the shower"

Ji shakes his head slightly, but doesn't deny the possibly "you could have at least a taken off your cloths before you climbed in here with me"

I shrug, running my hands up his rib cage, catalyzing a pleasured shiver from Ji "then you would have gotten ideas you don't need to have right now. You need to take a shower, then get some sleep"

Ji huffs out a breath, but doesn't fight me further. I grab the shampoo and begin scrubbing Ji's hair, smiling as he releases a pleasant hum. I know how Ji feels about water, it relaxes him, centers him. I can't count how many times I've woken up to find Ji in the shower, his eyes closed, and a meditative look on his face. Ji finds peace in the gentle spray of the water and who am I to question it? It's why I made sure Ji had a beautiful bathroom in our apartment, for times like these, when he needs to calm his mind and wind down.

I finish cleaning Ji up, and set him down, wrapped in a towel, on the edge of the tub. I towel dry his hair, making it puffy and causing him to look adorable. I coo at him and place a kiss his cheek, then leave him for a second, while I strip off my now soaked clothing.

"You were right, it's good you kept your cloths on" Ji says behind me.

I turn around, and note the slight burn in Ji's eyes, but by how clouded it is by exhaustion, I pay it no mind. Ji needs sleep more than he needs to get off, and for once I don't think he'll fight me on it.

I wrap a towel around my waist and make way back to Ji who's still watching me, but leaning way too heavily to his left side. I pull his towel off and dry him completely, making sure he stays upright.

"Come on, baby. Bed time" I say when I'm done and Ji hums, smiling softly at me and holds his arms out like a child wanting to be picked up.

I chuckle, then lean down, picking the boy up, and carrying him out of the room. I set him down on our bed and watch him snuggle up under our large fluffy comforter. His eyes close easily and he hums as he relaxes against the many pillows Ji has nested on our bed.

He looks peaceful, serine and I can't find it in me to bother him about the fact that he doesn't have any cloths on right now. I shake my head and chuckle at the boy. I head into the closet and pull on some sweatpants and a casual t-shirt, then leave the room, padding into the kitchen to make some tea. I also have finals coming up, and need to study for them.

The quiet surrounds me for a while as I dive into my studies, my tea turns slightly cold, and the sun dips below the horizon, leaving the room in a dusky shadow.

"It's late" The words infiltrated my mental zone out, making me jump and look up quickly.

Ji stands before me, a sheet wrapped around his body, but barely covering much of it. His pearlescent skin glows in the moonlight, flooding into our apartment by the many windows. My mouth dries and I swallow thickly.

"It is" I say, my voice thick and deep due to disuse over the past couple of hours.

Ji sighs and lays his head against the door frame "come to bed, you need sleep too"

There's a light in his eyes now and he seems a lot more level than before I put him to bed, even if it's only been a few hours, but I know he never sleeps for long without me beside him. It makes me pleased to see him doing better and I feel like I might actually be able to take care of him.

Doubt has been filling me lately, I've been worried that I might not be able to take care of Ji as much as he needs. We've been busy with school and I haven't been able to attend to his every need, but maybe I don't have to. Just being there when it counts is good for now. He's alive and safe, I can do this much for him and that makes me feel immensely better.

I sigh and close my book, rubbing my eyes, then stand, making my way towards my beautiful boy. I don't stop as I reach him, just wrap my arms around his waist and throw him over my shoulder.

Ji yelps and frantically grabs at my shirt, but doesn't say anything further, just relaxes, obviously used to my antics.

I throw Ji carefully onto the bed and crawl over him. Ji breaths roughly, his flawless, beautiful skin illuminated so perfectly beneath me. He looks so picturesque like this, so angelic. I want to devour him.

"S-Seung" Ji says breathlessly, the look on his face going straight to my crotch, pulsing there.

I push aside the sheet, that wasn't doing much of a job covering my beautiful angel anyways, and let my eyes roam over the expanse of milky white skin before me. Stunning. Perfection personified. His skin is only lightly blemished from the last time we made love, and I aim to fix that.

I lean in and let my lips trail naturally, knowing his body like the back of my hand. Ji releases a whine and threads his fingers through his hair, exactly where I want them. Something about Ji's fingers raking against my scalp, tugging on the strands, spurs me on, encourages me to unravel the man. Plus I love the feeling of Ji's neediness being translated through how roughly he pulls.

We also developed a system, three hard tugs signals me to pause for a second. Sometimes when we get wrapped up in one another, we lose track of cognitive functions and when it becomes to much for him that he can't vocalize, he has this escape goatee. It's been working so far, though I'm happy to say he barely uses it.

He's come so far since the first time we started being intimate, he doesn't even flinch as my lips seek claim on his thighs. I leave bright colored marks across the inside of his thighs and bite at the territorial blemishes I position there. Every mark has a reason, a specific placement, so each one is precariously stationed.

Ji releases a high pitched moan and my breath stutters at how hard my dick twitches from that sound. I sit up and grab Ji's knees, yanking him down and cover his body with my own, grinding my crotch down onto his as my lips silence every sound that pours from his lips.

He squirms, arching into me, and responds hungrily to my kiss. I've always wanted Ji to be this responsive, this eager with sex. He was so hesitant before, so pensive to touch and ask to be touched, but now he doesn't ask, he demands. It drives me crazy, and he knows it.

Ji demonstrates this by reaching down for my hand and placing it on his chest. I indulge him, playing with his nipples, trailing my finger tips over the sensitive buds, smirking at the hitch in breath I get in response. I play with them for a few seconds, rolling, pinching, all eliciting dick pulsing noises from the man under me.

I pull back from Ji's lips, panting and move down, taking Ji's right nipple into my mouth, sucking lightly, making it rise and perk. My name pronounced so lewdly, is one of my favorite sounds in this world.

My tongue peeks out, circling the buds before tasting the rest of his body, every bump of the scars down his torso, each one bringing on their own sensitivity. The one on his lower stomach being one of the most sensitive, and I take advantage of that, letting my teeth scrap over it as I continue to lower myself down his body.

Ji release a curse and pulls at my hair, but only once, so I continue. I lick a thick stripe up his twitching cock, flicking the tip with the point of my tongue and pause, waiting for Ji to resume breathing.

He shivers, then finally exhales and i smirk at how easily I can wreck him. I grasp him lightly in my hand, his already hard length quivers, making me give it a reassuring pump. I lean back in and work at it with my tongue, pushing an awareness into Ji's hands in my hair. I want to push him tonight, I want to test just how far he's come.

I devour him, every inch is touched, kissed, bitten. He falls apart in my hands, and I make him cum before my cock even touches his clenching hole.

"What's gotten into you tonight?" Ji asks, as I bend over him to retrieve the lube from the bedside table. Ji makes short work of my cloths, popping open each button with expert precision.

I smirk and clasp onto cold plastic, coming back to eye level with him. "You have your shower... I have your body... we all have our stress relievers"

Ji blinks at me and swallows thickly "making me cum multiple times relaxes you?"

My smirk deepens and I trail a finger vertically across his sternum "unraveling you in my hands relaxes me, making you cum as many times as you can take, is just a bonus"

The man shakes his head and closes his eyes, while I feel his length jump to life against my thigh. I press against it gently and he keens, grabbing onto my bicep, squeezing desperately, and whines. So sensitive, perfect.

By the time I have him stretched, and ready for me, Ji looks ready to detonate. He's exactly where I want him.

"Baby" I call, stilling my fingers inside of him.

He whimpers and moves his hips up, trying to get friction. I place a hand on his lower abdomen to keep him still, and push my fingers in deeper, brushing over his prostrate. Ji's eyes roll back in his head and his back instinctively arches.

I take a moment to watch his body tense and spasm as my fingers tease the spot. The flex and roll of his muscles under his skin as the pressure builds, is fascinating.

"I love to watch you like this" I say "so needy, vulnerable to my every touch... submissive to my control"

Ji whines and tenses his thighs "possessive fuck"

I chuckle darkly and lean down seizing his lips in an affirming kiss "only for you, baby. You're my addiction, and your body supplies the greatest fix"

Ji gasps and jolts as I press my fingers harder against his spot, sending him deeper into oblivion.

"S-Seung, please. I want you inside me" Ji pleads, and who am I to deny my world his desire, especially when it matches my own?

Pushing inside of him is like coming home after a long day, and throwing yourself down on your bed, relaxing into it. It's so good, it should be a sin.

Ji clutches at me, his right hand hooking onto my shoulder, nails digging in deep, while the left threads through my hair. He gives me a light tug, reminding me to reserve some focus on his needs. I intend to lose myself inside of him, but don't need to lose him as well.

I bottom out, and take a second to relish in this moment, this feeling. Being inside Ji is one of my favorite places to be. The connection we share is only deepened by this level of intimacy, this level of love. No one has ever shared in this pleasure with him, one one has fit him this perfectly, filled him so completely in ways not just physical.

Ji sighs contently, clearly sharing my thoughts and emotions as he usually does. I breath in a deep breath and lean down, placing my forehead against his, and starting to rock gently into him.

Ji hooks his legs around my hips, crossing his ankles behind my back, allowing me to go deeper. When I finally pull out and thrust back in, it's slow, and intense.

Sex will always be like this between us. It will never be casual or quick. When Ji and I share our bodies, it's complete and all consuming. This level of carnal knowledge is so profound it shakes us to the very core. It will never be simple between us, because transcending to a whole other world is nothing but earth shattering.

My rhythm speeds up, but doesn't lose intensity. Ji opens his eyes, staring deeply into mine. His hands shake, but holds firmly onto me, his gaze never faltering.

"I love you" he breaths, his eyes glassy and swirling with a storm of emotions.

I smile and draw him into a deep, significant kiss. One that centers us, links our souls in the truest way possible. It feels like the universe disperses in this moment, leaving nothing by the energy binding us together.

Ji pulls me down, compressing my body against his, while his fingernails dig into my back, raking across the skin desperately. He yanks at my strands and breaths harshly into my ear.

"Everything I am, everything I will be, I give to you... always and forever" I whisper into his ear, my voice rough and rumbling.

Ji convulses and cums, his body jolting with aftershocks, as I propel him through it, chasing my own end. The pleasure is so amazing, I don't want it to stop, I don't want this to end, but I can feel Ji clenching around me and know that fighting it is futile.

"Come on, darling. Let go, it's ok" Ji says, moving the hand in my hair, to caress my cheek tenderly, while the other laces with mine.

I squeeze his hand and feel the build pulse over the edge. I release hard, deep into my beautiful boyfriend, and shutter from the high. My body tingles with sensation and it feels like I'll burst from pleasure.

"Fuck" I growl and close my eyes tightly, letting the aftershocks roll through me.

Ji moans and clutches my hand tightly. I go to withdraw from Ji, but he grabs onto my shoulder and holds me.

"Wait... j-just stay for a bit longer" Ji says, his eyes showing vulnerability when I open mine to search his emotions.

I nod, knowing what he wants and wrap my arms around his waist, securing him against me, then lift him up and set him in my lap. Ji sighs and rests his head against my shoulder, tightening his legs around my waist, while I soften inside him. We stay like that for a while, just holding onto one another, content in our afterglow.

He has this habit of wanting to keep me inside of him after we both cum. Ji wants to stay full for as long as possible, he seems to also have a 'kink' I guess it could be described, for wanting to keep my seed inside of him. I've talked to Junsoo about it and he doesn't find anything wrong with it, actually he supplied advice on some ways to make it better for Ji.

Which reminds me. I set Ji back down, and push his bottom up off the bed. Ji whines when I pull out, but I hush him, and lean over to the bedside table, careful to keep his ass in an upright position.

Ji cocks his head at me and gives me a confused look, but I just wink at him, as I pull a box out of my drawer. Ji stays out of my drawer and I stay out of his, which I'm thankful for. I wanted to keep this a surprise.

The heavy metal rests in my hands, shining against my tan skin. It looks just as beautiful as it did when I first bought it, and now faced with Ji's body in front of me, I'm so glad I got it.

I come back to sit in front of Ji, noticing some of my cum starting to leak out of his ass, even as he clenches around it, trying to hold it in. I reach down and scoop up the small stream of it with my finger and push it back in. Ji shutters and sighs thankfully to me, confirming my suspicions about this.

"This" I say, holding up the toy "will keep it from flowing out"

Ji swallows thickly, his eyes widening, and his cheeks taking on a beautiful red hue. I'm sure his mind is reeling for an explanation to how I know, how I figured out that this is something he desires.

"I know your body, baby. I know you better than I know myself... you don't think I noticed that you like this?" I ask, placing the plug at his entrance and slowly pushing it inside. His hole clenches at the toy and tugs it into place.

Ji breaths in deeply and fixes me with a steady gaze "thank you"

I smile and pet his thighs, addicted to them and taking liberty of the ability to touch as i please now "I have you, baby. If you need something, I'll always accommodate. It's my job to see to your needs"

"It's weird though" Ji says, his cheeks darkening in color.

I chuckle and caress his hips "we all have our kinks, Ji. I actually went out of my way to buy a butt plug. The ladies at the shop had to help me pick out the right size for you... it was awkward as hell... do you think I would have done that If I thought this was weird or didn't want to indulge you?"

Ji bites at his lip and leans up, tugging at the back of my neck. "I love the feeling of your cum inside me, it's like a piece of you that I can hold on to. I know I can't have children, but knowing little you's are inside of me makes me feel whole and content"

I sigh and bend forward, placing my forehead against his again "you never cease to surprise me, my beautiful baby"

Ji smiles and tilts his head, giving me a long, deep kiss "you're the one who bought a butt plug"

I snort and pet Ji's hair "true, which... how does it feel? Size ok?"

Ji nods and moves around a bit, gasping lightly "it's nice. We might have to look into this one some more"

I smile and roll my eyes "God, we're going to be those parents with a secret drawer in their closet, that our kids will stumble upon one day and be scard for life"

Ji mirrors my eye roll and shakes his head "daddy will be extra careful to lock that drawer every time we put everything up so that doesn't happen, right Seung?"

The smile that takes over my lips comes naturally, because this feels so domestic, so real. Us talking about our children so naturally, like they already exist and we've been married for years. Gods, I want this so damn much, and a part of me knows he feels the same.

"We'll make them happy, Ji" I say, suddenly feeling a small burst of emotion.

Ji cocks his head to the side and caresses my jaw, touching so tenderly my chest clenches "of course, Seung. They'll never understand what we went through, they'll never understand the type of pain we felt... We'll make sure if it. Even if something happens to us, they'll have my parents, your grandma, and even Taemin... they will be so loved and taken care of, Seung. We will love them the way we always deserved to be"

I don't realize that I'm crying until Ji leans up and kisses away the tears, shushing me, and petting my hair lovingly. I had always wanted this, but having it said allowed, cuts at me in ways I can never voice. I want an amazing future for us, not just for Ji, but for our future children as well. I want to be a good dad and support our family. I don't want Ji or our kids to ever worry about anything... I need to do right by them.

Ji holds me tight, while I release all of the pressure I hadn't known I was putting on myself. I knew I was pushing myself in school, but I hadn't truly understood why until now. I need to be the man my family deserves, and Ji shares my desires. I'm not in this alone, I'll have Ji by my side. If I fail, I know he'll be there to pick up the pieces, and push me back on the right track just as I had done for him. We're in this together and I think I just needed to be reminded of that.

"Me and you, Seung" Ji whispers into my ear.

"Forever?"

"Always"

We end up making love numerous times that night, proving to one another over and over everything we could possibly ever doubt. Unspoken words and unuttered promises were communicated with tender touches and meaningful caresses. The sun greets us, as we rock together across our now sullied sheets, making the sweat across our bodies glisten and the love in our eyes sparkle.

We skip class and spend the day in bed; sleeping, eating junk food and watching dramas. A much needed day to relax and reconnect, it's perfect and everything I could ever wish our life to be.

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~Jiyong~ *February, junior year*

"I will kick your ass, get out of my house" Seunghyun roars.

"Please, listen. I'm sorry, I-it was a mistake... please, Seunghyun listen to me"

"Don't even fucking give me that, you're regretful that you got caught, not that you did it, you piece of shit" Seung growls and clearly knocks something over judging by the loud crash of something shattering.

"Please, Seung. Hear me out"

"I have no reason to listen to you, I owe you nothing. Not now, not after what you just did" Seung spits, knocking some heavy sounding object (probably a chair) over.

I sigh, and pinch the bridge of my nose, deciding it's time for me to intervene. I pout and look at the mess of a closet I was half way through organizing, knowing it'll have to wait for now.

I stand up, careful to fold the sweater i had in my hands before I exit the large closet and make my way to the living room where all hell seems to be breaking loose.

"How dare you" Seung yells, barely being held back by his brother "how dare you touch him"

Minho frowns and seems close to tears "I'm so sorry, I wasn't thinking. It was a mistake, please listen"

"A mistake?" Taemin asks, turning his head sadly to look at his boyfriend "I'm a mistake?"

"No, baby, no. J-just the situation. I let things go too far... that shouldn't have happened" Minho explains and I wince, knowing nothing he says right now will help.

Taemin's eyes fill with tears and i sigh, waiting for the worst.

"Now you've made my brother cry, I will fuck you up" Seung screams, but Tae thankfully continues to hold him back.

I roll my eyes and rub my temples, my head hurts from the mass cleaning I've been doing all day, and now I have to deal with these idiots.

"That lamp cost way to much for you not to be groveling at my feet right now for breaking it" I say plainly.

Seunghyun stops in his struggle and turns his head slowly, blinking at me in surprise. He seems to go through multiple stages of emotions. I'm obviously not that upset about the lamp, but I needed something that would get his attention.

"I-I caught Taemin and that" he motions to Minho, like he's the dirtiest scum of the earth "in Tae's room... they... they were..." Seung grasps to explain.

I raise a hand stoping his rambling "doing private things in the privacy of his own room, with his loyal and loving boyfriend who he's been with for over a year now?" I ask, cocking my head to the side.

Seung opens his mouth, fluttering his lips, trying to grasp at anything. I shake my head and fix him with a stern stare. His shoulders sag and he looks down at the floor defeated.

"But... my baby" Seung mutters lowly, but we all hear.

I sigh and walk across the room, making eye contact with Tae, then motioning for him to get the hell out of here with Minho. He gets the cue and grabs his delirious looking boyfriend and pulls him out of the apartment, clearly needing to talk some things out.

"He's eighteen, Seung" I say, placing my hands on my fiancé's shoulders "he's been with Minho for a while now, it's natural that they experiment"

Seung's lips curls up in disgust and his eyebrows pinch together "don't say it that casually"

I chuckle at his behavior and shake my head "he's not a child anymore, Seung. Threatening his boyfriends to an inch of their life every time they merely touch him will just make him miserable and drive a wedge between you two"

Seung blinks, considering this and sighs "I know you're right, but it doesn't stop me from wanting to punch that fucker in the throat"

I smile reflexively and nod "I know, darling. Just give Tae a little bit of credit and trust him to  make his own choices... he's not a kid anymore and we need to treat him with a little dignity and respect"

Seunghyun breaths in deeply and closes his eyes "you're right, I don't like it, but you're right... I'm sorry... I overreacted"

I rub my hands up and down his arms "I'm not the one you need to apologize to, darling. Also, to your credit, I would have lost it a bit if I had been the one to catch them in such a compromising situation"

Seung nods and groans "I hate admitting that I was wrong to that kid... he never lets me live it down"

Rolling my eyes on reflex, I move into the kitchen to find a broom so I can clean up the broken glass. Seung's always been protective of Taemin, and I know he'll continue to be the overprotective big brother, but there comes a time when he needs to learn to let go and let Tae figure some things out on his own.

The same will be for our children one day... one of the things my mother told me when I was younger, that actually made sense and stuck with me, was that, you have to let kids make their own mistakes sometimes, or they never learn right from wrong. Taemin is at a critical point in his life, he's just starting to experience the real world and physical intimacy comes along with that.

As much as I share in Seung's desires of wanting to choke Minho so hard he turns blue, I know that I need to step back and let Tae take the wheel on this one. He's growing up and I can't baby him like I used to.

I smile wistfully as Seung complains about me sweeping up the lamp he broke, and swat at his hands when he try's to stop me. It seems like both of us need to learn how to let someone else take control.

....

Later that night when Taemin comes back home, bravely bringing Minho with him, Seung regards both of them like adults. We sit down for a meal and talk things over maturely, setting rules, but clearly expressing that Taemin makes his own choices.

Taemin, of course cries and hugs us both, then takes Minho to his room, (but leaves the door open, which I'm grateful for, I don't think Seung can handle any more stress tonight).

I'm proud at how easily Seung let his guard down and put aside his stubbornness to admit he was wrong. It's a perfect testament to how far he's come, how much he's matured. Seung isn't that hot headed kid who's ready to fight anyone at any given second anymore. He still has his temper that gets the best of him at times, but he's able to admit his mistakes and move on past them. Seung has grown up, become an adult, though he still has that inner kid and childish side to him, he's really taken on great deal of responsibility.

I'm so proud of who he is and I know he'll only advance from here. With every year, he's becoming more of a strong, intelligent, capable man he promised to become for me. Even his facial features and body has sharpened, presenting a classy, dignified man who could rival any in a GQ magazine.

This Seung is the person I always knew he had the potential to be, he just lacked the confidence to show it to the world. When I look into his eyes, I see a man years beyond his age and can't wait to see how he evolves further.

No matter how much he changes though, he'll always be my Seung. That goofy, awkward, dork of a human and he'll never cease to make me smile and laugh brighter than anyone ever could. No matter how he grows, we'll grow together and learn through life as two halfs of a whole.

A loud giggle fills the apartment from the room currently occupied by two young adults and I watch with amusement as Seung internally groans and rolls his eyes. Yes, we will grow from these moments... just heaven help us when our own children start to date.

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*Senior year, Graduation day*

"You look beautiful"

I smirk and fix Seunghyun's tie, feeling reminiscent of our high school graduation. I was a nervous wreck back then, but things change, people change.

"Of course I do, it's Gucci" I say, patting him for good measure and stepping back admiring my work "perfect"

He smirks and steps forward "yes, you are Mr. Choi"

I roll my eyes "not yet, let me have my name at least for a couple more months"

Seung pouts and leans forward staring deep into my eyes "you don't want my last name?"

I scoff at the giant pain in my ass and flick his nose "of course I do, but I've had mine for a very long time... I'm a little attached"

"I can still take yours, baby. I know we talked about this, but the option is still out there... I don't really have an attachment to my surname" Seung grumbles by the end of his sentence and plays with the edge of his jacket.

"That's why I want to take yours... my brothers will do right by my family name, but I want to put some importance back into yours... give it some honor... I know you never knew your father, but I feel like he'd want you to give something to his legacy" I mention, having thought heavily about this.

Seung never really talked about his dad, always quick to change the subject or pass it off, but I know it's hard on him for not having known the man who gave him life.

"Ji" I hear a thick voiced response and I look up into the sparkling eyes of my fiancé.

I smile and place a reassuring hand on his cheek "I want to belong to you in every way, Seung... I want your last name so every one knows that you own my heart"

Seung closes his eyes and steps forward placing our foreheads together "I love you so much, Kwon Jiyong"

"I love you too, Choi Seunghyun" I whisper, running my thumb lightly over his jaw.

"Ew" a distinctive voice, almost as familiar to me as Seung's is at this point gains my attention.

"Youngbae" I greet pleasantly, a friendly smile shared between us when I pull away and look up.

Youngbae and my relationship has made leaps and bounds of progress since high school. I'd dare to say we're friends now, actually having more in common than we once cared to admit. I think he finally trusts me now, he trusts that I'll do right by his best friend.

"Ji" a high pitches wail catches my attention and I brace myself as Daesung rams into me, squeezing me hard in his arms.

I've missed him so much, he's spent the last year studying in Japan, and has recently come back for graduation. We've been spending a lot of time together, catching up, but there's still so much time to make up for.

I turn around and pull him close, embracing him tenderly. Carefully though, this is Gucci after all.

"Can you believe it, we graduate from college today" Daesung says, his eyes sparkling with unshed tears "were starting our lives... we're adults now"

I chuckle and pet his hand comfortingly "well at least, we can act like it"

Dae snickers and smiles to the point where his eyes disappear "of course, may be always keep our childlike hearts"

I smile fondly in return and throw an arm around him, turning back to the other boys "and may we always stay friends... no matter what, we need to stay in each other's lives"

Dae and Youngbae regard each other kindly, a soft smile shared between them and I know they're getting there. It'll take time, but they'll be close again, one day.

"Are we ready to do this guys? Are we ready to plunge into the adult world?" Seung asks, his face showing dramatics.

I chuckle and wrap my other arm around his waist "I think we are, with all of the things we've been through... we can handle anything from here"

Seung kisses my head and beams down at me, then leaves my side after a soft kiss when we are called to our spots. Seung throws an arm around Youngbae's neck and pulls him against his side, prompting a mock wrestling match all the way to their seats.

I shake my head at the idiots and Dae grabs my hand, leading me to ours. This is it, the start to our next advancement in life. After this, marriage, careers, a house, kids. Big things are in store for us, and I'm ready for them. Even if things come along and knock us off our path or change the path all together, I know we'll deal with it. We're not kids anymore, we're ready for the things heading our way, and even if we're not... we have time to figure it out.

I have Seung by my side, my partner through life, and I'm ready for our lives to click into place. After today, it's real, and I know everything will be alright. If there's one thing I've learned from these past couple of years, it's that everything has a way of working itself out.

Dae squeezes my hand excitedly, as we sit and a fond smile graces my lips as I watch my future husband turn around and send me a wink.

I mouth "I love you"

To which he responds with "I love you too", then blows me a kiss.

I chuckle and shake my head. This is the beginning of an amazing life, and if I have that giant dork next to me, I'll be alright. He's the love of my life and my best friend. Through everything, we'll have one another... forever and always.

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My lovely Chickens!!

Guys!! With every chapter I produce, it gets closer and closer to the end. It's almost over, chickens! What will I do without this beautiful story, that's so much a part of my soul now?

I didn't want to stop writing this chapter. I wanted to write so many things about their time in college and the things they went through. I've been thinking of doing a story of one shots called "letting love in: College days". It would be little exerts of their life in college, of things they went through over those four years. Let me know if you guys would be interested.

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I love you guys so much, we're almost there.

Till next time, kisses! 😘

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~M~