~Seunghyun~

A loud piercing giggle erupts through the air, nearly forcing all of the oxygen from my lungs and my heart to still for a couple of seconds. I look up from the mound of sand I couldn't even bring myself to call a sand castle, to find Ji playing on the edge of the water, running down to the waves when they recede and then running away giggling and screaming like a child when they come back. I have to admit, it's one of the cutest damn things I've ever seen, and soon I find myself grinning like an idiot at my adorable boyfriend.

I can't really help it though, I've been doing nothing but smiling since I woke up this morning, it feels like a weight that had been threatening to crush me for so long has finally lifted off of me. I actually feel a light inside of my chest that I forgot I could even feel. Ji said he loves me even after I told him the truth about Ravi and my past. Ji loves me despite my scars and I can't help but feel really lucky to have him in my life.

Last night before I fell asleep with the man I love in my arms, I discovered that I have no more anger left towards what happened. I no longer feel this concaving feeling in my chest when I think back to that time. Wether this is a result of how happy I am with Ji, or that I've actually allowed myself to forgive, I'm unsure... but I do know that I don't care of the reason. I'm happy, Ji is happy, and for the first time in my life I feel like I can have a good life, a life I never felt I deserved until Ji came into it.

"Seung, come play with me" Ji calls out, motioning me to join him.

I chuckle and stand up, dusting my pants off while abandoning the poor excuse of a sand castle at my feet and run toward the boy calling for my attention, which I am more than happy to give.

.......

"Oh look at this one Seung" Ji holds up a beautifully shaped seashell, that's covered in multiple colors, and edged in a translucent shiny film.

"It's pretty, reminds me of you baby" I state admiring the shell.

Ji giggles and moves so he's snuggling with his back against my chest, and his body in between my legs. Ji looks up at the sky and sighs almost sadly "I don't want this day to end Seung"

I smile and snake my arms around him "me either baby, but we can come back I promise, grandma would love it if we visited more"

Ji cheers up almost instantly "really?"

I nod "of course"

"Well you see that might be a bit difficult if you're in the hospital" a voice that neither belongs to Ji or me says.

A cold shiver pulses through my body and my arms reflexively tightens around Ji "what do you want Yoon?"

Seungyoon laughs darkly "I want to know what you're doing here Seung... I thought we warned you about what would happen if you came back"

I sigh "that was almost three years ago, don't you think it's about time we move on"

Yoon moves around me so I can clearly see the boy and I have to admit, he looks rough, like these past couple of years has really done him in. His face is almost at an unhealthy white, and his eyes are deep red, surrounded in dark black circles, almost giving him a panda appearance, but more sickly.

"Yoon, I don't want to fight you man, I just came back to see my grandma and show Ji around. Just act like you never saw me and we'll go on with our lives" I say standing up and pulling Ji with me, pushing him a little behind me.

Ji clings to my shirt and presses his head against the back of my shoulder. His hand slips into mine, almost as if he's trying to anchor me to him. I don't know why he's doing it until I feel a little bit of calm spread over me and I get it. Ji's not scared, he's worried about me, he's trying to give me strength. I squeeze his hand, letting him know that I'm alright, and for the hundredth time today I feel lucky to have him.

"Is this your new little whore? He's kind of cute, maybe I can take him just like I did Ravi" Yoon spits at me.

My eyes narrow and if it isn't for the death grip Ji has me in, I would go after him "don't talk about him like that, Ji isn't a whore"

Yoon chuckles "aww, so protective, it's cute... though I'm kind of impressed, this kid seems way too upper class for you"

I roll my eyes "just because he's in a completely different league than Ravi was doesn't mean he's out of mine.... don't mistake us for the same person Yoon"

Seungyoon's lip curls up "you've got quite a mouth on you now Seunghyun, we might have to fix that"

I step forward, even with Ji attached to me "I'd like to see you try Yoon, I'm sorry but you don't look as tough as you use to, you look like you're falling apart man"

Seungyoon narrows his eyes "I can still take out your bitch ass, and claim your whore as my own"

That was my breaking point, I lunge forward and grab Yoon by the collar pulling him up to where he has to tiptoe just to stay on the ground.

"I told you not to call him that" I growl.

"Seung, don't, he's not worth it" Ji pulls on my arm to get me to release the mess of a human being clutched in my fists.

I chuckle "you're right Ji, he isn't worth it, not anymore... you've lost it Yoon"

I'm about to let him go, when I'm suddenly grabbed from behind, and thrown to the ground knocking every bit of air from my lungs. I clutch at my chest and gasp for air for a few painful seconds, while Ji crouches next to me looking terrified.

Once I finally get some oxygen flowing into my body, I look up to see three guys standing over me with amused expressions.

"Zelo, Yongguk, bout time you two got here" Yoon comments, refusing to look away from my eyes.

Yongguk laughs "sorry Yoon, we had other things to take care of"

Yoon nods "well at least you're here, now let's get this over with"

I groan and sit up "of course, I should have known these two would show up. You always did have a habit of hiding behind your little puppets"

Something flashes in Yoons eyes "fine, Zelo, Guk... stay out of this, and keep the little blond out of this too"

Zelo and Yongguk exchange looks, but do as they're ordered and grab Ji by the arms, pulling the struggling boy away from me. I scramble to try and get up, to stop them, but Yoon grabs my arm.

"Come on Seung, you know the rules, no outside interference until it's called"

I cast a glance over at Ji, and he yanks his arms away from the boys on either side of him and motions that he'll do as they say, if they don't touch him. He looks up and our gazes lock, Ji sighs and gives me a nod.

The corner of my mouth twitches, even in light of everything, Ji manages to keep that bitchy stubborn attitude of his. I nod in reply before focusing back on Yoon.

I take a deep calming breath "Fine, but this will not be a battle, we're not going to kill each other, make you're terms, before we begin"

Yoon smiles as if he's ready won "if you win, you're free to come back home whenever you please and I won't bother you ever again"

I raise an eyebrow "agreed, what do you want?"

Yoon smirks "if I win, you aren't allowed to ever return to Busan, except for your grandmothers funeral" his eyes shift towards Ji "and I want that one"

"No, absolutely not, you're not touching Ji, I'll agree to staying away from Busan... but you're not getting anywhere near him" I state.

Yoon mock pouts "but look at him, I bet he's flexible"

I step forward, but keep my hands at my side, I don't want to throw the first punch "watch you're words Yoon"

Seungyoon smirks at me again "so easily shaken over this one, he must really be a good fuck"

Anger shoots through me, but I push it down realizing exactly what he wants, he wants to get me pissed off, he wants me to see red so I'll lose concentration... but two can play at that game.

"Better than Ravi ever thought about being" I say with a smirk of my own.

I know I have him then, his features contort into pure fury and his eyes lose focus for a second. I almost miss it, but then I notice his fist coming at my face, just in time to feel it smash into my skull.

I stumble back, but manage to keep my footing, I curse and place a hand over my eye, which is probably already bruising. I had forgotten how hard Yoon actually hits, even in the state he's in, he manages to have a punch of steel.

I barely get time to regain my senses when another blow lands into my stomach, forcing my legs to give out and I land on my knees in the sand.

"You're out of practice Seung, it's almost like fighting a newbie" Yoon cackles.

A painful blow lands to the side of my head and I recognize that feeling immediately, there is only one thing worse than Yoons punches and that's his roundhouse kicks.

I land in the sand, surprised in myself to how unpracticed at fighting I am, it's been a long time since I've been in one and so far I'm not doing so well.

"I call a tag out" the one voice I don't want to hear yells.

Yoon stops in whatever attack he was about to use and steps back almost shocked. "tag out?... Have you been teaching your little pet fighting terminology?"

I turn my attention to Ji, despite the ringing in my ears "Ji, don't do this"

Ji fixes me with a piercing look "I'm not going to sit by and let you get the shit beat out of you, when you and I both know that I can do better"

Yoon snorts "what, does the little rich bitch know how to fight?"

I growl "no, leave him out of this, this is between you and me"

Yoon smirks again "you know the rules Seung, if a tag out is offered, then the opponent has the option to refuse or accept, not you"

"Ji, please" I plead with everything in me.

Yoon laughs sadistically "I accept, Zelo, Guk, get this sorry excuse of a person out of our way"

Almost instantaneously I'm picked up by my arms and dragged over to where Ji was just standing, I try my best to struggle against Yoons puppets but I can't make any ground. The only thing I can do is stand here and watch.

"You really are pretty" Yoon says once Ji stands in font of him, he reaches up to touch Ji's face, but Ji slaps his hand away and backhands him across his face, hard. Yoon staggers a little, but then glances wide eyed at my Ji, who has his arms crossed over his chest and looks a little bored "well well, you are a feisty one, aren't you?"

Ji rolls his eyes "can we just get this over with?"

Yoon snorts "sure thing sweetie"

Ji's jaw clenches and i know he's fighting back his temper "don't call me sweetie, I'm nothing to you"

"You could be if you wanted to, trust me, I'll take good care of you baby" Yoon smirks, but it's quickly whiped off his face when Ji's fist connects with his jaw forcing Yoon onto his ass in the sand.

"Only one person is allowed to call me baby you stupid prick and it you are not him" Ji scoffs, and I feel a small twinge of pride settle in my chest.

Seungyoon jumps up and I know he's done playing games, he launches forward, his fist ready to connect with anything it can find, but Ji is quicker. He ducks down, and brings his knee up connecting it right into Yoons lower abdomen.

Seungyoon huffs out a breath, while crouched over on the ground. His eyebrows scrunch together and he glance up at my boyfriend "what are you?"

Ji chuckles and crouches down to meet Yoons eyes "someone you shouldn't have fucked with"

Then Ji's fist connects with Yoons face once more, making his ass hit the ground once again. Yoon jumps up, anger flashing in his eyes as he attempts to attack, I don't even think he has a directive of what he wants to throw or where he wants it to land anymore, but nevertheless whatever he try's doesn't work. Ji is always one step ahead of him. It continues on like this for a while, Yoon continuously getting knocked to his ass, while Ji blocks and lands blow after blow all over his opponents body, but never doing enough damage to really hurt him.

Finally after what felt like a one sided fight, Seungyoon lands a hit on Ji after he kicked sand into his face in a childish trick. Once Yoons fist connects with the the side of Ji's face, I lose it.

I push Zelo and Yongguk to the ground and attempt to get to Ji... or to Yoon to kill him, I'm not exactly sure of my aim yet. But before I can get to either of them, I'm tackled to the ground and kicked in the side.

My head snaps up at the sound of Ji yelping, to find him on the ground, with Yoon holding him down.

"Get off of him" i scream, and struggle against Zelo and Youngguk's hold on me "leave Ji out of this, Yoon, I'm warning you"

Yoon smiles a sinister smile that makes my nerves tingle and glances at me "i'm sorry Seung, but i need you to hurt. I was initially going to hurt you but I think hurting the person you love the most will be ten times more effective"

"No Yoon, you don't need to do this... God, you're so stupid, do you think I don't feel pain? Do you think I wasn't broken by Ravi's death too?" I try my best to make him understand, but he's not exactly in a listening mood at the moment.

"You don't understand my pain Seunghyun, no one understands" Yoon spits at me.

"I understand your pain" Ji suddenly says, his body still lays motionless on the ground underneath Seungyoon, but he speaks with enough seriousness it comands the attention of everyone.

"How could you possibly understand this pain? Have you ever lost somone you love ritch boy?" Yoon spits at Ji.

Ji laughs bitterly and a cold shiver runs up my spine at the sound of it, he keeps his eyes down, like he's not speaking to Yoon but to himself "it's agonizing isn't it, the thought that you could have done something, anything to save him, that you promised that you would always protect him and stay by his side, but you were too late. You couldn't keep that promise and it eats you alive every moment of everyday"

"Shut up" Yoon warns, but Ji continues as if he hadn't heard the boy.

"You try to blame somone else, try to convince yourself that you did nothing wrong, that the fact that he's gone isn't riding on your shoulders" Finally Ji looks up, his eyes immidiatly finding Yoon's "but it doesn't work, it never works, you'll always cary this guilt, you'll always have this pain clawing at your chest reminding you every second of every day that you failed the one person you loved most in this world" Ji sighs, a painful sound, that makes my chest ache.

"You know this isn't the way Ravi would have wanted you to live your life... trying to hurt his bestfriend, and living your life against the world isn't a way to honor his memory" Ji's eyes soften a bit, but they are still sharp and piercing "all you can do now is live a life that he can be proud of... think about it Seungyoon, would he be proud of this?"

Seungyoon starts to shake as he raises a fist, ready to prevent Ji from speaking anymore "you know nothing about me, you know nothing about my pain"

Ji chuckles and turns his head as if prepared for the hit and willing to take it "don't I?"

Seungyoon relaxes his body and sags almost as if he's admitting defeat, but before he has anything out of his mouth, a firm and commanding voice breaks through.

"Break it up" someone shouts and I immediately know that voice "come on, don't make me pull out my tazer" Namjoon yells, his voice full of authority, as he makes his way over to us.

Seungyoon closes his eyes and growls, showing me nothing but regret rolling across his features. He stands up, his hands out in front of him, clear he has no intention of touching the boy laying on the ground.

Namjoon reaches Ji and pulls him to his feet, before grabbing at Yoon and pulling him forward then twisting his arms behind his back and cuffing him. He sighs and glances at Ji "I'm going to have to cuff you too, you were also involved in this fight"

I step forward and nearly drag Ji behind me "no, I was, Ji had nothing to do with it"

Namjoon stares at me for a second as if he's questioning wether he wants to fight me on this, then shrugs and nods "fine, then turn around and put your hands behind your back"

I turn and see Ji's panicked expression and his eyes questioning my decision, but he says nothing, just watches as Namjoon cuffs me and drags Yoon and me to his car.

.........

"I saw the whole thing, Seung since this is the first offense you're let off with a warning... and if I ever catch you fighting again, I'll kick your ass before dragging it to jail, understand?"

I roll my eyes and let the corners of my mouth twitch up slightly "yes sir"

Namjoon looks satisfied by my answer and turns to Seungyoon "As for you, this was your last chance Seungyoon, I'm sure they won't go lightly on you this time" Namjoon says leaning against his desk and fixing the boy with a cold stare "and I can't honestly say I feel bad about that either"

I sigh and look away, I know how Namjoon feels about Yoon and honestly I can't say I blame him. For years I felt my own anger toward him, a great deal of 'what ifs' passing through my head, mostly having to do with Ravi and Seungyoon's messed up relationship. I even would say that I hated Seungyoon at one point, but as the years past, and along with it my anger, I realized that Yoon isn't the one I need to be blaming, actually no one needs this blame. It was a terrible situation that no one is at fault for, Ji helped me see that, guilt doesn't help, it just holds you back.

"Nam?" I ask.

"Yeah Seung, you need something buddy?" Namjoon implores, giving me that normal look of adoration he shoots at me, one that says 'you're the last part of my brother I have left'

"I don't want to press any charges, can you just forget you saw anything?" I question emotionlessly.

Namjoon's eyes widen to the point of me worrying about permanent damage "what? But Seung... I've been waiting years to finally get this kid, we can finally put him where he belongs"

I shake my head "Yoon doesn't belong behind bars, he's just a guy like you and me that's been dealt a crap hand"

Yoon casts me a pissed off look "I don't need you sympathy or charity"

I snort and roll my eyes "I'm not doing it for you jackass, I'm doing it for Ravi. For some reason that kid always saw the best in you, he wanted better for your life... he wouldn't be proud of this person Yoon" i gesture to his cut and bruised up face and push down the smirk from my lips as pride in my boyfriend takes me over "I'm giving you one more chance, your last one, curtesy of the boy we both loved... try not to fuck it up this time"

Yoon narrows his eyes, but says nothing. He shifts in his chair and looks away from me and mumbling out a "whatever"

"Are you sure about this Seung? I saw the whole thing, if this is about protecting your boyfriend, he won't get in trouble" Namjoon questions me curiously.

I smile "no, this isn't about Ji, this is about all of us....I think it's about time we all stopped blaming each other for what happened and move on... it's what Ravi would've wanted"

Namjoon stares at me for a few beats, as if searching for something he had forgotten, then he chuckles lightly and gives me an almost proud look "I don't know what happened in Seoul, but I think it changed you for the better Seung"

I glance over to the little waiting area where Ji is sitting on the bench swinging his legs back and forth while watching the busy bussele of the other police officers.

"I think so too Nam, maybe I'll even grow into a man you can be proud of"

Namjoon smiles "I've always been proud of you Seung, I just don't want you to settle anymore"

I chuckle and point at Ji "that's not settling my friend, that's everything I've ever wanted wrapped in the most amazing person"

Namjoon shakes his head "well as long as he sees you the same way, and you're happy, I'm happy"

I grin and pull Namjoon into a tight hug "I am happy Nam, I'm really happy"

Namjoon pushes me away playfully "good, now go be happy, get out of my office... and take that cutie with you, he seems to be very uncomfortable, which makes my coworkers uncomfortable"

I chuckle and once again let my eyes trail to Ji, and Nam was right, Ji looks really nervous, which results in multiple officers casting suspicious looks his way every couple of seconds.

"Oh, and the next time you come back home I expect a formal introduction to that boy" Nam says, almost scolding me for not doing so in the first place.

I nod "I'll make sure of it, promise" i go to leave the office, but stop in the doorway "oh and Yoon?" I pause, and even though I don't receive a reply I know I have his attention "seriously man, become someone Ravi would be proud of, do something with this last chance"

Then I walk away not waiting to hear what Yoon has to say. It's odd but I feel like whatever unfinished business left between Yoon and I, is over now, and it feels like I'm leaving all of that behind. Like I'm walking from a painful and dark past and toward my happy and bright future, whom looks up and fixes me with a bright relieved grin, reassuring me in every way that I'm making the right decision.

I don't despise my past, I don't regret the choices I've made because without them, I would have never ended up with this beautiful boy named Kwon Jiyong who looks at me like I'm everything to him and will never want anyone other than me. Ji is my future, and I couldn't have dreamt of a better one.

>>>>>>>>

"It's like déjà fucking vu" my grandmother grumbles as she places a bag of ice not so carefully against my eye.

"Grandma, language" I attempt to chide the old woman.

"Oh don't even give me that you little shit, I thought you were done with this fighting crap, and then you come home covered in bruises and you even let my little lamb get hurt too" my grandmother rants before wrapping her arms around my boyfriends shoulders and hugging him tightly. Ji tenses up, but shoots me a look, telling me that it's fine before I can protest "I'm disappointed in you Seung" she says causing me to frown.

This was the only thing I hated about fighting back then, was the disappointed looks I received from my grandmother when I would come home with bruises and cuts all over me. She could yell and scream, hell even beat me, but nothing will ever compare to the ache I felt when I received disappointed silence.

Ji chuckles "it's not like that, Seunghyun was just trying to defend us, he didn't have a choice but to fight, you should see the other guy though"

I smirk at my boyfriend and shake my head "yeah, because I did that"

Ji giggles, but then casts a guilty expression at the woman who still has her arms wrapped around him, despite how uncomfortable he looks "I promise it won't happen again grandma"

Her eyes widen and a smile peeks out "did you just call me grandma?"

Ji nods "is that alright? I can go back to calling you Mrs. Lee of you'd prefer"

My grandmother shakes her head and looks as if she's tearing up "no, you go right ahead and call me grandma sweetie, in fact I'd love if you called me grandma"

Ji beams at her "great, now how about we go out to eat for dinner, I'm starving"

The old woman returns his grin and places a hand on his cheek "of course, let me go freshen up a bit, then we can go"

She flits out of the room as if waking on a damn cloud and i can't help but shake my head at what just happened "why did you do that?"

Ji turns to me "because I can't stand anyone being upset with you, and I really do love her like a grandmother, I never had one... both of my parents lost theirs early in life"

I sigh "Ji, it's not your responsibility to defend me"

Ji stands up and takes the bag off ice out of my hand that is resting on my thigh "yes it is, we're a part of each other Seung, I have to keep you safe because if a part of you gets hurt, then I get hurt.... even if it's from the disappointment of mothers"

My eyebrows bunch, and I instantly regret it, wincing as pain slices through my head "she's not my mother"

Ji sighs, smiling lightly, while placing the bag of ice against my eye, so delicately I feel like leaning into it "yes, she is, she raised you and loved you, even through the tough times, she still took care of you... that's a mother Seung... birth has nothing to do with it"

I place my hand over Ji's that's holding the ice "maybe you should let Hwa Yun know that"

Ji looks deep into my eyes "I should... but I can't seem to let go of the one thing that's holding me back"

"What's that?" I ask.

Ji's lip trembles for a second, so brief I'm not even sure it actually happened "never mind, I'm hungry, lets talk later"

I grab Ji's wrist just before he's out of reach "are you ok? You've been acting a little weird lately... I mean I know everything i told you and things that have happened are a bit stressful, but you just seem off"

Ji offers me a reassuring smile, but it does everything but what it's intended "I'm fine, I just have a little headache"

>>>>>>>

"That was a lovely meal boys, and Jiyong, be sure to thank your father for paying for it" my grandmother says as we climb out of the car.

I roll my eyes "even though I said I'd pay for it"

Ji sticks his tongue out at me "its fine, he loves it when I use his care for things, my dad's just really generous"

"Only to you, he spoils you babe" I try to explain.

Ji scoffs "he does not"

I snort "does too, just the other day he yelled at Minho for spending his allowance on comic books, but cooed at you for buying new eyeliner, he totally spoils you"

Ji stops walking and his eyes widen, I'm about to ask what's wrong while following his gaze, but then quickly freeze just the same when I see what he's staring at.

He's hunched over with his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands, he had cleaned up since we last saw him, but he's still covered in bruises and small cuts.

"What are you doing here Yoon?" I ask, grabbing Ji's wrist and pulling him to my side.

Yoons head snaps up and his gaze meets mine, but something in his eyes startles me. There's no hostility, no anger, or threat.... no he just looks sad and a bit regretful.

"Is this a friend of yours Seunghyun?" My grandmother asks a couple steps ahead of us on the walkway leading to the steps.

Yoon stands up, ignoring my grandmothers question "I'm sorry to just show up like this, but I want to talk to you"

My eyebrows raise at his tone, and how he genuinely seems apologetic "ok, we can talk out here, Ji, grandma, why don't you two go inside and let Yoon and I talk"

My grandmother fixes me with a look, as if she's searching for something, anything that's raising an alarm, but I get the sense that Yoon is just here to talk, there doesn't seem to be a fight in him anymore.

I give my grandmother a reassuring smile, to which she just rolls her eyes "I'll be inside of you need me, Ji sweetie you coming?" she says making her way up the stairs, nearly glaring at Yoon the whole way.

"Not a chance" Ji says crossing his arms over his chest and narrowing his eyes at Yoon.

I sigh and turn to the stubborn boy next to me "please, he just wants to talk, trust me"

Ji meets my eyes and i see a sliver of worry crack into his hard mark "it's not you I don't trust Seung"

I nod "I know, but trust my judgment, I'll call you if I need you"

Ji takes a large, stabilizing breath "fine, but if he lays a finger on you, I'm not holding back"

I smile and reach up, caressing his cheek "I love you baby"

Ji smiles shyly back "I love you too, Seung"

My eyes flutter, still not use to hearing it, and all too soon Ji is leaving my side, heading back to the house. I swear I see Yoon flinch a little as my boyfriend passes him on the stairs, causing a small smirk to form on my lips.

"Ok, what do you want Yoon?" I ask already done with this conversation. I just want to go inside, throw on a pair of sweatpants and eat my weight in ice cream my grandmother had stocked the freezer with when she heard i was coming home for the weekend.

Yoon inhales noisily "I want to apologize"

My jaw drops and I take a staggering step back "I'm sorry can you repeat that?"

Yoons jaw clenches "I said I want to apologize, I shouldn't have tried to fight you today, actually it's been a really long time since I've been in a fight... but when Zelo came to me and told me that he had seen you in town... I guess I just saw red and couldn't bring myself to let it go"

"What do you mean you haven't fought in a while? Isn't that like your thing?" I ask trying to piece together this puzzel but they're not quiet fitting.

"It use to be, actually I haven't been near any of that scene for almost a year now... after Ravi died, yeah I blamed you for it and I blamed him... but I still couldn't push back the guilt of the blame I put on myself...everything that I was surrounded by reminded me of him and just wasn't fun anymore... so I walked away from that life... Ravi had always wanted me to, and i figured what better way to honor his memory than to go on the straight and narrow"

"But today, Nam said you were on your last chance"

Yoon nods "a past isn't always an easy thing to walk away from, even though I've kept myself in line, I fucked up a lot back then"

"So why take the chance? You could have just walked away today instead of coming after me, you've made something better of your life, so why did you almost throw all of that away?"

He shrugs "like I said, when I heard about you being back, all of that anger, all of that resentment came rushing back to the surface and the only thing that mattered was getting the revenge i thought I wanted"

I sigh "What made you decide to come an apologize? Why do you suddenly not want to kick my ass anymore?"

The edges of Yoons lips lift "actually it was your boyfriend, all of the stuff he said to me about the guilt and the anger I feel, and living my life how Ravi would have wanted... it kind of hit close to home and made me suddenly realize what I was doing... I felt like an idiot, not only had I tried to hurt you, but I tried to hurt someone who isn't even a part of any of this and doesn't deserve it. I snapped out of it, just in time for Namjoon to put me in cuffs"

I nod "yeah, Ji has a habbit of making you see how stupid you're acting... I think he might be an evil genius"

Yoon smiles faintly "he's good for you, i think Ravi would have liked him"

I swallow a sudden lump in my throat "I think so too, but Yoon, don't let Ravi hold you back, no matter what bullshit we put each other through... I still think you deserve to be happy"

Yoon looks dead into my eyes, "I hope I can feel that I deserve that one day too Seung" he slowly makes his way over to me "I'm really sorry Seung, for everything, not just today, and thank you for giving me another chance even if you had every right not to"

I stick out my hand "how about we just put it all behind us and move on"

Yoon smiles more noticeably and nods "sound good" he takes my hand and gives it a couple shakes, finally showing me the potential man that Yoon can be.

Yoon shuffles past me and starts to head down the driveway "goodbye Seunghyun, oh and thank that little cutie for me, he kind of saved my ass today too, I'm not sure how I could have handled it if I had actually hurt him"

I roll my eyes at the endearment used for my boyfriend, but choose to let it go "sure thing, bye Seungyoon"

I barley make it up the steps to the front door when, I get an armful of Ji. I chuckle and pull him tightly against me "I'm fine, we just talked"

Ji sighs "I know, I listened from the door, I'm proud of you"

I roll my eyes for what feels like the billionth time tonight "of course, and thank you, but I should thank you for everything"

Ji raises an eyebrow "why is that?"

I place my hand on the back of Ji's neck and pull him close so I can whisper in his ear "you still don't understand everything you've done for me Ji, you've saved me, brought me back to life, and you've changed me for the better... I can't even begin go explain what you've don't for me"

He blushes and a small shiver runs down his spine "but I haven't really done anything"

"You didn't have to, just you being here with me, giving me the love and the happiness that I've alway craved... you've made me realize what I want.... who I want to be, you make me want more for my life and you make me feel like I can actually obtain it Jiyong"

Ji breaths out a shaky breath "Seung..."

I smile "yes baby?"

He sniffles lightly and then shakes his head as if he was going to tell me something but suddenly changed his mind "just hold me, please"

Concern flows freely through my veins but I choose to ignore it, Ji will tell me when he's ready, and then I will hold him in my arms just like this and cast away the demons, like he's done to mine.

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My chickens!!

Gah, finally this chapter is out, I struggled with it a bit. I wasn't rely sure where I wanted to go with Yoons character, but I think I've done him correctly.

Sorry it came out a bit late, this years comebacks are really messing me up!! I hope my fellow Exo-L's and VIP's can understand!!

Seriously though there's not much to say about this chapter, it kind of speaks for itself. Ji's internal struggle though is one of the reasons I put this whole thing in Seunghyun's point of view. Ji's going through some things in his head that I'm not quiet ready to reveal, but all will be known soon enough.

✨special shout out to KathyWall2 for reading over this chapter and telling that that it doesn't suck and encouraging me to publish!!

I love you guys and I'm so thankful to all of my readers who's stayed with me through my procrastination and writers block!! Seriously, you guys are awesome!!

See you next update, love you guys!!

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