~Jiyong~

Seunghyun stares at me with a bright expectant smile, while he bounces on the balls of his feet like a child would when they're waiting to be praised about something.

"You want to do what?" I ask, while standing in my bathroom in front of the mirror, with my eyeliner paused in my hand.

Seung gives my that secret smile, that... like what the fuck? When did he start using that again? "It's not what I want to do, it's what we're doing"

"Well, what are we doing?" I ask, concerned about where Seung's mind is.

I love Seunghyun, I love him like my life depends on it, but sometimes I just can't help but wonder what the hell goes through this boys head. I mean what am I suppose to do when he just hurries in here, with a large 'I'm up to no good' smile across his face and starts spouting off nonsense about weekends and alone time together?

Seung smiles excitedly and hops up and down on the balls of his feet "We are going to Jeju for the weekend"

"Mhm" I hum, shaking my head at him and going back to putting on my makeup "and you think we are going to do this?"

The stupid smirk returns and he saunters over to me, placing his hands on my hips, rubbing small distracting circles with his thumbs, forcing my breath to catch "I don't think, love... I know. Your dad already bought us the tickets and rented us a beachfront villa... All you have to do is pack, baby" he stops and runs the tip of his nose lightly over the crook of my neck "and make sure you pack light, I don't see cloths being much of a necessity this weekend"

His words barely register in my head, as it clouds with sensory overload. Seunghyun knows exactly where to touch and how to touch to get my body vibrating with sexual tension in no time. But, just as my blood is rushing through my veins at max speed, heating to the point of searing my skin, Seung lets go of me and walks out of the room.

I stand there stunned, opening and closing my mouth like a fish gasping for air, and wondering what the hell just happened. I blink a couple times before hurrying after him, stopping at the door to find Seung sitting propped up on our bed, 'reading' today's newspaper.

He glances up at me and snorts "you do realize you only have one eye done, right?" He asks and I curse myself for letting Seung distract me from my morning makeup routine.

I put it out of my mind and pull my focus back to where it belongs "why did you stop? You know me, you can't turn me off once I'm on, Seunghyun, i'm not a fucking light. Now get over here and finish what you started" i demand, tempted to stomp my foot, but knowing if i do, i won't live it down.

Seung smirks again, 'like seriously, he needs to stop' and takes his time folding the paper, then he places it down, before crossing his arms "sorry baby, but I've decided that I'm cutting you off for a while"

My eyeliner pen drops from my hands, as I gape at my horrible boyfriend in shock "what?"

"You heard me, you need a break, you need time to shut your mind off and breath, and I'm giving that to you, so  I'm not going to touch you" he says simply, like he's talking about an article he just read, instead of my sexual needs.

"For how long?" I ask, surprising myself at how whiny my voice comes out.

Seung stands up and crosses the room in a surprising amount of grace "till I feel you've had enough down time"

"Seung, that's not fair. Orgasms are like the best thing for relaxation, they promote better muscle and joint movement, they help with brain activity, and it increases endorphin's, which means you're happier... Like, sex is the best thing for me right now" i argue, hiding how impressed i am for my convincing points.

Seung chuckles and leans forward, placing a kiss on my forehead "go finish your makeup baby, we have to leave for school soon"

I whimper, watching him walk away from me "you're really not going to touch me?"

"Not a chance"

I groan and stomp back into the bathroom, Seung's laughter squandering any dramatics, my slamming of the door attempted.

.:::.

"So there's no way i'm talking you guys out of this?" i ask, raising my eyebrows in distress.

My dad snorts and adds more food to his plate "my son, the only kid i know who will argue about being sent away to a luxury resort with his boyfriend for a weekend"

I roll my eyes "i'm not saying it's a bad idea, it's just... Why now? Graduation is next week, i have a lot to do... can't this wait?"

Hwa Yun smiles at me and pats my hand "Trust us, Ji. This is the best time, you need some time to decompress and relax, plus you and Seung could go for some alone time with everything you two have been through lately"

I sigh and stuff a bit of rice into my mouth, chewing it a little too forcefully. I understand that they want me to take some time away, to take a break from everything, but i'm just not sure about this. Ever since I've remembered everything and come to terms with Seungri's death, the one thing that's helped me, is staying busy. So what's going to happen if i have time to think? How am i going to deal with things if i actually have time to take a look into my head and see what's been going on in there?

"Come on, baby, trust your favorite person to take care of you" that deep rumbling voice says, pulling me from my thoughts "this will be fun, and it's suppose to be beautiful this time of year"

I sigh, defeated and decide to just be spontaneous for once, let my control freak take a backseat for once and enjoy the ride "ok, you're right, let's do it"

Seunghyun grins and leans over giving me a sweet, but nowhere close to what i want, kiss "there's my boy"

I feel my cheeks heat up slightly and i drop my gaze from his own, continuing to eat, and attempting to ignore the coos and giggles from the people, i, for some reason, call my family. I miss the days where i could silently sit here and eat my meal without being teased about every stupid cutesy thing my dork of a boyfriend does.

Later when Seung and i are standing in the kitchen doing the dishes from dinner, and he's lightly bumping into my hip with his, to the beat of a song from one of his many playlists. I find myself imagining what this weekend will be like. I'm still cautious and a little skeptical about how this weekend will go, but knowing Seung, i'll be okay. The big teddy bear has a habit of making anything fun, no matter where we are or what we are doing.

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"Ji, baby, wake up" that familiar deep husky voice filters into my head, pulling me from my pleasant dreams.

I sigh lightly and scoot backwards till I'm meeting the warm solid surface of Seung's chest. A light chuckle rings through my ears and makes my heart flutter in a wonderfully delightful way.

"Baby, wake up, it's time to go" he whispers soothingly into my ear.

I shake my head, grumbling at the annoying morning person, attempting to wake me up way to damn early.

Seung chuckles again and places his hand on my lower stomach "Ji, come on, we can sleep on the plane... But right now we have to make it on the plane"

"You go, have a nice weekend, I'll stay here and sleep" I mumble pulling the blanket over my head.

I hear a short snort, just before I'm picked up and hauled into the air, my stomach supported against something hard. I peek an eye open, and find that Seung has literally thrown me over his shoulder and is now carrying me out of the room.

"Seung" I grumble, halfheartedly struggling "what are you doing?"

He laughs as we walk down the stairs "I told you, we have to catch our plane, and you're going with or without your consent"

I sigh and give in, rag-dolling against his body, which I'm rewarded for, with a light pat on my ass.

"You'll see baby, this weekend is going to be great, and it's just what we both need" he says, sitting me down on a chair beside the front door, then he points at me sternly "you're going to have fun and relax, young man, understood?"

I nod at him, slightly amused and kind of glad that Seung's going through so much effort just to give me a stress free and fun weekend. Even as I watch him bend down in front of me, putting my shoes on my feet and tying them for me, I can just tell that he's more than willing to go all out this weekend.

I finally give in then, deciding that maybe it's not such a bad thing to spend the entire weekend on the beach, lounging around and spending time with the love of my life. I guess there are worse things I could be doing this weekend.

:::::

"This is beautiful" Seung says twirling around the room in a surprisingly whimsical manor, giving me a humorous image of what he'd look like as a Disney princess.

I giggle at him and watch his face light up when he looks at me "baby, look at how close we are to the water"

I nod and stare out the wall covered completely in nothing but glass, opening up to the complete expanse of beach that stretches seemingly for miles in front of us. Seung's right, this place is nearly magical with how gorgeous it is.

"Dad really went all out for this, didn't he?" I ask staring at the beautiful all white beach and crystal blue water.

Seung smiles and tiptoes over to me in a way he probably thinks is sneaky, then before I can ask him what he's up to,  I'm once again hauled over his shoulder and being carried to the bedroom. He throws me on the bed and crawls up till he's leaning over my body, his knees on either side of my hips.

I giggle and place my hands on his chest "not that I don't like it, but what are you doing?"

He smiles and leans down brushing his lips against mine "I'm just excited, we have the whole weekend to ourselves at this insanely beautiful place. Just me and you"

His hand that's not supporting his upper body trails down my torso till he reaches my shirts edge, then slides his hand up underneath, grazing my skin with his palm. I shutter and arch my back slightly, feeding into the contact I've been denied for the past two days.

Seung lifts my shirt up and helps me sit up so he can pull it off, then quickly gets to work on my jeans. I laugh as he nearly rips my pants off then goes for my boxers.

"Whoa, Seung, slow down, we have all weekend" I snort, wondering what's gotten into him, but not really minding it.

Seunghyun stops and looks up at me in amusement "I know, but I'm excited to get in the water, and you always take so long changing"

My eyebrows pull together in confusion which only deepen when he starts slipping a pair of shorts up my legs.

"W-what are you doing?" I ask, sitting up on my elbows.

He smirks at me and pulls the shorts the rest of the way up "getting us ready, what does it look like?" he stands up and starts taking off his own cloths.

I finally look down and notice that I'm dressed in a pair of swimming shorts and Seunghyun is putting on a similar pair. I gasp, realizing what just happened and before I can even yell at him for what he's done, Seung's out the door and running across the beach, laughing and skipping like a giddy child.

I blink at him as he hits the water and disappears under the surface. I groan and roll my eyes, deciding that I might as well join the big idiot, because i'm already in my fucking swimsuit.

>>>>

~Seunghyun~

A large, unwavering grin finds it's way to my lips, as i take a moment to admire the pure unadulterated happiness radiating from my baby.

Watching Ji finally give in and enjoy himself fills me with a sense of adoration and pride for the boy. He's come so far from everything, he's fallen apart and pulled himself back together and still manages to smile everyday, to offer everyone so much love, and to believe in a beautiful and happy life for himself. A life i'm so excited to be a part of and times like this i realize how lucky i really am to have found him.

Ji giggles loudly, forcing my heart to skip a beat. He bounces over to me, grabbing my hand and pulling me back into the water from where i was standing while i was watching him. He smiles brightly and reaches down splashing some water at me playfully. I grin back and decide that this is the Ji i love the most, the one who looks like he has not a care in the world, the one where he's so happy that he radiates it and makes everyone around him feel so incredibly light and carefree.

I haven't seen much of this Ji, but i decide as i watching him laughing joyfully and running away from my attempts to grab him and pull him into the water, that, everyday for the rest of my life, that this Ji will gain permanent residence in our lives. I will make Ji this happy and this free everyday, and i won't regret this decision for a second.

We play a little while longer, then head back inside to eat some lunch, and rest a little before what i have planned tonight, which, despite his incessant prodding, Ji know's nothing about. A smirk pulls at my lips as he glares at me, and i just can't wait for tonight.

::::::::

"Seung, where are you taking me?" Ji's giggly voice floats into the silence around us, as I lead him down a path, with one of my hands over his eyes.

I chuckle and lean down to place a small kiss at his temple "trust me baby, you're going to like this"

Jiyong groans and I know he's trying very hard to let me keep this much control of the situation. I snicker to myself thinking about how much it's killing him that he doesn't know anything.

I see a familiar break in the trees ahead of me and smile "we're close baby, just bare with me for a few more seconds"

Jiyong nods and I can almost feel his determination to hold himself together. I almost want to coo at the adorable way his lips push into a set pout, but push it away because I'm a man on a mission to surprise the love of his life and I will not be sidetracked from cute little faces from the cutest man alive.

We come through the break in the trees and my heart soars at how amazing it is, the hotel staff did such a good job, better than I could have ever asked for. I take a look around, admiring for a few seconds, what i'm sure is about to be the best surprise. Ever.

"Ok baby, you can open your eyes in, one...two...three"

>>>>>>

~Jiyong~

Seung takes his hand off my eyes, and leans down to whisper in my ear "ok, baby, you can open your eyes in, one...two...three" he announces excitedy.

My eyes pop open, and blink a few times to adjust to the sudden light change. I gasp at what awaits in front of me, in total awe at what my giant goof of a boyfriend has managed to surprise me with.

It's so beautiful, i almost want to cry, but refuse to give Seung that much satisfaction. I stare at the space around us, the trees surrounding the small cove like area, are completly covered in twinkling fairy lights, while in the middle sits a stunning wooden gazebo, that has a cloth covered table in the center of it, complete with candles and romantic music.

"Do you like it?" Seung asks, almost nervously when i don't say anything for a little longer than i meant to.

"It... it's amazing, Seung" i say, slightly above a whisper.

Seung wraps one arm around my waist and leads me forward "come on, i have dinner planned too"

He pulls my chair out for me when we reach the table and i feel a small blush flow into my cheeks at how cheezily romantic Seung's being right now, but i can't find it in me to protest or complain. This in all honesty is amazing and so thoughtful, it makes me fall for him all over again.

Seung sits down across from me and takes my hand, giving me a warm smile, his eyes holding a proud and slightly cocky sparkle to them. I resist the urge to roll my eyes and let him have his moment, because he actually did really well this time.

We make small talk, talking about things we want to do tomorrow, or about how much fun today has been, and even talking about how much we've missed being this close to each other. I didn't realize how much distance had placed itself between Seung and i, until i realize how close we are now.

Being here, talking with this man about random, meaningless things, having no objective than, just to enjoy each others company. This is where i'm happiest, this is what i know i'll be happy to spend the rest of my life doing.

I smile thinking of what our life will be like, thinking that even in the simplest of times, i'll be the happiest person if i just have him.

"What's that face for?" Seung asks, amused.

I giggle slightly "just thinking about what it'll be like, our lives i mean"

Seung squeezes my hand, giving me a knowing smile "i had a daydream the other day, about what our lives will be like after we're married and have our apartment in the city, because you're not the country house type, and i imagined waking up to loud music and high pitched singing, only to find your cute little butt dancing around the kitchen, while making us breakfast. Then i imagined how you'd turn around and scold me for scaring you, but still give me a morning kiss and my breakfast, and we'd just sit at the table talking about what we were going to do that day, or make plans for the weekend... i really can't wait for that"

I swallow hard, having to push back the rush of emotions filling my chest "you really think about things like that?"

He chuckles and looks up as our dinner arrives "all the time" he says casually, then thanking the staff, like he hadn't have just said one of the most romantic things i've heard.

Seung hums in delight once the servers leave and almost instantly starts digging into the meal, tenderly embracing the one thing i think he might love more than me, or at least that i tie with... food. I shake my head and finally roll my eyes, then shrug and think 'well if you can't beat them, then you might as well join them'

::::::::

Seung holds me close, as we sway back and forth. The music playing is soft and sweet, completly perfect for this moment, as we dance with each other. My head rests on his shoulder, while his hands hold my back tenderly. It's perfect, even if Seung's not gifted in the dance department, just being with him in a moment like this is perfect.

"So, are you nervous?" he asks, his breath tickling my ear.

"About?" i hum, against the fabric of his crisp white shirt.

"Graduation. It is next week, Ji" he teases me, knowing full well how much i've been stressing out over this particular engagement.

I groan and bury my face in his shirt "don't remind me"

He snorts and kisses my head "oh come on, my little valedictorian, you'll be fine"

Scoffing, i pull my face away from his chest, so i can look into his eyes "Easy for you to say, you don't have to make a grand speech in front of an entire auditorium full of people"

Seung chuckles and leans forward, kissing my temple "don't worry, i'll be with you the whole time, baby. If you get nervous or forget a part of your speech, just find me in the crowd and i'll send all of my strength to you"

I smile shyly and shake my head at the giant dork "how is it possible for me to fall deeper and harder for you, every day?"

He grins down at me, and quickly dips me backwards, making me gasp and my eyes to widen "because baby... you let me in, and now there's no way you're getting rid of me"

I mockingly groan, and let my head fall back "what have i done? Are you sure you want this? I mean, i'm bitchy, demanding, and a complete control freak... do you really want that?"

Seung smirks and grasps my chin between his fingers, forcing me to look him in the eyes "every last bit. I don't want anyone else, only you... i'm yours and you are mine" he snickers deviously and leans in to place a small kiss on my neck "all mine"

I giggle and grab onto Seung's nape "well how can i argue with that?"

Seung pulls me back up, smiling like a love struck idiot "i'm sure you'll find a way, you're too stubborn not to, so i'll just have to distract you"

I lift an eyebrow "and how are your going to do that?"

That stupid smirk forms on his lips once more and i resist the urge to hit him for it, but have no time to think about it, once his lips capture mine into a head nubbing, and body tingling kiss. I sigh into it, the word 'finally' echoing through my head.

>>>>>>

~Seunghyun~

"Admit it, you had fun today" I say holding the wonderfully calm boy against my chest as we lounge on the beach, watching the sun set across the oceans horizon.

He sighs and relaxes further into me, resting his hands on my thighs that lay on either side of his "yeah... Today's was actually really spectacular, thank you for this, Seung, I really didn't know I needed this"

I chuckle and let my hands slid down his waist "I think I saw you smile, like really smile for the first time today... I missed it, I missed you"

Ji tilts his head and looks back at me "this is what you wanted from the beginning, isn't it?"

I smirk and nod "you caught me, sorry"

He shakes his head and pinches my thigh causing me to yelp at the slight sting "what was that for?"

He giggles and leans up placing a kiss on the edge of my jaw "that stupid smile... I didn't miss it"

My eyebrows furrow and I'm about to ask him what he means, but he turns around in my arms, climbing into my lap. He looks hard into my eyes, a presence in them I haven't seen in a long time if really ever. Ji's so aware right now, and i realize that I'm finally seeing him, every bit of him. No walls, no boundaries. This is my Ji, this is the boy I've always been fighting to find my way to, the boy who's been fighting just as hard for the same.

I reach up and place my hand over his chest, right where his heart is "hello Jiyong, I've been waiting for you"

Ji's smile is a bit wobbly when he places his hand over my own and replies with "hello Seunghyun, it's good to finally see you, thank you for waiting"

I tilt my head up as he leans down, our lips brushing over each other's, a new and exciting spark passing between us. He pulls back but only for a second before he's diving down, pushing his lips against my own, harder and more intense. His hand on my shoulder slides to the back of my head, threading through my hair and forcing me closer to the boy, devouring me.

We break apart, our chest heaving, gasping for air we momentarily forgot the need of. Ji rests his head at the crook of my neck, panting out hot little breaths, sending my arousal into overdrive. I briefly think about my resolve to give Ji a stress free, fun weekend, without the pressure of anything sexual, but what happens next forces that resolve crashing to the ground and evaporates into thin air, never to be seen again.

Jiyong leans into me, placing his lips on the side of my neck and whispering, "Seung" while lowering his hips, giving them a cautious swivel as if he's waiting for me to stop him at any moment.

I breath in sharply and place my hands at the small of his back, relishing in the fact that he doesn't even flinch or tense up when i touch him here now. My palms slide further down, grasping lightly at the beautiful ass the gods have gifted him with and in relation gifted me with. Ji moans and arches into my hands, whining when I continue to grope the heavenly buns. I bite at my lip wondering if I should pushing it further and decide to just give it a shot.

Carefully my fingers dance across his ass, heading into a dangerous area slowly and cautiously, letting him know where my intended target is. Ji tenses slightly but doesn't push me away or tell me to stop, so I continue till the palms of my hands are resting firm on the tops of Ji's thighs.

He breaths in a deep, slightly ragged breath and when I look up at him he's staring down at me, his eyes large and vulnerable. I bravely move my hands casing Ji's own hand still tangled in my hair to tighten.

I wince, but can't deny that I feel a little jump of excitement push through my stomach as he does this. Ji doesn't push me away, even though I can feel his heart pounding against my own through our connected chests, he's staying calm.

"Baby" I whisper, watching his eyes flash at how deep my voice comes out "are you ok with this?"

He swallows hard and nods slowly "yes Seung, take me, every inch of my body is yours, don't leave a single part of it untouched. Please Seung, I'm yours"

A short growl leaves my lips as I stand up, Ji's legs wrapping around my waist and his arms securing themselves around my neck, leaving no room between us. Our lips find one another's, passionately kissing one another all the way up the beach, till we're falling onto the bed. Ji's legs remain around my waist which he uses as leverage, digging his heels onto my lower back, pulling me against him harder. Our erections grind against one another's, the wonderful but not nearly enough friction driving me insane, and judging on the frustrated whine i receive from the boy underneath me, i'm not alone in that.

I pull away slightly earning me a whimper of disapproval, but place my hand on his hip, smoothing my thumb across the crease between his hip and thigh, instantly calming him down. Once he's relaxed, i lean up on my knees and pull off my shirt, while Ji watches with hooded eyes. He reaches for the hem of his own shirt, but i stop him, and start to do it for him. I pull it up slowly, bending back down, my body inches above his own.

Lifting the fabric slowly, exposing fractions of his skin at a time, my lips trailing after leaving kisses with each new part uncovered, giving special attention to each scar as i go. Ji trembles beneath me, and reaches out running his fingers through my hair, leaning into the contact. I finally expose the beautiful pink buds on his chest and take my time, running the tip of my tongue across them, and wrapping my lips around them giving them a good suck causing Ji to squirm and pull at my hair roughly.

I chuckle and decide I've abused them enough, helping him sit up a little so i can take his shirt off all the way, and throwing it across the room. When i turn back to my beautiful boy, he's giving me an annoyed head tilt and i can't help the snort that falls from my mouth at this. Even when we are both so wrapped up in such an act, he still manages to be his anal retentive self.

Ji rolls his eyes at my amusement towards him and grabs my arm, yanking it out from under me, resulting in me falling forward and having to catch myself inches from landing right on him. He giggles at my panicked expression, till our eyes meet, barely enough space between them to focus clearly, then his giggles die in his throat.

An intensity passes through us, something moving me so powerfully i nearly have the need to cry and as Ji reaches up and places his hands on the sides of my face, i know he feels it too.

"Ji" i whisper.

He nods, his eyes becoming glassy "i know, Seung"

The rest of our cloths slip off easily after that, each touch careful, each graze of fingers across skin so intimate it's practically beautiful. No touch is rushed, no kiss is hurried, nothing but love completing each other, consuming us whole.

My lips eventually find their way back to his chest, kissing a path down his stomach, and across his hips. I pause at the crease, glancing up, seeking approval. Ji bites his lip, but smiles giving me the green light and i continue placing soft butterfly kisses down his right thigh, stopping between each kiss, letting them sink into his skin, letting each one replace the terrible memories, letting each one wash away the hate and anger that was once placed there.

Ji shutters, his breath coming out shallow and shaky, but not in a panicked way, instead almost in a nervous vulnerability. I place my hands on his knees and slide his legs apart, moving my kisses to the inside of his thighs, playing a little rougher as i dare to leave marks on the beautiful unblemished skin.

Ji moans loudly and arches his back when i leave a larger, angry looking red mark on the inside of his thigh, just below the curve of his leg. I swallow roughly and pull back, mesmerized at the sight of Ji sprawled out in front of me, mine for the taking.

"You're so beautiful" i breath out, hooking my arms under his knees and pulling him towards me, then covering his naked body with my own, enveloping him.

He arches into me hungrily, grinding our hardened members together, once again hooking his ankles together behind my back. Our lips meet once again in sweet relief, breathing in each other, basking in the contact. When we pull away this time, we both wear expressions of content, staring into each other's eyes fondly.

"I love you" i say, brushing hair out of his eyes.

He smiles and places a small kiss against cheek, letting the bridge of his nose nuzzle the rest of my face "i love you, too" he whispers, his breath fanning over my face.

My fingers trail down his sides, crawling with a mind of their own, quickly finding their way back to the boys sinful ass, sliding under it and gripping it hard before thrusting down once, grinding our groins together.

Ji calls out and scrapes his fingers up my back, the sting of it sending shocks through my body. I growl and repeat the act, moving my hips this time, creating further friction. The blond writhes below me, begging incoherently in between moans.

"S-Seung, please" he stutters out.

I sigh and raise myself up, getting off the bed, leaving Ji confused and sitting up quickly, watching my every move as i head to our luggage. I rummage through mine quickly finding what i'm looking for and rush back to the needy boy waiting for me across the room.

When i return to a kneeling position on the bed in front of Ji, who's still surprisingly splayed out without a fraction of self-consciousnesses and staring at me curiously.

I chuckle and hold up the bottle in my hand "though the idea of bareback is intriguing, i feel that our first time together should be as painless as possible"

He bites his lip as realization dawns on him "it's never been painless for me, Seung"

My heart stutters for a second as a deep ache settles in my chest. This boy has never been touched in this way, without anger, without force. Ji's never made love, he's always just been abused and used, and has never know what it feels like to be connected to someone like this.

I lean forward grasping his chin in my free hand, my voice coming out a little choked "do you want this, Ji? You have the right to say no, Jiyong. You tell me right now that you don't want this, and we can go watch disney movies and eat junk food...this is your choice, baby"

Ji closes his eyes and takes in a deep breath "i want this, i want you... I'm saying, yes, Seung... make me feel so much pleasure that i forget that i ever felt pain"

I close my eyes as well and place my forehead against his "i'll give you everything, Ji. i promise, you'll never hurt again"

I place a short peck on his lips and pull back, once again spreading his legs, feeling my length pulse when his knees touch the bed without any bit of effort "god, i forgot how fucking flexible you are"

My beautiful boy giggles and hooks his hands under his knees pulling them up a little, exposing himself to me. I sigh, warmth spreading through me at how easy this is for him to give himself over to me now and pop open the cap to the lube. I Spread the substance across my fingers, rubbing it around a little to help it warm, then brushing a finger over his rim. He gasps and twitches, already sensitive and we've just began.

My finger sinks in slowly, being enveloped in delicious heat, seeming to pull me in as I dare to pull out. Ji adjusts quickly to the first finger with having done this so many times before  and it's not long before I'm adding the second, then the third.

Ji rocks his hips up and down, nearly fucking himself on my fingers, his shallow, stuttered breaths broken by deep moans filling the room. He reaches up with the one hand not curled in my hair and pinches at his nipple, forcing a whine from deep in his throat.

"Ok, baby, this is it, point of no return, I can make you cum this way or I can take this further, it's your choice" I say, looking up at him, while continuing to pump my fingers in and out of him.

I know Ji's given me his consent a hundred times by now, but i need this, i need to know that this is what he wants, i need him to understand that he has every right to say no to me. Ji sighs and reaches for me, which I comply to and slid up his body, keeping my digits buried in his heat.

"Seung, please... please, make love to me" he pleads, his eyes filled with so much desire and need, I don't think I could say no if I wanted to.

My dick twitches at his words and I hurriedly reach over for the lube, and slicking myself up before placing the tip at his entrance. I look down once more at the beautiful boy beneath me, nearly shaking with need and feel proud that I'm the one who did this to him, that I'm the only one who will ever see him like this.

Slowly I breach his entrance sliding in carefully, ready to pull out at any moment if he were to ask, but when his legs come up, wrapping around my waist and seeming to push me forward, I know he has no intention of backing out.

Once I'm fully seated, I grab onto Ji's hand, lacing our fingers together "are you ok?" I have to ask.

He nods "yes, gods yes, this is perfect, Seung"

I smile and lean down, placing light butterfly kisses across any inch of flesh I can find. But soon enough, the boy beneath me starts to whine, wiggling around, while I'm attacking his neck, leaving my proof of claim across the flawless milky skin.

Without pulling away from him, I pull back slightly, moving myself inside of him, then guiding back forward once again. An antagonizing pace, but a necessary one for Ji's sake. Unfortunately one he doesn't seem to agree with.

"Seung, p-please" he gasps, pulling his legs up higher, hooking them around my waist so I can slide in deeper.

I groan and lower my head, searching out his lips, but don't kiss him, instead I hover them just above his "I'm not going to fuck you, baby. I'm going to make love to you, I'm going to show you what this type of connection should be like, just me and you"

His eyes seem to tone down and he stares into mine, his body reacting to every thrust of my own, like he's finally understanding and syncing with me. In this moment, as I'm staring into Ji's eyes, as I'm looking into a world deeper than the one outside of each other, I swear i see Ji's soul. It's as if he's finally presenting the last piece of himself to me, like he's giving me the last number of the code to unlock his heart. There's no boundaries here, there's nothing keeping up apart, we are connected in the deepest meaning of the word.

I rock slowly, but deeply into Ji and he tightens his grip on my hand, whispering my name. I nearly tear up at how emotional this moment is, how amazingly important this final step is for us. We belong to one another in every sense of the word now. I'm his and he is mine, an unbreakable bond that will only strengthen with time, an unspoken promise that neither of us will ever forget.

We don't keep track of time or pay attention to what happens when or how, this isn't about the endpoint. This isn't about getting off or just screwing. No, this is about Ji and me, this is about two people connected in the rawest form of the word. This is two people feeling one another, being with one another. It isn't just sex, it's an act of giving yourself, your body, your heart, your soul to someone. This isn't rushed, it isn't timed, it's not simply just making the other person cum. It's stripping away every boundary that's between two people till all that's left is the center of your being and relishing in that energy because now, it's a part of you.

Giving yourself to someone in this way is beautiful and it feels like coming home after being lost for so long. I know I'm right where I belong as I deeply thrust into Ji, as I feel our bodies fit together in a way even puzzles could never understand. Ji isn't just mine and nor am I just his, we are a part of one another, two pieces always searching to be whole again.

When a sob breaches Ji's lips, he looks into my eyes with his glassy ones and tells me he loves me, I know all of this so true. I'm whole again, and so is Ji. We could never put ourselves back together on our own because the biggest pieces we were missing were one another.

Tears of my own brim, as i lean down placing light, loving kisses across Ji's collarbones, whispering words of love and adoration for the boy underneath me. Ji whispers back the same, making my heart swell with such love for the boy, i feel as if i'll explode.

Ji places his hand on the side of my face, forcing me to look at him, forces me to see the deepest and rawest emotions in his eyes, just before arching his back, coming undone beneath me, and calling out a single word of "always"

I take a deep breath, relishing in the intensity of the moment and follow him with "forever" and know we'll never mean two words more than those.

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Annyeong my Chickens!!!!

*Wipes at eyes and noisily blows nose into handkerchief* hello my dears, so finally it happened. GTop did the deed. I know it's not all smutty and sexy in usual gtop fashion, but i felt that doing that type of feeling for this moment, just didn't fit. This was a big moment, and it needed to be captured appropriately. This was a big step for them, and i hope you guys think i did it justice.

I want to formally apologize for your long wait, it was just so hard to write and edit for the past month or so. I can't promise that i'll be better with my updates, but i will try my best, and just look on the brightside that this story isn't far from it's end and will have a beautiful conclusion to it!!

Anyways, i missed your guys and can't wait to hear your feedback!! kisses and hugs!!

사랑해 💕

~M~