I apperate out of the the Potter residence and head to my house to calm down. I have always hated that house on the end of Spinners End. Number 13 the always unlucky number.The house I grew up in. The house that was never my home, too many scaring memories.

Hogwarts has always been more of a home, a safe haven to me, but most classes have been canceled for the day to remember the lost in the war just ended. A day to remember those lost, and give freedom to those who are left. The students and teachers get a break as a brief celebration that the war that has been fought for over seven years has finally reached a stand still. Sure death eaters are out their, and want to avenge their masters dorm fall, but they are the minority of people. Some death eaters even saw that Voldemort was crazy, a lier and needed to be defeated, but we're too deep in the darkness to be able to be saved by the light. Sometimes it is too late to be saved. You can't save everyone no matter how hard you try.

It is dangerous to apparate when you are emotional and distracted, but I don't care if I get splinched now. I want to die. My best friend and only love is dead,what is left to live for? Everyone who has cared for me, and didn't intentionally, or not screw me over, and treat me like a pawn in their boring chess match is dead. Stone cold, dead, gone for good.

Surprisingly, and unfortunately for me, I land at my destination completely unscathed. Quickly I collapse on my black leather sofa and, grab a bottle of Firewhiskey,to drown my sorrows. Soon,I fall into a deep alcohol induced sleep. I dream of Lily,my guardian angel, and other cryptic messages arise. Luckily no dancing Zebras, or annoying 80s pop songs that get stuck in your head this time though. I am lucky not to have nightmares this night.

The Dream
"Sev...wake up."says Lily.

She looks so young. So beautiful. I look up at her and see her angelic smile,that you couldn't help but,smile back.

"Be strong Sev. Look after my son for me. Care for our kitten. I trust you. Severus Tobias Snape I have always loved you. Goodbye my friend. Jinx is looking for you."says Lily before she disappears in a cloud of smoke.

"Lily don't go. I LOVE YOU!"

Severus yelled at Lily but,she was gone in both reality and dreamscape.

End Dream

That was a strange dream. Jinx is looking for me? He remembers? I look up at the clock. Seven AM.I left Lily three long hours ago. A tear slips out of my eye. She's gone. Lily's gone, and never turning back.

I dress in some old jeans and a black sweatshirt over a torn green button down. I look like a mess but,I honestly don't care. I have nobody left to impress. I'm mourning, and people should respect that.

Striding out of my house and see people dressed all in there cloaks. Stupid Wizards, not even trying to blend in. Do you want to get us exposed? The Dark Lord vanishes and now the Statue of Secrecy is at risk of being exposed. As one evil is defeated, another arises.

I hear a familiar voice from behind me. "Come to celebrate?The Dark Lord's gone. They did it that evil noseless git is DEAD! Too bad the Potters died though. Such a tragedy. Many have died in this war. But,whatcha gonna do? Death is a necessary evil in life, and their sacrifice freed the rest of society." said the voice.

I want to punch the owner of that voice. Victims of war just a statistic. Dancing on freshly dug graves. Do you have no decency? Of course the man didn't know of my passion for Lily, nobody except I did. Lily was only one of the many tragic losses in the war, on both sides. He should have been more sensitive because everyone alive today at least knows one of the dead personally.

The voice belonged to Amos Diggery. We went to school together. Amos was a Hufflepuff a few years ahead of Lily and I . The only time they ever had contact was in Herbology, or Order meetings. How dare he talk to me?Can't he see I'm upset. Snape was resisting the urge to slap the Puff across the face in order to bring him back to reality. You don't want to get on my bad side, but Amos has crossed so many lines by annunciating those words in that particular order. I calm myself enough to reply, but it wasn't nice at all. Nice left the building hours ago, and is now on vacation in France. They had an opening for a new city.

"Why Celebrate? I don't think he is gone. I think that's what he wants us all to think so he can attack us when we have our guard down."Said Snape slightly annoyed.

"Paranoid Much. Jeesh you're almost as bad as Mad-Eye." Amos said.

He quickly walked away leaving a peeved Snape behind. Really! Those idiots are celebrating. What Fools! Why Celebrate? There is no solid evidence the Dark Lord is dead. There was no body found at the scene. I look at my left arm. The mark is still there as faint as it is. He is not gone for good. Voldemort has a sick sense of humor, and it is not beneath him to strike when the worlds backs are turned, least expecting an attack.

The mark is made to let the Death Eaters know Voldemort's feelings and when meetings are. It will disappear when Voldemort is dead. When they have no one to follow. He's not gone I have to tell Albus. I have to warn him.I flooed to my quarters at Hogwarts. Ive canceled classes for the day and apparently the other professors did too. I did it so I don't have to deal with idiotic children,I have no idea why the others did though. Probably to celebrate, or get a head start on grading. Teaching is hard work.

I finally reach the headmaster's gargoyle. "Password?"asked the gargoyle.

"Grrr.I don't have time for this. You will let me up to see the Headmaster now. It's urgent. I am Professor Snape, Potions Master here. Let me see my boss, or you will have hell to pay."

"Fine and by the way the passwords Chocolate Frogs."Said the gargoyle opening up to reveal a winding stair case.

Albus and his sweets. It's really ridiculous."You wanted to see me Severus?Lemon Drop?"

"No thank you. Albus why is everyone out celebrating?Voldemort's not gone."

"Why the Wizarding World has had very little to celebrate in nearly 25 years, especially these past 7 years filled with fiery hatred. You should be celebrating too. Wait did you just say he's not gone?Severus what are you not telling me?"

"No Albus I will not celebrate. I just lost the love of my life and it is all YOUR FAULT!Yes,VOLDEMORT IS NOT GONE! There was no body found and LOOK"Severus yelled,while quickly rolling up his left sleeve.

Dumbledore gasped. The dark mark was still there. Faint and grey but,it still was there. "We must stop him from returning to power. But,how did he just disappear like that?"Said Albus.

"I don't know sir. May I ask you another question?"Asked Severus.

"Yes and I believe you just did but, you may ask another."Said Albus

"How did the boy survive and what's to happen to him?"Asked Severus.

"To your first question I can only speculate. I suspect the love that Lily had for Harry and her protecting him saved acted like a shield and it ricocheted and hit Voldemort. His own curse destroyed him. To your second I have yet to decide. He is most likely going to live with Lily's sister Petunia. It will be better for him to live away from the World of Wizards. There he won't be pampered and will be essentially a normal child. He's playing with Minerva at the moment.

"But,Petunia hates magic. She even hated her sister. Tuney constantly called Lily a FREAK.I really don't think that is a good idea."

"Well do you have any better ideas Severus?"

"Minerva?She always wanted a child and I believe lives in a muggle neighborhood. She also adores the child."

"No,She is too closely tied to the world of Wizards and resides here most of the year. Any one else?"

"The Longbottoms?I believe they have a son Harry's age and Alice was Lily's best friend."asked Severus.

"Good idea in theory, but they currently are in Saint Mungos. They most likely will never recover Bellatrix Crucioed them for hours last night making then insain. Augusta is caring for there child and one young child is a handful at her age. I don't want to burden her." Said Albus.

"How about Remus Lupin?He was James' best friend. I know he is a werewolf, but he is only a danger a few days a month."

"The Ministry would never allow it and you know it. How about you Severus?"

"I will NOT raise the Potter brat. He 's probably just as much trouble as his father. The ministry would never allow it anyway due to the tattoo I just showed you that is not gone." Snape spat.

"He's just a baby though Severus and, you were Lily's best friend. For Lily?"Asked Albus.

And there it is playing the Lily card. "I'm sorry,I just can't.I have other responsibilities. How about Amos Diggery?"asked Snape.

"They treat there own son like a prince. Harry will be second best. He also is too tied into Wizarding affairs."Said Dumbledore.

"Arabella Figg?The Weasleys?Amelia Bones?The Lovegoods?The Tonks?Any of them work for you?"

"Arabella is a better caretaker for cats than children. She is accident prone and wouldn't have her care for a child long term. Even though she lives in a muggle neighborhood and is a squib.

The Weasley family have a lot of children already and can't afford another child.

Amelia Bones works for the Ministry and is caring for her niece Susan. Again too tied to the Wizarding World and Harry would never grow up normally.

The Lovegoods are really wacky and off in dream land most of the time. I doubt they will be able to care for two children since Pandora is expecting a child soon.

The Tonks are good people. I would trust them with Harry, but Andromeda is tied to the World of Wizards and I'm not sure Harry will ever be treated normally."Said Albus

"Excuses for everything don't you Dumbledore. Why do you want him to go to Petunia?"

"Why? She is his only living family and I can put up blood wards."Albus simply stated.

"Blood wards?You know they are not the strongest wards around. Wards of love are strongest. Just because they are blood doesn't mean they will love him."Snape stated

"I know. But,I have no other ideas. Are you sure you won't take him?"Albus pleaded.

"No and that's final. I see you're going to do what you want no matter what. Just remember I warned you headmaster. Goodbye."Said Snape exiting the Headmaster's office.

I never was going to win, but I figured I would try to give him more knowledge, so he would question the terrible decision he's making.

I head to my own personal quarters and just sat in front of the fire I make the right choice? Should I have agreed to care for the orphaned you Dumbledore for mentioning Lily's name. She's my weakness and he knows that. I sit and think for hours and then go to bed. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.

Early the next morning I get dressed and put on my snarky potions master mask. I dress in a white long sleeve shirt,black pants and black buttoned robes. I walk into the Great Hall and everyone was chatting. I heard You-Know-Who is gone and the Potters yes thats what I heard. They're dead and there son survived. An infant destroyed the darkest wizard of our time. If it wasn't such a dark topic, it would have been laughable.

Everyone was feeling the power of this day. Everyone seemed somewhere between ecstatic, and depressed. Some of the older students, Gryffindors mostly, looked completely wasted. Minerva looked sad and Albus was wearing a blank mask. Some of us deal with emotions better than others. Most days I would be able to control my emotions, but today is not one of those days.

Sometime later,a letter flutters into my lap.A black envolope. That could only be an invitation to the funeral of Lily since I know no other who had recently passed. Don't get me wrong I lost many people in the war, but all of those who happened to die died early on, except the one who mattered most, Lily.

As I walk out of the Hall and notice Minerva following me with the same envelope. We open them at the same time.

You are invited to the Funeral of Lily Elizabeth Potter nee Evans and James Charles Henry Potter.

The 5th of November

Godric's Hallow Cemetery 10 o'clock

We are sorry for your loss.