She kept breaking down today. I just held her. For the first time I don't know what to do. I want to be there for her. I want to hold her and help her.

I hate that she feels this way. I want to be there for her for every thing that she has to go through.

I just don't know what to say. The words are stuck in the back of my throat as we sit there and held each other. I gently swayed her back and forth. I kissed her forehead and let her sleep on top of me when she passed out.

We never made it to brunch. We never made it to dinner. We were just in bed all day. At about 6pm she finally moved around a little bit and go out of bed.

No words were spoken. She got out of bed and took a shower. I pulled out some clean clothes for her, ordered pizza, and told her mom that we would see her in the morning.

I heard the bathroom door click close again as I looked up in to her eyes. Her face still a bit swollen from crying but she looked ok.

"Hey love. I ordered dinner." I said softly. I didn't even want to make any sudden movements in fear she would flinch.

"Can we talk?" She asked softly.

"Of course." I said as she sat on the bed. She situated herself and leaned against the head board and I sat at the foot of the bed.

She sighed and looked anywhere but at me.

"Can I say something without you getting mad?" She asked. Her voice cracking and my chest clenched.

"Willow. I would never get mad at you for being honest with me." I said calmly searching her face for any answers.

"I love you." She whispered softly.

A small smile appeared on my lips. But before I could say it back she continued.

"I'm sorry for the mess of this weekend so far. I don't know....I love you. I need you to remember that. I am so sorry for the way that my family has been. It's embarrassing and I feel horrible." She stumbled over a few words.

"You deserve so much better then me Mikey." She finished softly.

My jaw dropped. I didn't expect that from her.

"Its ok if you don't want to deal with me or this anymore. Especially me. I haven't been the best fiancee for you and I know there are girls out there that would kill to be with you." She added.

I choked on my words and stared at her. Why was she saying this now? Had I not made it clear enough that I needed her?

She finally looked at me and her eyes were so sad. The reason I breathe is basically giving me an out and I don't know how I feel. Angry? Betrayed? Beyond any comprehension of any feelings?

I stared at her and she give some a slight smile.

"I can give you time-" she began.

I cut her off by placing my hand over her mouth which surprised her.

"I let you talk. Now let me talk." I started firmly. "You talk about how I deserve better or how you aren't good enough. But I need you. I need you to breathe. I need you to be my center when my life is going to shit. You keep me level and help me control my anger with just a touch. I can't tell you how bad and miserable my life would be without you in my life."

"I can't do any of this without you. " I finished.

I finally really looked at her and she was crying again.

"Babe. That was supposed to make you happy. Not make you cry again." I said softly while chuckling.

She smiled through her tears.

"Happy tears Mikey. Happy tears. I have been having a shit day and those thoughts slowly crept in. You are the most amazing man." She whispered grabbing me and fucking her head in to the crook of my neck.

"You speak so highly of me love. I could never-" I started but it was her turn to cut me off when her lips smashed in to mine.

"Don't even." She mumbled in to my lips and I smiled through a kiss.

Pizza came about 20 minutes later interrupting our make out and we ate in silence. Not a bad silence though. I kept catching her staring at me and she would blush and turn herself a different direction.

She is the most amazing person in the world and no one has ever given her the time to even show the world what she can do.

From someone who had everything growing up I have never understood how families can be that hateful or that horrible to each other. Not until I met my Willow.

She deserves everything good in this world. She deserves the world. She has such a good heart and loving mind. I will never understand how they could treat her like this.

As I watch her eat her Hawaiian pizza I just keep smiling at her. We finally finish and just curl up on the balcony together staring out at the sunset and hold each other until the moon was high in the sky.

Tomorrow would come another challenge. But what mattered was who I was with and who I was holding in my arms at that exact moment.