Dear Aurora,

You know how much I hate writing. This is your thing, not mine, but whatever... I even tried to write in calligraphy to make it seem more dramatic than it already is, but it turned out to be shitty and I couldn't even read my own writing... so yeah this is my second and last attempt of me writing to you a freaking letter on the 21st century.

I know the second your eyes will open, you're going to hate me. I know that you would have called me stupid and selfish for choosing this way to end my life, but I have to be honest with you, Aurora.

This is the best decision I have ever made in my entire twenty years of life, grumpy pants! I am happy. I really am happy right now and those tears that have fallen on the paper are because of happiness, Ror. You shouldn't worry about me, I will be happy where I will be and it will all be alright... I know you will blame yourself for driving that car, which led us to this situation, while we were both drunk... but I don't want you to do that, Ror. You deserve so much and you should know it, every person in your life should remind you of how special you are... I mean c'mon you're my best friend and that alone should make you feel special.

I want you to follow your life and cherish every single moment of it. I want you to keep writing and never give up, because this world deserves your words so that all the pain will turn into happiness and peace. You have a talent and you should never take it for granted. I want you to continue swimming, because you need to let go of your stress and because you love water so much... I want you to be happy with Alfie because he deserves you and you both are perfect for each other.

I, lastly, want to thank you for being who you are. I want to thank you for being my best friend for ten years. I wish it were more, but I am so glad I got to meet you. Maybe I didn't say it often, but without your shouting and sarcastic remarks, I wouldn't have followed my dreams and have signed up for drama classes.

When my heart will be transplanted in your body, I want you to take care of it. I want you to imagine that I am inside you and that I am always with you. A part of me will be as always and it's the most important one. Don't hate yourself and let that guilt go. Let me go...

Cherish your dreams Aurora; I will always be there for you as I promised.

Love you,

Nora

P.S. Take care of Gavin for me, he will not be okay and will call me selfish for not thinking about him, but I would always choose this ending over and over again. I would have always chosen to give you my heart for you to live. 

THE END

Starstruck