Giving Xavia a cold shoulder is definitely harder than you had thought. You spend most of the time you're not in class (and some of the class time, too) thinking about how difficult it is going to be to keep this up and to keep ignoring her. You feel betrayed and played with. There was no crush. She just made up a poor excuse for not speaking to you. Played with your being observant and caring for her. How and why she decided to suddenly stop interacting with you, to cut off the friendship, you don't know and honestly you now think it's none of your buissness, it never was. She just stopped liking you. A new stinging feeling settles in the pit of your stomach and you shed a single tear for a fourteen-year-old friendship.
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So here's the thing, if you're somehow barging inside my bag. I understand, it's a fair thing and I get why you would completely cut me off after what I did, but I just don't get what were your reasons before, right? That is why I did it in the first place. Because I care about you, and before you think it's no more than a poor excuse for invading your privacy, that's true, but what did you want me to do? To keep asking? I was feeling frustrated and pushed away and completely shit, okay? And I was also worrying about you because that's what friends do, that's what friends are for. So if you don't want me absolutely anywhere near you, I completely get it, but it's all I ask of you, all I want out of the last moments of out friendship, is for you to tell me that, please. I just want to know what happened, what I did wrong, where I messed up.
Yeah, thank you for being my friend since we were two, I guess. That was a good fourteen years.
Sincerely,
Matt.
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..Hey, what are your thoughts about this?
_Kai..