You have found yourself reading these letters more than you'd like to admit, and surprisingly, no one has as much as noticed you sitting on the floor reading Xavia's notebook.
Monday, August 29
oH MY FUCKING GOD.
GET OUT OF MY HEAD ALREADY.
Like, seriously, you need to fuck off with your kisses and your cuddles and your words and your looks that you're NEVER ACTUALLY GOING TO GIVE ME. YOU ARE NEVER GOING TO SAY 'I LOVE YOU TOO' OR ASK ME IF YOU CAN KISS MY LIPS OR TELL ME IT'S OK TO HOLD ON TO YOUR CHEST OR GRAB ME BY THE WAIST AND LET ME PUT MY ARMS AROUND YOUR NECK OR
You notice there are a few round wet spots on the paper and the 'r' in 'or' is slightly smeared.
hold me or play with my hair peck me in the lips when we say goodbye after a long day of school. And it's driving me nuts. Please get out of my heart because the butterflies are no more than a painful gaping hole in my stomach that pulls at my insides and makes me feel all fuzzy in a bad way. Please stop. Please stop being so gorgeous and kind and funny and protective of me. Stop saying you love me in a platonic way and stop calling me beautiful. Stop being there for me and stop talking to me in that sweet yet not condescendig way because at this rate I don't think I could ever stop falling for you, and that's not a good thing. Ever.
Sincerely,
Me.
You now have a feeling like hunger in your stomach but you know it's just a gaping hole of sadness. You really need to punch whoever is doing this to her in the face, hard.
You put her things back in her bag and walk out of the classroom, you encounter a guy in your year, pretty ugly, average height. You punch him right in the nose with all of your strenght and get back inside the classroom with a throbbing hand.
The kid apparently went to the office, because he comes into your classroom with a teacher and points at you. The teacher takes you to the principal's office and you go back home with a report in your permanent record that afternoon.
"And be grateful I did't suspend you, miss"
"Yes, sir"

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..Also these are unedited so if you find any mistakes please let me know in the comments :)
_Kai..