Oh dearest love,
I've honestly never met anyone like you
I respect and admire you so much
You know why?

Cuz you're one person I can't seem to win
I'm the strongest person I know
All your friends know I can beat them anyday

But you, you're difficult
And me, I'm stubborn
But you still find a way, how?

I'm repeating these words to myself
Trying my best to act like you're not standing so close to me
Calling for me to answer and accept you

I'm staring straight ahead
Trying to avoid your beautiful face
Trying to ignore your ethereal voice

But then I slip, just for a second
Decieving myself that I can just look back
And every breathtaking image I had of you would just vanish from my memory

But oh, I am captivated
I cannot look away
You draw me in

And I'm battling within myself
To forget and ignore this feeling
That it's nothing serious and it would go away

You give me your smile
And I suddenly know I've made a big mistake
I'm doomed

I'm not myself anymore
I'm obsessed and I am abnormal
I can't remember anything again

Just flashes of your face in my head
At all the seconds of the day
And frighteningly maybe all the seconds till the end of time

You've taken over the job of my circulatory system
You're now in control of my heart beat
Anytime you're around

Damn, even my nervous system
Because the way I react to every touch
Or action or glance or word that escapes your mouth

I could literally kill if I see anything next to you
I can forget my friends and my family and my goals
I could deprive myself of anything, just so you'd stay

I surrender
Please let go of me
I admit that you have every control of my being

But please, it's killing me
You feel like heaven
and you make me feel nothing else actually matters

I made a mistake to be aware of your existence
You came in like a joke but now it's dead serious
I'm killing myself slowly but I'm oblivious

You're supreme, you're lovely, you're deadly
You're needed, you're wanted, you're hated
You're welcome, but please leave me

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