Dear abandonment,
Why is it possible for someone to forget so easily?
To just walk away and never look back
Why can't I be enough for them
Couldn't they have said all the things I lack?

And no I am not perfect
No I am not worth it
But this has hurt me too much

You constantly remind me that I can love with my whole heart
And I can give all attention and care to others
But that doesn't mean they'd reciprocate

You remind me that people can come into my life and fill my world with sunshine
But they can still leave and leave me in darkness

You are a traitor, abandonment
From the worst kind
You trick me into hating people I have loved

You trick me into cursing the above
You trick me
You destroy me

I wonder what would happen if I would abandon you my dear abandonment
Would you abandon me too?
Or would we start an endless cycle of abandoning each other and inventing the thing we're running from again
Is it possible to lose you?
If so please let me

Anytime I see you let me be surrounded by darkness
Yes, let me be deiceved that they still care even if they've been gone for years
Let me be delusional and believe I'm important to them

Let me be careless
I'll let the winds of delusion sway me through my life
I'll be okay as long as I believe myself
I'll be nothing to them but I know I'm still everything to them
Or at least in my mind
I'll dance in the denial
I'll laugh in the insanity
I'll live in the deluded works that is us
That once was you
That once was me
That once was us