Dear Brie,

Today was a day of first. A day of things I never thought possible.
Things, I never thought I'd see happen, happened today. Things I thought wasn't possible no way, happened today. Today was a day of surprises. It was like when Rollins turned on The Shield and Brock defeated Undertaker's streak, shocking. If people weren't crying they wore shocked looks on their faces. Some wore both, me being one of them. Today was the day where a pig could have been flying around and that would be perfectly normal. A day where all the sayings that everything is possible, was brought to life and prevailed to be true. Today was the day of your funeral, September 10th, 2015.
Now, I don't even know where to begin. So many things happened. I wish I could have picked from least shocking, to most shocking but everything. Was so shocking or heartbreaking in their own way. How do you know where to begin to describe all the craziness Brianna? Please tell me. Send a note through a dream or something.
Let's start with Randy. Your best friend in the male locker room besides myself. The guy you would team up with when we fell out, the apex predator Randy Orton. Well, today he wasn't apex at all. He was weak, so broken, so lost in shock. It's like he didn't believe it. Seems like he doesn't believe you are gone. Remember how I use to tell you that, that man is incapable of tears? Well boy I was wrong. Today it was like he was incapable of stopping them. He cried and cried and cried. He couldn't even say a speech. He broke down after saying your name. He fumbled while walking and struggled to speak. Now that is shocking, shocking to me. Not only did he cried but he bawled his eyes out in public! And if you thought that was the most shocking part, darling you'd be wrong. The most shocking part was that during the ceremony after his failed speech, he got on to your casket and just laid there crying his eyes out and begging for you to come out. But you didn't, no matter how much we were hoping for you too. People had to pry him off the coffin. That was more difficult than you think. Shocked yet? I bet you think nothing can top that or be just as shocking right? Wrong. Hold on tight the story only just begun.
                        Seth. Seth is our next topic of interest. I think it is shocking he is even on the list. If I had to draw up a list with people who would have shocked me at the funeral his name wouldn't have been there but I was wrong. You remember how you always thought that Seth only ever liked you because he was trying to be polite and then it was because we were together. Remember when you said if you were to die, he would wear a sad look but never cry? Well like me you were wrong. When he found out he just wore a sad look but today he cried. Not only did he cry he walked over to me and yelled "it's all your fault! She didn't deserve to die! What kind of monster let their wives die?!" I simply stare at him but no response came from my mouth. I didn't know what to do, because I believe he was right. I'm a monster for making you die but it was your choice. After moments of silence he began to poke my chest roughly while asking 'huh?' And I remained silent still. I was shocked he even cared enough to ask me. I thought he'd be the one comforting me but he wasn't. After a minute or so of yelling and poking me he just hugged me and broke down in tears. Shocking everything within me. I just hugged him back while the tears stream down my face. "She may have thought I didn't like her much but I did. I just couldn't shake the feeling if I spoke to her more she would have hated me and I didn't want that." Those were the words he confessed to me as I simply nod still hugging him. Mind blown yet? Mine surely was.
             The bosses cried for you like you were an establish legend. I didn't think they would cry, no one did. Stephanie held onto Hunter as tears stream down their faces. Who would have thought you had such a huge impact on them? I didn't. What was very surprising to me was that with all the craziness and all the melt break downs and what nots you would have thought your mother would have gone crazy. But she didn't she just sat there holding onto JJ as the two silently cried. The most normal thing was a big shock to me. Isn't life funny? But your dad never even bothered to show. He send in some excuse.
                  Talking about your mother, bother and even dad I can't leave out your sister, Nicole. Now Nikki is a topic by herself. When I said some were shocking and some were heartbreaking, she was both. Through out the ceremony she cried the loudest and needed comforting the most. But we were expecting that. Then we move on to the actually burial. I turned away because I could not watch you get send down into that hole, I just couldn't. While looking away I heard people gasping, panicking and calling Nicole. So I turned to see if she had fainted or anything. She didn't faint, not even close. You remember how I told you Orton held onto you coffin refusing to let go? Well Nicole took it up one nook. I remembered people looking down into the grave confusing me. I looked down and saw your sister lying on top of it. Yes, she jumped down in the hole after you. I froze up in shock. I had no idea what to do. She just lay there crying telling people to bury you both together. She was willing to die right there with you. She wanted to die right there with you. She thinks she is already dead since your no longer with her. All she shouted was that 'she wants her sister back'. Many men with ropes and ladders tried to get her out but she refused their offers she wanted to come with you. Nothing anybody said helped. Not your mom's, bother's, Stephanie's, no one. She just lie down on your coffin, in your grave bawling her eyes out. Then she looked up at me and I just looked back at her. She titled her head and sniffled. It was like she was trying to figure out something. She looked at Randy who was kneeling besides the grave in tears. All we did was stare at each other. Maybe the others words didn't help her because it wasn't coming form the people who she felt was as broken as her. "Nikki I need you. I won't be able to go through this without you." I didn't know I planed to speak until I said that. She broke into more tears seeming to be contemplating. "Yeah. We all need each other. She would want us to be there for each other." Randy supported me and with each moment, each tear, each sniffle, I felt myself getting weaker. Nikki looked at your picture someone left as if she was hearing something from it. She then nodded and asked for help out. She walked over to me and hugged me tightly, dragging me to the floor with her but I didn't care. I need her comfort, she need mine. Brie I've never seen her so broken. I never cried so much. I never saw so many people all crying. At once before. It was like everyone forgot to be strong.
I even shocked myself. I thought I'd do like Nicole or Orton and latch onto your casket but I didn't. I thought I'd be laying on the ground crying but nope. I thought I would have caused a huge scene but nope. I just stood there in tears. I comforted others who couldn't comfort theirselves. I took the blame and I helped. And you know what? It felt nice actually. It made me feel strong. But that strength didn't last. Because after everyone left I stayed back and latched onto your tombstone crying. Hours later and I'm still here. I'm writing this letter at your grave. I could stay here for the rest of my life. I don't care about growing as a person because I'm no longer growing with you. So what's the point?
            I think I see Roman coming to me in the distance. No, no. It's definitely Roman. How did he figure I'd be here? Don't answer that it's obvious. He is motions for me to come. So on this note I'm done writing for today. I love you forever. Remember today was a day of first.

To my beauty queen: Brianna
Form: your annoying husband
Love you.

(A/n: sorry for any errors, I'm exhausted. And yeah. I decided to continue after all your beautiful comments. Hope you enjoyed it. Stay in school-eve it is annoying asf- ❤️❤️💞💕💞👏💥💥❤️💗)