Dear them, (a different them)

I miss you, it's hard knowing that I'll never see you grow older, or hear about you new girlfriend. I hate the fact that we ended on bad terms, that you left hating me. I still remember your laugh, the way the that you bite your lip when you smile. I remember the way you never used abbreviations, or that you made sure that I was alive, eating, breathing. I just wish I could've done the same for you. I wish I could've saved you. You would've been so disappointed with me, with all the bad things I've done since you left. There's no one to blame but me, I'm the one who caused all this, and I'm so so sorry. Sorry I couldn't keep you alive, sorry I couldn't keep my promises. Sorry for everything.

~Me