Today I start this to try to make sense of what I feel. I risked everything for you and you left me alone in the world, with nothing but a heavy sorrow in my body. You left me with a thousand explanations to give and millions of words trapped in my throat. Because I love you, and I will love you forever, my love. All this was triggered by an absurd act of protection for a friend, but you didn't let me tell you the whole truth, buried deep underground, more than five hundred meters below.