Third person's point of view

Jisoo didnt know how to describe his feelings right now. Sad, depress, betray, angry, lonely, hurt, pain, all were jumbled up in one place.

Jisoo curled up into a ball as he was still on his bed eventho, it was already past twelve in the evening right now.

Jisoo tightly gripped on his blanket as the blanket was covering his whole body as he was actually hid in it. He doesnt care anymore. He doesnt care about what was happening around him anymore. Its not worth anymore if the person he loves and cares since kids was not there, by his side.

"Jisoo-ah..?", Mrs Hong carefully took a step into her son's bedroom as she slowly called out for him.

Jisoo didnt respond eventho he heard her. Jisoo just didnt have the energy to do so.

Mrs Hong sighed as her eyes fell on a weak body, on the bed. She slowly approached the bed and sat at the edge of it.

"Jisoo-ah, lets eat something. Ive already cook your favorite food.", Mrs Hong said as she gently touched Jisoo's arm that was covered with the blanket.

Jisoo didnt answer as he just shook his head weakly, as a sign that he didnt want to eat anything.

Mrs Hong let out a sigh when her son still being a spoiled kid and made her more worried than she already did. She looked away while crossed her arms on her chest, as she was thinking some ways of how to make her son listen to her.

An idea suddenly popped out from her head.

She quickly got up and in one go, she snatched the blanket away from her son body. Jisoo was startled as his head shot up towards his mom.

"Get up.", Mrs Hong said in a strict tone as she put her hands around her waist, pulling a strict mother character on.

Jisoo groaned when his mother insisted on waking him up, "Mom, please.."

Mrs Hong just sighed when she heard him then she slowly sat down on the bed again, right beside her son. She gently put her hand on Jisoo's arm that was facing his back at her as she sighed, "Jisoo-ah, please. Its been a week since you last eating. Arent you hungry?"

Jisoo just blankly shook his head.

Mrs Hong sighed again as she really now was lost an idea on how to convince her now broken-hearted's son.

"Nothings going to change if youre being like this, you know son.", Mrs Hong said as she leaned her back on her son's figure.

Jisoo let out a sigh when he heard his mom's words.

"Nothing is ever going to change, mom. I messed up.", Jisoo weakly mumbled as he grabbed the blanket that was on his feet and covered himself up with it afterwards.

Mrs Hong turned her head towards her son and studied his face, eventho she couldnt see it very well as the blanket was in her way.

"Jisoo-ah.. I dont know what was the problem but if someone messed up, there always have ways to fix it.", Mrs Hong said as a smile plastered on her face while she stroked Jisoo's bed hair.

Jisoo uncovered himself from the blanket as he turned around. He then sat up and nervously asked, "Mom.. what should I do..?"

Mrs Hong was startled with his sudden question but then she just smiled and said, "You know what to do, son."

Jisoo furrowed his eyebrows towards Mrs Hong as he was very confused with her answer.

"I dont know what to do, mom. Thats why I asked you.", Jisoo replied while blankly looked at Mrs Hong's bright face.

Mrs Hong flashed a smile before said, "What you need to do is wash up and eat."

Jisoo sighed when he heard his mom's words, "I'm serious, mom."

"Me too.", Mrs Hong said then chuckled. A small smile plastered on Jisoo's face while he looked at his mom.

Mrs Hong then got up from the bed as she walked toward the door and stopped for awhile before she turned around, facing her son.

"Its okay, son. Everythings going to be okay. People make mistakes and people are also there to forgive. We are not perfect. Nobody perfect, remember?", Mrs Hong said then walked out from the room, leaving her son all alone in the room, trying to figure out the answer of his problem.

●●●●

Jisoo stopped eating and he looked up at his mom then said, "Mom, I'm going to Yeeun's house."

Mrs Hong also looked up then just replied with a nod.

When Jisoo was about to eat again, he quickly looked up at his mom again as he asked, "Mom, do Yeeun has ever visit you lately?"

Mrs Hong leaned back on her chair as she answered, "She often visited me back then when you were in US.. but recently, Ive never meet her again. I thought maybe she was busy."

Jisoo sadly nodded when he heard his mom words. Did she stopped coming over because of me..?

"Now when I think about it, its been a long time since I last talking with Yeeun's mom.", Mrs Hong said to herself while she crossed her arms on her chest.

Jisoo looked up and confusingly asked, "Mrs Han also stopped contacting you?"

Mrs Hong shrugged as she replied, "I dont know. Maybe she was just too busy. Last time I met her was when we were going to the market together, last few weeks."

Jisoo nodded then slowly got up from his seat.

"Where are you going?", Mrs Hong said as her eyes were pinning on her son.

"Upstairs.", Jisoo simply answered then climbed the stairs and walked toward his bedroom.

When he reached his room, he quickly grabbed his phone and made a call to someone.

He sat on the bed as he waited for the other line to pick up.

"Hello?", Jisoo answered when he heard ruffles sound on the line.

"um hello?", the other on the line answered.

"Jeonghan, its me, Jisoo.", Jisoo said as he stared down on his feet, nervous because its been a long time since he and his best friend talked.

"I know.", Jeonghan blankly said on the line.

Jisoo gulped when he heard Jeonghan's cold tone. He tried to remained calm as he thought it was his fault cuz he didnt even contact the other after he has arrived in Korea.

"Um, Jeonghan. I have something to ask you.", Jisoo said nervously as he bit his bottom lip afterwards.

"What is it?", Jeonghan coldly said, uninterested.

Jisoo sighed. He know that he needs to fix this one thing first before go on with his original plan.

"Jeonghan, I'm sorry.", Jisoo apologized while fiddled with his fingers.

"Why are you apologizing?", the other asked as he was confused with the sudden sorry.

"I know that I am a bad friend for you guys and how I really dont deserves such good friends like all of you. I should have informed all of you before I arrived in Korea and I also should meet you guys when I arrived but I didnt. I'm sorry, Jeonghan. I'm really sorry..", Jisoo explained as he felt really guilty and embarrassed with all his past doings.

Jeonghan let out a small sigh on the line as he slowly answered, "No, its okay. I forgave you."

Jisoo sighed relief as never crossed his mind that Jeonghan will ever forgive him.

"J-Jeonghan.."

"I said its okay~ now, now.. what was the thing that you were about to ask me? Is it about Yeeun..?", Jeonghan asked as he quickly changed the topic.

Jisoo inhaled as the main topic he was about to ask Jeonghan made him felt extremely nervous.

"Y-Yes. Its about Yeeun. Um, I made a mistake and I want to apologize to her but the thing is, you see... um."

"You dont know how to.", Jeonghan said on Jisoo's behalf.

Jisoo sighed and slowly replied, "Yes.."

Jeonghan sighed on the line then silent filled in both of the boys conversation. Jisoo nervously waited for Jeonghan's respond as what he heard on the line was a completely silent.

"Y-You know.. maybe I should just go and meet her later then maybe I should bring her something or-"

"Wait, Jisoo. You dont know...?", Jeonghan asked as he sounds very confused on the line.

Jisoo eyebrows furrowed as he looked straight in front as he said, "What do you mean by I dont know?"

"Y-You... dont know.", Jeonghan mumbled to himself but enough for Jisoo to heard it.

"Jeonghan, what do you mean? What thing that I dont know??", Jisoo asked as he now already got up from his seat as he couldnt sit any longer.

Again, there was a silent filled in the air as Jeonghan didnt reply Jisoo's question. This silent made Jisoo became more furious than he already did.

"Hey, Jeonghan-ah, is there something wrong-"

"Come over and I will explain.", that was Jeonghan last words before he hang up.

Jisoo just blankly looked at his dark screen after the conversation of him and Jeonghan. He then quickly grabbed his jacket and walked out from his room.

When he was about to run downstairs, he accidentally bumped onto Sojin.

Jisoo just bowed and mumbled a simple sorry then was about to step on the stair but stopped when Sojin suddenly took a hold on his arm.

"Joshua, where are you going..?", Sojin asked while looked at Jisoo.

Jisoo slowly pushed her hand away from his arm as he said, "Friend's. Please tell my mom that I'm going out."

Jisoo then quickly turned around and left Sojin before he ran downstairs. He then put on his shoes and walked out from the house, running toward Yeeun's house as he want to see her first.

●●●●

Jisoo knocked on Jeonghan's front door as he called out for the other, "Jeonghan! I'm here."

After a few seconds, the front door opened and Jeonghan showed up.

"Come in.", Jeonghan offered and Jisoo gladly accepted it.

Jisoo walked toward a couch that was there on the living room and took a seat on it. He looked up as his eyes followed Jeonghan, who was now taking a seat across him.

He was from Yeeun's house and he was really disappointed when he didnt get to see her. There was no one at home.

"um hi.", Jeonghan awkwardly said as he granted Jisoo a smile.

Jisoo smiled back and awkwardly replied, "hi, Jeonghan."

The boys awkwardly looked away as its been a few months since they last talked and of course, it was awkward as heck.

They then looked at each other at the same time which they quickly averted their eyes contact back. This whole awkward situation made the boys chuckled.

"This was sure very awkward.", Jeonghan said then laughed.

Jisoo chuckled then replied with a nod, "I know right."

"Geez, Jisoo. You sure changed a lot while you studied in foreign country, dont you?", Jeonghan said then threw a can of coke toward Jisoo which Jisoo safely caught it.

"Well, you also changed a lot. What happened with your hair? Why did you cut it short? I thought you loved having it long.", Jisoo asked and took a sip of the coke afterwards.

Jeonghan laughed which made Jisoo strangely took a glance at him.

"Well, I'm tired of people kept mistaking me with a girl and boys kept hitting on me whenever they saw me, so I cut it. I like it tho, this new hairstyle.", Jeonghan explained and earned a chuckle from Jisoo which made Jeonghan glared at him.

"I-I'm sorry. Its just, it was funny.", Jisoo exclaimed then laughed silently.

"It wasnt.", Jeonghan said coldly while glaring at Jisoo.

"Fine, fine.", Jisoo gave up and laughed for the last time before he finally calmed.

Jisoo looked around and simply asked, "Where are the others?"

Jeonghan put his coke on the table in front them and replied, "They are everywhere. Which one did you personally want to know?"

Jisoo chuckled then asked, "Wheres Hoshi? I heard that he got into this one dance competition and won it, right?"

Jeonghan nodded then answered, "Yes, he killed it. He got offered to be in this one big company as a dancer but he rejected it."

Jisoo look shocked as he asked, "Why?"

Jeonghan just shrugged and said, "I dont even know."

Jisoo nodded then looked down on his feet. He then fiddled with his fingers before carefully asked, "What about Yeeun..?"

Jeonghan gave Jisoo a small smile then said, "Shes doing fine."

Jisoo was a bit disappointed with Jeonghan's answer as he was expecting more. Jisoo suddenly remembered the main reason why he was here so he quickly looked up at Jeonghan and asked, "By the way, the thing you said on the phone earlier.."

Jeonghan leaned back on the couch as he sighed while looked at Jisoo, "Didnt Hoshi tell you anything?"

Jisoo eyebrows furrowed toward Jeonghan as he shook his head and said, "He didnt- no, wait. He did called me a few times but I wasnt there to pick it up. Why..?"

Jisoo was very nervous when he saw Jeonghan as he just randomly blurt out anything that came out from his mouth, "I-I went to Yeeun's house just now a-and um there was no one. I just thought that maybe I could see her.."

Jeonghan sighed again. He was about to open up his mouth but close it back when he was still debating with his mind either to tell or not. Jeonghan then looked up at Jisoo as he slowly mumbled, "Hoshi.."

Jisoo strangely looked at Jeonghan as he asked, "Whats wrong with Hoshi?"

Jeonghan looked down on the carpet as he played with the can of cake, on the table while he slowly muttered, "You need to meet Hoshi if you want to know what I mean earlier."

Jeonghan then got up from his seat and was about to walk toward the kitchen to throw out some trash when Jisoo quickly asked, "W-Why Hoshi..?"

Jeonghan turned around and answered, "Because he was there. For Yeeun."

Jisoo was speechless when he heard Jeonghan. His heart hurt when Jeonghan said that. He didnt understand nor even he could understand it, not unless he meet Hoshi. He dont even know what Jeonghan mean by meeting Hoshi will solve his problem, but he trust Jeonghan. He also trust Hoshi.

So Jisoo got up from the couch and walked toward the front door before Jeonghan called out for him which made him stopped.

Jisoo turned around and looked at Jeonghan who already leaned on the wall while facing him.

Jeonghan then walked towards Jisoo. Jisoo furrowed his eyebrows toward Jeonghan when he saw the other gave him a guilty and pity look.

"Jisoo.. just remember. When you heard the news from Hoshi, please.. stay strong. We all will always here for you.", Jeonghan said while gave a light pat on Jisoo's shoulder while smile.

Jisoo just nodded and shrugged it off as he thought maybe it was just a simple advice.

••••

"Hoshi??"

Jisoo was now in front of Hoshi's house as he was now knocking on the other's door, patiently waiting for the. other to come out.

"Hoshi? Are you there?", Jisoo asked while he patiently knocked on the door.

He sighed after a few knocks and theres still no answer from the inside. He was about to walk away from the house but turned back around when the thought of Yeeun reached his mind.

"Hosh-", Jisoo was about to knock on the door again but abruptly stopped when Hoshi's face finally showed up right when the door wide opened.

"Hoshi.", Jisoo said as he was happy when he saw his childhood friend after few months.

"I miss yo-"

"What are you doing here?", Hoshi coldly asked as he cut Jisoo's words and blankly looked at him.

Jisoo sighed when he received such a cold treatment from his own childhood friend. Jisoo tried to created a nice smile toward Hoshi.

"Hoshi, actually.. I want to ask you about-"

"about Yeeun?", Hoshi said and this time he looked straight into Jisoo's eyes.

Jisoo nervously nodded and he also looked at Hoshi, asking for answer.

"Why dont you just go to her house?", Hoshi said, sarcastically.

Jisoo just shook his head and innocently replied, "I already did and there was no one. So um I just want to ask you.. do you know where Yeeun is?"

Jisoo patiently waited for the right answer as he kept looking at Hoshi but Hoshi just gave him a dark chuckle as he looked up at Jisoo and glared at him.

"Youre too late, Jisoo.", Hoshi said then attempted to close the door but failed as Jisoo immediately put his leg between the door, stopped Hoshi from closing it.

"W-What do you mean..?", Jisoo tremblingly asked as his eyes looked straight into Hoshi's.

"I said, you are too late, Jisoo-"

"What do you mean?!", Jisoo lost his patient as he screamed loudly, asking Hoshi what does he mean by what he just said. Jisoo eyes were now red. Tears were threatening to fall but he tried his best to hold it.

Hoshi sighed as he slowly looked at Jisoo. He then let the door opened and stood in front of Jisoo.

Jisoo clenched his fist as he really couldnt bear with the bad feelings that approached him the moment Hoshi said that it was too late for him.

Hoshi sighed again and this time he sadly looked at Jisoo. Jisoo nervously looked at Hoshi, waiting for his next words.

Hoshi was debating with his mind as either to tell the other or not. Hoshi turned away then looked back at Jisoo. His heart fell when he watched Jisoo's broken state.

He knew Jisoo for a long time and this was the first time he ever saw Jisoo in such a broken state. The Hong Jisoo who was known for his perfectionist and meticulous self, were now the clumsy one and didnt even care for anything except this one girl, named Han Yeeun. The girl that all of the boys (the other members and himself) loves and cares so much.

But Hoshi has known this for a very long time, that among the boys, Hong Jisoo is the only guy that has developed a very special feeling towards Han Yeeun. A different feeling that they didnt have towards Yeeun.

So Hoshi has decided. He needs to know.

Hoshi let out a sigh as his own mouth couldnt bear to say the words. Memories of him sending her away just like that, really made his heart broke into pieces. But he know, he couldnt do anything. That was her fate.

"Jisoo..", Hoshi sadly mumbled while bit his bottom lip. He averted his eyes from Jisoo's.

Jisoo was still there, patiently waiting for the other next words.

Hoshi calmly put himself together as he looked up at Jisoo and lowly muttered, "Jisoo.. Yeeun is.. she.."

Hoshi looked away when Jisoo's eager eyes were piercing into him as the other showed how desperate he was this time.

Hoshi sighed then looked up at Jisoo again. But this time he was ready to tell him. He clenched his fist tightly as he said, "Shes gone, Jisoo. Shes gone."

Jisoo eyes were now wide opened when he heard the unexpected news. He stumbled on his feet as he slowly backed away from Hoshi while mumbled, "W-What.."

Hoshi just could give him a sad look as the truth has been spoken and he couldnt do anything to change it.

Jisoo shook his head variously while he looked up at Hoshi as he darkly chuckled, "N-No.. no no, youre joking, right?"

Hoshi's heart fell at the other words as he was sure that Jisoo still couldnt accept the truth.

"No, Jisoo.. I'm not joking.", Hoshi sadly mumbled as his voice was sinking, feeling sad for the situation that both of his beloved friends must went through.

Jisoo shook his head again, but this time he shook his head in anger. His eyes were piercing into Hoshi's as he shouted, "No! You are lying!"

Hoshi bit his lip tighter as he shook his head again, while answered, "I'm not lying, Jisoo. Shes gone."

Jisoo groaned as he ran towards Hoshi and grabbed the other collars, almost choking the other as he shouted, "Stop lying! You are lying!"

Hoshi shook his head again and again as he truthfully and painfully mumbled, "No, Jisoo. I'm not lying.. Shes gone, Jisoo. She had left us."

Hoshi immediately closed his eyes when he saw Jisoo was about to punch him. But weirdly, there was no painful impact on his face, instead he heard someone's sobbing right below him as the tighten grip on his collar was now loosen.

Hoshi slowly opened his eyes and his heart fell the moment he saw his own bestfriend, was now looking down on the ground as he was tightly gripped on Hoshi's shirt and trying so hard to not fall as it was very hard for him to get balance of himself.

"S-Stop.. you are lying.. y-you are lying..", Jisoo mumbled as he tightly gripped on Hoshi's shirt while looked down on his feet, trying so hard to hide his tears.

"I'm sorry, Jisoo.. I'm not lying.. Shes gone, she had left us.. shes gone..", Hoshi muttered as he touched both of Jisoo's arms and gently pulled him up, let the other facing him.

".... she has gone to Canada."

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