(im sorry in advance ;-;)

Han Yeeun

One month later

The sound of birds were chirping, the sound of leaves were waving, the sound of kids were laughing, the sound of cars were rushing; it were all so calm.

A smile plastered on Yeeun's face as soon as she heard a familiar voice was calling for her from her right side. She didnt bother to turn as she knew who was it.

She chuckled when she heard his footsteps were coming closer as he was nagging at her, nonstop.

"Han Yeeun! What do you think you are doing, miss? Geez, Ive searched for you everywhere! And here you are?? How did you made it up here tho? You made me worried for nothing!"

Yeeun chuckled when she heard that and replied afterwards, "Geez, Hansol. Its not like I got kidnap or something."

Hansol took a seat beside her as he let out a deep sigh. He sound very worried.

Geez, now I feel bad..

"How can I not worried.. you even left your important thing behind..", Hansol sadly mumbled and sighed again.

"What? You?", she asked teasingly with a naughty smile.

"W-What? N-No! I-I mean y-your- anyway, I'm not talking about m-me!", Hansol replied which Yeeun know for sure, that the other was blushing at the moment.

"Hehe, you are cute, Hansol.", she said while chuckled then gave him a bright smile afterwards.

Hansol who was captivated by the girl's smile, quickly turned his head away as he was too shy to look at her.

"P-People didnt call a guy cute, Yeeun.", Hansol answered while his face was turning into a brighter red which was opposite from what he just said.

"Um sorry then?", she said then laughed afterwards when she heard Hansol was whining, unsatisfied with her behavior.

Yeeun smiled as she turned her head towards her calm surrounding.

"I love this. This calm feeling. Its feel great.", she mumbled as she leaned back while her arms were supporting her weight and she looked up with her eyes shut close, paying more attention to her surrounding.

Hansol turned his head to looked at Yeeun. He silently watched her as she was too immersed with her surrounding.

Yeeun who sensed that someone was intensely gazing her, quickly turned her head towards Hansol which caught Hansol off guard.

"Why are you staring at me? Is there something on my face?", Yeeun confusedly asked, as she was feeling insecure with her features now because Hansol kept staring at her.

Hansol chuckled as he slowly shook his head while teared his eyes from Yeeun and looked in front, "No no, youre perfect, Yeeun."

"Really?", Yeeun asked again as she was not very confident with Hansol's answer.

Hansol chuckled again then he nodded his head as an answer. But suddenly, Yeeun kept asking him again.

"Hey, Hansol. I'm asking you. Is there something wrong with my face?", Yeeun asked again while still facing towards Hansol.

"Geez, didnt I just-", Hansol's voice automatically stuck in his throat as he just remembered something. His eyebrows furrowed towards Yeeun as he clenched his fists, painful expression was plastered on his face as guilty feeling was flood into him.

"Hey, Hansol. I'm asking you right now. Why didnt you answer me?", Yeeun patiently waited for Hansol's answer as she blankly faced the other while touched her cheeks multiple times, worried if there really something on it.

A fake and sad smile appeared on Hansol's face as he put his hand on Yeeun's right cheek and answered, "Theres nothing wrong with your face, Yeeun. You are beautiful, as always."

Hansol's eyes were locked on Yeeun's pale face as he bit his lips, was about to break down. Thankfully, Yeeun's smile saved him.

Yeeun smiled brightly right after she heard him and teasingly pushed him away as she replied, "Geez, go away, you flirtatious american guy."

Hansol laughed when he heard Yeeun as he quickly put his hand down and faking an angry tone while said, "Hey, didnt I warned you to not call me that again?"

Yeeun just laughed as a reply. Then, both of them fell into a complete silent.

Yeeun calmly smiled as she looked up at the sky and asked, "So.. what did the doctor said..?"

Hansol bit his lip tighter when he heard Yeeun's question. He quickly turned his head to the other way as he couldnt bear to look at the girl beside him, who was smiling innocently and brightly eventho she knew the answer of her own question.

Yeeun turned to faced Hansol as she held Hansol's hand tightly while gave him a comfort smile, "Hey.. its alright. You can tell me."

Hansol turned his head to looked at Yeeun and as he thought, he couldnt bear it, he got mixed feelings about this.

He didnt understand on why would God be so cruel towards this kind-hearted girl as she deserves better, than this difficult hurdle and obstacle that she will have to face it in future.

"Hey, Hansol.. its okay. I'm ready to hear it.", Yeeun tried to comfort Hansol as she thought that maybe this was too much for him to handle after one month he had been taking care of her.

Hansol slowly shook his head and held Yeeun's hand tighter as he sadly and painfully explained, "The doctor said.. you were lucky. Youve been suffering from an ischemic stroke. B-But dont worry, if an area in the brain is ischemic, meaning it is injured but not dead, there may be some recovery of function. S-So.. don't worry, Yeeun. You will be okay. Trust me, its going to be okay."

Hansol slowly looked up as he was too afraid of Yeeun's reaction but what he saw after really broke his heart into pieces.

"Oh, I see!", was what Yeeun just said, calmly with a smile still plastered on her face.

Then she slowly closed her eyes. While looking up, she breathed in the cold air and let it out softly, acting like she doesnt care about the news at all. But deep down in her heart, she was painfully hurt by the news.

"What about the side-affect? Will it remain like this or is there any chance that it can be heal?", Yeeun carefully asked as she nervously waiting for Hansol's answer.

Hansol turned to look at Yeeun but turned his head back as he closed his eyes and anxiously answered, "I-I dont know.."

Yeeun nodded her head with a small smile as she sadly replied, "I got it."

Yeeun then quickly stood up as she stretched her arms above her head and joyfully turned to look at Hansol as she said, "Well then! Now, I feel like shopping some food!"

Hansol who at first was startled by Yeeun's action, also stood up while smile and said, "Shopping is not for food, Yeeun."

Yeeun laughed as she replied, "Well, to be honest, I only shopping for food."

Yeeun then turned around and was about to walk away but unfortunately, she was almost tripped on her way but thankfully, Hansol was there beside her and safely caught her.

"Be careful!", Hansol said in high tone as he was surprised by the sudden fall as his arms were tightly wrapped around Yeeun's waist.

Yeeun who also surprised, quickly loosen Hansol's arms from her waist as she tremblingly said, "I-I'm okay. Its okay, I can do this by my own."

"Then, at least please use your-"

"No!!- I-I'm sorry.., Its okay. I'm okay.", Yeeun harshly interrupted Hansol's words as she then apologized as she didnt meant to scolded him.

"Yeeun..", Hansol mumbled as he was very worried of her but Yeeun insisted as she steadily stood up and granted the other a small smile while said, "Its alright. I'm okay."

She then quickly walked pass him as she shouted, "Come on, Hansol! I'm so hungry!"

Hansol sighed as he shook his head in disbelief while looked up with a small smile and shouted back, "I'm coming!"

•••••

"Is this making any sense to you?! How could they sell 2.10 dollar only for one plate of tteobeokki?? That was so expensive!", Yeeun complained as she stomped her feet out from the restaurant that they just walked into ten minutes ago.

Hansol who was watching her all these times, finally burst into laugh as he covered his mouth while uttered, "Well, it was rare to find Korean food here in, Canada. So that's why the price was a bit higher than one in Korea."

Yeeun pouted as she turned back toward the restaurant and determinedly exclaimed, "I'm so gonna send complain about this! They certainly use food for an improper purpose!"

Hansol laughed again as he looked at Yeeun who was still looked furious as he said, "It was just a tteobeokki tho, Yeeun. Arent you being too mad now?"

Yeeun sighed as she sadly mumbled while looked up at the restaurant's hangul signboard, "But.. I just missed Korean food so much. Ive craved for them for so long now.."

Hansol silently watched Yeeun's sad face as she intensely stared at the restaurant. Hansol smiled as he grabbed Yeeun's arm and dragged her away from the restaurant.

"Hansol! What are you doing?!", Yeeun asked as she was shocked by Hansol's sudden action.

Hansol then gently pushed Yeeun so that she was sitting on one of the benches that being put along the street. He gave Yeeun a big smile as he said, "Stay put! I'll be back!"

"Huh? W-Wait, Hansol!", but before she could even stop him, he already walked away from her.

She sighed as she obediently listened to Hansol's words and stayed in her place as she waited for him to come back.

As she was again, hearing the busy city sounds that surround her.., she unexpectedly heard a kid was crying not too far from her spot. She was shocked as she clearly heard that kid was crying even louder but no one has even any interest to approach the crying kid and ask what was wrong.

She then quickly stood up and followed the kid's cries as she nervously walked through the big crowds. She kept saying sorry as she kept bumping onto someone, over and over.

When she was sure that the kid was there right in front of her, she slowly bent down in front of the kid and gently patted the kid's hair as she asked, "Hey, shh. Its okay. Dont be afraid. Did you get lost?"

The kid nodded as his muffled voice replied, "I want Mama.."

Yeeun gave the kid a smile as she gently wiped the kid's tears and softly said, "Okay. Dont worry. I will help you find your Mama, okay?"

The kid looked up as he cutely wiped his tears and brightly looked at Yeeun and said, "Really..?"

Yeeun gave the kid a bright smile and nodded, "Really. What is your name?"

"Josh.", the kid replied.

Yeeun bit her lips as the name of the kid has reminded her of someone she knew back then. Yeeun then nodded again and said, "Okay, Josh. Lets go find your Mama."

Yeeun held the kid's hand as she stood up and walked beside the kid while she asked, "How do your mother look like, Josh?"

The kid looked up while walking hand-in-hand with Yeeun as he answered, "She is so pretty!"

Yeeun chuckled when she heard the kid's reply as she asked again, "Then.. what is the color of dress she wear today? Is it blue?"

The kid shook his head as he determinedly answered, "No, no. Its yellow!"

She nodded with a smile then replied, "I see. Um then, do you see her somewhere around this place?"

The kid sadly shook his head as he softly answered, "No.."

They both walked further and further, trying very hard to find the kid's mother in the big crowds. But still there was no sign of the mother.

Yeeun was tripped again on her step as she accidentally fell on the ground.

"O-Oh! Are you okay..?", The kid asked as he was shocked by Yeeun's sudden fall.

Yeeun turned to look at him as she nodded her head with a comfort smile and stood up again while said, "I'm okay. Lets continue."

The kid nodded with a smile as he felt relief. They then continued searching for his mother as both of them grew tired afterwards.

Yeeun know that the kid was feeling down and down as he still didnt meet his mother. When he was about to break into tears again, suddenly they both heard someone was calling from behind. Both of them turned around at the same time.

"Josh!"

"Mama!!", The kid screamed as he was too happy to finally met his mother as he quickly ran into his mother's arms.

"Oh my god, I thought you were kidnap or something! I thought I was gonna lose you! Where did you go?!", The woman said as she tightly hugged her kid, like she isnt going to let him go ever again.

"I'm sorry, Mama. I was just playing around and I got lost after. I was so scared, Mama.", The kid confessed and returned the hug while snuggled into his mother's chest.

The woman patted her kid's head as she replied, "Its okay now. I'm here. Next time, dont ever let go of my hand, okay?"

The kid nodded as a reply. He then remembered something and walked back towards Yeeun while pulled his mother along the way.

"Mama, this sister was the one who helped me to find you!", The kid said while hugged Yeeun's leg since he was so small to begin with.

The woman then held Yeeun's hand tightly as she conveyed her grateful feelings, "Thank you! Thank you so much for helping my son! You are such a kind girl! I am so sorry for troubling you!"

Yeeun who was shocked by the sudden touch quickly shook her head multiple times as she replied, "No, no! Its okay! I dont really do anything.. I'm already glad that he found you."

She thanked Yeeun multiple times as Yeeun also welcomed her multiple times. Then, they both left after a warm hug from the kid, Josh. She smiled while waved them a goodbye. She then stopped waving when she was sure that both of them were already gone.

She then just blankly looked in front as she felt weird feeling inside. But then, she took to ignored it.

She turned around with a smile and her smile automatically fell as she just realised that this time.. she was the one who got lost in this foreign big city.

"Oh my god, now what should I do? I dont have a phone with me right now..", Yeeun mumbled as she was very flustered with her current situation.

She groped for her wallet as she checked the amount of the money that she got inside the wallet but to her disappointment, it was too little for getting a cab. She sighed as she put back her wallet into her jean's pocket. She then just carefully and nervously walked along the street that was no longer busy as it was before.

She tightly held her hands together as she walked while looked down on her feet, afraid of meeting eyes with strangers.

"Hansol must be worried for me now..", Yeeun mumbled to herself as she was now feeling guilty towards Hansol. She was supposed to waited for him but instead, she.. ugh.

As she was walking to who knows where, she accidently bumped onto someone.

"Ouch, I-I'm sorry..", Yeeun softly mumbled as she was scared that she might bumped onto someone who violent or maybe drunk, who knows who.

She then quickly walked pass the guy as what she thought was important that moment was that she need to save for her life first before anything terrible happen to her.

"W-Wait!", The guy that she bumped onto earlier shouted.

She didnt stop as she thought that the guy maybe one of the guy who she thought before; a gangster or maybe a drunkard as he suddenly called for her.

"W-Wait! Stop!", The guy shouted again and this time the guy managed to stopped her by taking a tight hold on her arm.

She was too scared that time as she accidently used her country language while she shouted, "W-What do you want from me?! I dont know you! Please let me go!"

The guy was silent but he was still holding Yeeun's arm tightly like he wont ever let her go. Yeeun was so scared as she didnt know what the guy want from him. She was hoping that he could just let her go.

"Yeeun-ah.. dont you recognize me..?", The guy suddenly spoke up which made Yeeun looked up at the guy in shocked. He's a korean?

Yeeun was bewildered as the guy knew her name which made her more shaking than she already did. Yeeun nervously asked as she looked up at the guy and said, "I-I dont know you. I'm sorry but can you please let me go? I'm begging you. I'm sorry if what I did earlier made you angry. It was not on purpose. I'm so sorry."

The guy was in silent again.

Yeeun took the chance when she felt the guy grip on her arm loosen. She smacked the guy's hand away and quickly turned around to run away but immediately stopped when the guy said something afterwards.

"Yeeun-ah.. I miss you.. so much..", The guy said as he sadly smiled while looked at Yeeun.

Yeeun slowly turned around as she confusedly faced the guy back. She then nervously asked, "W-Who are you..?"

The guy didnt reply instead he walked towards Yeeun and gave Yeeun a tight hug which took Yeeun by surprised.

"W-Wait.. L-Let me go!", Yeeun said as it was too weird for her to hugged someone that she didnt know; a complete stranger.

"Yeeun-ah, what has happened to you? Why cant you recognise me..?", The guy mumbled painfully as he tighten his hug around her. He missed this. Too much.

Yeeun's eyes were widely opened as she used all her strength to push the guy away and when she succeed, she quickly asked, "W-Who are you? H-How did you know my name?"

The guy's heart fell at Yeeun's words. Like he was possessed by something, he then quickly touched both Yeeun's cheeks and pulled her face up to looked at him since she kept looking at the wrong way before which made him feel irritated. He then said, "Look at me carefully, Yeeun-ah! Can you recognise me now??"

Yeeun who was so shocked by the guy's action tried to push the guy's hands away from her face but failed.

"Yeeun-ah! Han Yeeun! Please! P-Please.. dont do this.., you recognise me..right?", The guy suddenly said with broken and painful tone which made Yeeun surprised.

Yeeun suddenly remembered something at the moment.

This scent.. This warm.. I know them..

Yeeun slowly closed her eyes as she finally realised who the guy was. It was only him who would call her like that.

She knew him very well. She once, would do anything for him. Even waiting for him for years, was nothing for her. She was willing to do that before. She was willing to do anything to meet and see him before. Her childhood friend and one and only person, she loved before, Hong Jisoo.

But now..

Yeeun slowly opened her eyes as she harshly smacked his hands away. She then took a step backward as she coldly mumbled, "I dont know you. I'm sorry."

"Yeeun-ah.. please..", Jisoo pleaded as he was really hoping that she was just joking but what hurt him and made him scared was.. shes serious. Very serious.

"I'm sorry. I dont know you. Please leave me alone.", Yeeun coldly said as she quickly turned around and walked away from Jisoo.

As she was walking and walking, suddenly Jisoo shouted for her but she just ignored him as what she wanted to do the most now, was avoiding him.

Jisoo kept shouting and calling for her but she kept on ignoring him.

Suddenly, there was a bright light brighten up before her. A loud honk being pushed on the steering, multiple times as warn for her to move out of the way. Yeeun was surprised as what she could only do was standing on her spot; froze.

"W-What.."

"Yeeun-ah!!", Jisoo shouted and he quickly grabbed her arm from behind and spun her around and they both fell on the ground after.

The owner of the vehicle who was about to crash over Yeeun stopped his car and shouted from his window before drove away, "Hey! Are you blind?! Look where youre going! Ugh!"

Jisoo let out a sigh as he was relief that Yeeun didnt get knock over by the car. Then he quickly checked on Yeeun who remained silent since then.

"Yeeun-ah, are you okay?? Are you hurt?", Jisoo asked as she checked on her.

Yeeun quickly smacked his hands away and trembling stood up as she was still shocked by what just happened. Yeeun then walked pass him and stopped when Jisoo suddenly grabbed her arm again.

"Han Yeeun!", Jisoo shouted.

"Let me go!", Yeeun shouted back.

"No! What are you doing?! Are you trying to kill yourself again?! Why did you want to cross the road again?! Cant you see the red light is on?!", Jisoo scolded Yeeun as he thought what Yeeun was doing right now was a reckless act.

"YES! I cant see the red light! I cant see the car! I cant see you! I cant see anything!!", Yeeun finally exploded as she glared at Jisoo who was now shocked by her sudden anger words.

"W-What do you mean.."

"Didnt you heard what the man earlier said? He said I am blind!", Yeeun said in high tone as she finally, told him about her truth condition.

"W-What..", Jisoo was still in complete confused situation as he still didnt get what Yeeun was trying to say.

Yeeun suddenly looked down on the ground as her palms slowly curled into fists. She was trying to prevent tears flow out from her eyes. Not in front of him. Not again.

"I hate this. Why would I suffer like this.. What did I do so bad that God gave me this blindness..? I-I.. want to see the world again.., I want see my family's faces again.. I want to see my friends' faces again.. I-I want to see my beloved person's face again.., I-I want to see them all again..", Yeeun mumbled while bit her lips, frustrated with her current state.

Jisoo's eyes widen as he was too surprised by the news.

"You know how frustrating it is when you kept bumping onto people and things or keep falling like an idiot? I had enough people kept asking "Are you blind?!" Yes! I am blind! I AM BLIND! I AM FUCKING BLIND! So what?! Its not like I asked for this! I didnt ask for this! I-I really.. didnt ask for this... I want to see.. I want to see.. Please, I keep praying all day that this was just one of that long dream. Every morning, I woke up and keep wishing that this dream is still playing.

Do you know how scared I am when I woke up every morning but all I see was nothing? It was like.. I'm having a nightmare and never wake up from it. It was scary. Do you know how nervous I was to actually do something but dont really sure if I did the right thing? It was hopeless. Useless.

I dont want this. I dont even want this! Not even a single day, I am happy to be blind! I want to do something nice too.. I want to help people too.. but.. how can I do that if I'm blind? Thats bullshit! The same with the kid earlier too. I wanted to help him.. but instead, I dont really do anything to help him at all.. I am no good after all..", Yeeun sniffed as she still forced herself to not cry.

"Y-You know.. how frustrating it is.. if you cant see the beautifulness of the world ever again? I.. cant even see the gratitude that other people gave to me after what I've done towards them.. the smiles that they gave to me.., the happy expressions.. I cant even see the faces of the new person that I met for the first time today.. I-I want to remember.. I want to always cherish everything that I see in my memories.. s-so that it will last long till I become old..", Yeeun said as her voice cracked as she was already tearing up.

"B-But now.. n-now.. I cant even see a thing.. I cant even see anything! How could I even have the chance to cherish every moment that I went through?! How would I even have the chance to always remember the things that I do after this?! I cant even write a letter to you anymore, Jisoo- ah..

I feel like I have n-nothing anymore.. I feel like its useless to live now.. My world is now a complete dark and blank! How do you expect me to live anymore?!", Yeeun said out loud as she let out all her pains at the moment. How she actually felt all these times.

Yeeun was shocked when Jisoo suddenly hugged her afterwards.

"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.", Jisoo mumbled while hugged Yeeun tighter and closer. His eyes tightly closed as he could feel and understand what Yeeun was feeling right now.

"You still have me, Yeeun-ah.. You still have me. I will never and ever leave you, ever again. Please.. dont be scare.", Jisoo said as he tighten his hug around her. He snuggled his face in the crook of Yeeun's neck as he pulled Yeeun's much tighter onto his chest; like he was afraid to let go.

Yeeun's eyes were wide opened as she was shocked by Jisoo's sudden action and words. Her gaze finally soften as she finally broke down.

Her tears finally flowed out from her eyes as she was now crying miserably in Jisoo's arms.

"Jisoo-ah.. I'm s-scared.. I am very scared.."

+well let me explain something

» A stroke, lesion, or injury to the right side of the brain would cause loss of the left visual field of each eye, and an injury to the left side of the brain would cause loss of the right visual field of each eye.

An example of an injury to the right side of the brain, causing
loss, or unawareness, of the left visual field.

Depending on precisely where in the brain these strokes, lesions, or injuries occur, the effect can involve a smaller or larger area of the visual field and can affect either central (or straight-ahead) vision, peripheral (or side) vision, or both. Multiple strokes or lesions can cause multiple patterns of visual field loss.

* Based on the function provided by the area of the brain involved in a stroke (muscle movement, speech, sense of touch, or sight), a stroke can result in loss of certain normal function:

If an area in the brain is ischemic, meaning it is injured but not dead, there may be some recovery of function. «