Alert : long chapter ahead. Bear with me c;

Han Yeeun's point view

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"W-Where.. am I?"

I look around and surprisingly, I'm in the middle of street and theres no even one person nearby.

W-Where is this place?

Suddenly, theres a familiar voice called for me.

"Yeeun-ah!"

I turned to my left side and I saw..

H-Hong Jisoo?!

My eyes widen when I saw his perfect figure was waving at me with his always bright smile.

I tried to pinch myself and unexpectedly, its hurt.

What is this? Is this for real..? Jisoo is smiling towards me..?

"Aish! Why arent you answering? I'm calling for you pabbo.", Jisoo said out loud then chuckled.

I gasped.

This is real. Hong Jisoo that I know since kids,.. the Hong Jisoo that always tease me yet care for me, my childhood friend... is back.

"W-What are you doing here..?", I asked with a curious tone and still amazed with this situation.

"I'm waiting for my one and only bestfriend of course.", He said and gave me a charming smile.

"M-Me..?", I asked, unbelievable.

He nodded and showed his white teeth like an innocent kid he is.

"Come on, Yeeun-ah. Grab my hand.", He said and put his hand out for me while smiling brightly towards me.

I am so happy until my eyes feel warm because of tears suddenly appeared in my eyes. A happy tears.

Jisoo-ah..

I gave him a smile back. I reached out my hand towards him and wanted to walk forward but... failed.

My feet wont move.

My eyebrows crooked then I looked down and saw.. my feet were glued on the road with blood around my feet.

"W-What is this-"

I quickly looked up and saw Jisoo was standing at the same place but without a smile.

He look gloomy and cold.

I looked beside him and I saw..

"S-Sojin?", I said in shaking voice and my whole body started to feel weak.

I saw Sojin put her arm around Jisoo's waist and smirked.

N-No.. w-what is happening..

Suddenly, Jisoo looked up at me and gave me a cold glare.

"You sly! Go away from my life! DISAPPEAR!!", He shouted angrily and looked at me in disgusted look.

"J-Jisoo-ah..", I said with tears came out from my eyes.

"Dont say my name! Disappear!! I'm not your friend anymore! We will never be friend anymore! I hate you, Han Yeeun!!", He said angrily while pointed his index finger towards me.

N-No.. dont..

After that, Jisoo turned around and walked away with Sojin beside him.

Slowly, he was walking further and further away from me.

"Jisoo! J-Jisoo-ah! Dont go! Please!! Let me explain! Dont go!! D-Dont go! Please.. dont go..", I shouted for him while crying miserably but he ignored me.

No.. n-no.. please...

I tried to move my feet but it just wont move.

I tried and tried again as I stared at Jisoo's figure that slowly become far for me to reach.

"No.. no..!", I got mad at myself and tried to move my feet again and again.

I bent down and held my legs to pulled it up but it just wont work.

"Jisoo-ah!! Hong Jisoo!! D-Dont leave me! Dont leave me alone!", I shouted for Jisoo again and again but he ignored me and didnt even take a glance at me.

"Jisoo!! Hong Jisoo!", I called for him while tears streamed down on my face.

I tried to moved forward but my feet still stuck on the road with red blood all around it.

W-What is this..?! Why am I in this situation?!

"N-No.. no.. Jisoo... d-dont leave me.. Jisoo..", I said in weak voice as I looked at his back view while crying miserably.

Jisoo...

SUDDENLY, theres a bright light shine from my right side.

I turned around and saw...

PINNNNN !!!!!

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I immediately opened my eyes as I could feel my heart was beating really fast right now and sweats already formed on my forehead.

W-What is-
... it was a dream..?

I sat up and looked around.

This is my room..

I looked infront and saw a white paper on my desk.

Wait.. why did I fell asleep on my desk-

"Ah..", I sighed when I realized that I fell asleep right after I finished writing the letter.

I blankly stared at the letter on my desk as yesterday's incident flood in my mind.

Again, a sigh escaped my mouth.

Jisoo...

I shook my head and quickly stood up from my seat. I grabbed a towel then went into the bathroom.

Lets just forget about it, Han Yeeun. For now..

*****

I went downstairs and have a silent breakfast with Mom right now.

I know that Mom already noticed that theres something wrong with me.

"Honey.. are you okay?", Mom asked with a worried look while looked at me.

I looked up at her and gave her a smile.

"I'm okay, Mom."

"Are you sure..?"

I answered her question with a nod then continue eating my breakfast.

I heard Mom sighed but I just could stay silent and ignored it.

I know that Mom is worry about me but I really cant tell her anything.

Moreover, how can I tell her about her bestfriend's son slapped her own daughter? Isnt that like adding more problem into my problems?

I sighed silently then took a glass of water and drank it.

"Urm.. sorry to trouble you Yeeun-ah.. but, can you buy some groceries for me later? I want to cook for dinner.", Mom said in cheer tone, maybe to lighten up the atmosphere between us.

I looked up and smiled, "Okay. What do you want me to buy?"

Mom smiled back and asked, "What do you want to eat for dinner tonight?"

Hmm..

"I dont know, Mom. Its up to you. I will eat everything that you cook.", I replied and chuckled a bit.

"Is omelet fried rice okay with you, honey?", Mom asked while gave me a bright smile.

I nodded with a smile.

"Okay then. Make sure that you come back home early today, arasseo?", Mom said in a fake strict tone then laughed.

I smiled while stared at her beautiful face.

"Okay, Mom."

*****

I went upstairs and walked into my room.

I walked towards the windows and opened them up. Automatically, a fresh morning breeze went in and that makes my heart calm a bit.

Suddenly, my phone rang; as notice that theres a message for me.

I grabbed my phone and sat on the edge of my bed.

I unlocked my phone and read the new message for me.

From : Hoshiii

Yeeun-ah, are you okay? I'm worried. I called you last night but you didnt pick up. Where were you?

I sighed while reading Hoshi's message.

Without hesitation, I sent him a reply.

To : Hoshiii

I'm okay, Hoshi. I just.. urm actually, last night I went to Jisoo's house to meet him. But.. urm haha he already asleep. So yeah. Dont worry, peanut. I'm okay ;b

I lied.

After that, I laid back on the bed and let out a sigh.

I'm not okay..

Suddenly, a new message came in.

Woah.. that was fast.

I unlocked my phone and read the new message.

From : Hoshiii

Shut up, you alien! I am not a peanut! Geez.. I'm glad that youre okay. Do take care a good care of yourself more. Or else.. I will just dump you in a whale mouth and you live in there with pinocchio's father, Geppeto! Hm!

I chuckled while reading Hoshi's childish message.

Geez, Hoshi.. really?

I locked my phone then threw it aside on my bed.

"Hmm.."

I look around then sighed. Why do I feel something is missing within me right now..

I wonder what did I do at free times like this.

I sat up and stared at my desk that is not too far away from my spot.

Should I write him a letter..?

"No, no. Why should I? He wont even read them tho.", I mumbled alone then lay back on the bed.

I turned my head and stared at my empty desk.

Hmm..

"Aish! Okay, okay. M-Maybe just last one..", After a few seconds of debating with my ego, I stood up and walked towards my desk.

I pulled out the chair and sat on it.

I took a blank paper and a pen. I stared at the blank letter and sighed.

"I am really so.. stupid.", I mumbled then sighed again.

I hold the pen and started writing a letter for Jisoo, my one and only childhood friend and the person I'm in love with.
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06 November 2015

Annyeong, Jisoo. Hmm.. well, I dont even know why did I still writing you this letter, but urm I hope you dont mind. Actually.. Ive been thinking all night and I think.. I really need to explain everything to you. That youve misunderstand everything. Its true that its hurted me for what you did last night but.. I dont mind.. :') I just want you to know the truth. Jisoo-ah.. I hope you will listen to me this time. I miss you, Hong Jisoo. ~Han Yeeun

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I sighed then put down my pen slowly.

What am I even doing..

"Yeeun-ah!! Here is the money for the groceries!", Suddenly I heard Mom shouted for me from downstairs.

"Okay, Mom!", I replied then stood up from my seat and walked out from my room.

*****

I walked into the market while pushed a trolley.

I looked around and looked back to the list of the groceries that I need to buy.

"Why is there so much things to buy tho? Geez, Mom..", I mumbled while walked along the raw stall and observed.

Eggs.. carrot.. urm..

"Han Yeeun...?"

I quickly turned around and saw..

"Hansol?! Hey, what are you doing here?", I asked with a glad voice.

Hansol approached me with a smile.

"Why? You dont like seeing me here?", Hansol joked.

Then, we started walking side by side while talking.

"Ani~ Its just.. weird. It seems like we were always meeting in unexpected places tho.", I said then chuckled.

I took some groceries that I need to buy into the trolley.

"I know right. Hahaha, but.. I like it tho..", Hansol said but he kinda mumbled for the last sentences.

"What again?", I asked without turning my head towards Hansol cuz I am so into the groceries.

I realized Hansol was staring at me so I turned my head and gave him a confused look.

"N-Nothing. Its nothing.", Hansol said in fluttered voice and quickly turned his head away.

Hmm.. o-okay..

"What are you buying?", I changed the topic and took a peek into his trolley.

Ramen..? and some snacks..?

"Ah.. nothing much. Just buying something for my dinner. I live alone and basically, I dont know how to cook.. so yeah.", Hansol shyly said and let out an awkward laugh.

Live alone? Eating ramen for dinner..??

"Hansol, then why dont you come and have a dinner at my house? My Mom will make an omelet fried rice for dinner tonight. You can join us tho.", I invited Hansol and gave him a smile.

"A-Are you serious?", Hansol asked while looked at me, shocked.

I chuckled then answered, "Of course, I am."

"Serious? I mean.. A-Are you okay with it?", Hansol asked again with unconfident voice while still looking at me.

I laughed and replied, "Yes and I am okay with it. Well, to be honest.. my Mom really love unexpected guests tho."

Hansol laughed then said, "Okay then. I will eat dinner at your house."

I nodded and smiled.

We both walked towards a counter to pay for our stuff when suddenly, Hansol stopped me by holding my arm.

I flinched because it was so sudden then turned my attention towards him.

"Wait. I need to put these ramens back to it place because I dont think I need it anymore right?", Hansol said it in a way too charming from my perspective and gave me a really captivate smile.

I just awkwardly nodded and chuckled when I saw Hansol already ran back to the ramen stall and put them back properly.

He ran back towards me and said excitedly, "Lets go!"

I chuckled then said, "Lets go."

*****

"Isnt it heavy?", Hansol asked while looked at me.

Now, both of us were walking along the street to where my house is.

I turned my head towards him and gave him a reassure smile.

"Ani. Its okay-"

Before I could finish my words, suddenly Hansol grabbed the groceries from my grips; without my willing.

My eyes widen while looked at him but he just gave me an innocent smile and simply walked ahead.

"W-Wait- Hansol, its okay I said.", I walked beside him and tried to grab the groceries from his hand but failed.

Hansol already changed it and hold it in his other hand.

I sighed then just let the matter go when I saw Hansol look really happy carrying the groceries.

I chuckled.

He is seriously weird.. geez

"Hansol, where did-"

Automatically my words stopped when I heard and saw two familiar figures not too far across me.

I literally froze on my spot.

Hansol also stopped and looked at me weirdly.

"Yeeun, are you okay?", Hansol asked and low his head to look at my face.

I dont know why but I just cant move my feet right now and my eyes already pinned on those two figures that are walking towards me. They still didnt realize my existence.

They look like they are not in good moods.

Hansol felt curious so he also turned his head towards the way that I stared at.

"Joshua! Hey, where do you think youre going?!"

Are they in bad terms..?

"Home."

"No! Listen! Hey!"

Sojin grabbed Jisoo's arm and both of them immediately stopped; right infront of me and Hansol.

"Y-Yeeun-ah..", Jisoo said my name right after he realize my existence.

J-Jisoo..

Sojin also look shocked yet disgraced with my existence when she saw me.

"What are you doing here?", Sojin asked in not very polite way.

She gave me a glare while Jisoo gave me a confused look.

"Well I-"

"Yeeun.", Hansol said my name while stood beside me with groceries in his hand then he turned his head to look at Jisoo.

I turned my head towards Hansol. Both Jisoo and Sojin also looked at Hansol.

"What? Your new boyfriend?", Sojin gave an unexpected lie while linked her arm with Jisoo's.

"W-What? N-No-", I wanted to deny Sojin's false statement but failed when I heard Jisoo said something.

"I thought so..", Jisoo mumbled and unexpectedly, he look kinda upset(?).

......hm?

"N-No, Jisoo-ah! He's a friend of mine. You know, the boy that saved me that I told you in my letter.", I explained and took a step forward.

"You never told me anything about that.", Jisoo said with an upset voice while looked at me.

Huh..?

"Didnt you get my letters?", I asked him curiously.

Jisoo's eyebrows crooked and he stared at me, weirdly.

"What do you mean? What letters-", Jisoo wanted to say more but Sojin suddenly step forward and glared at me.

"Yah! What do you want? Tch, is hurting me last night isnt enough for you?! What more do you want?!", Sojin scolded me while crossed her arms on her chest.

I clenched my fist as I felt very angry with her rude attitude.

I just ignored her and bring my focus back to Jisoo who look completely confused yet still upset.

"Jisoo-ah, listen. I need to explain to you what really happened last night. You have misunderstand the situation. Do you really believe that I will did something like that??", I said while try to walk close to Jisoo but Sojin didnt allowed me to.

"What?! Did you just accuse me by saying that I did it purposely? Like hurt myself purposely?! Are you out of your mind?!", Sojin suddenly exploded and she already glared at me like she wanted to kill me anytime.

"I didnt say anything like that. So why are you so hyped up? Tch, unless if you really did it like what you just said.", I said sarcastically and glared at her.

I cant believe that Jisoo actually believed her pathetic lies.

"WHAT?!!", Sojin said loudly while hang her hand in the air and ready to slap me but failed when Jisoo suddenly held her wrist.

I'm shocked. Sojin already look pissed off as if she will explode like anytime.

"Dont.", Jisoo said and put Sojin's hand down while looked at me.

I rolled my eyes secretly. I ignored her again and looked at Jisoo.

"Jisoo-ah, listen. I didnt do it. I didnt hurt this girl. And for the scene that you saw.. I slapped her because she bad-mouthing my parents.", I finally said the truth.

Jisoo looks shocked and so do Sojin.

Sojin already stepped back and linked her arm again with Jisoo's.

"N-No! Baby, listen! She hurted me! She slapped me because she didnt like me! She didnt like me in the first place! Why would I hurted myself?? Isnt that make me look like a really crazy girl?? Oh god, Joshua. Cant you see it?!She hate me! She just selfish!! She just think about her self! Look, she's lying okay? Joshua, she's lying-", Sojin still trying to covered up her mistakes but I quickly interrupted her.

"Jisoo-ah, you know how precious are my parents to me, dont you? Eventho they didnt really give much attentions towards me but still, they are my only parents that I have. You know that very well, dont you?", I explained more and this time, I braved myself to touched his hand.

This hand.. how I miss touching them. when we were kids.. this hand is the one that always hold mine. This hand is the one that always protect me no matter in what situation.

Jisoo flinched and he looked at me. Our eyes met.

I dont know why.. but I dont really know how to explain about Jisoo's gaze to me right now. Its.. mysterious and unreadable..

"N-No.. it cant be. Y-You are lying..", Jisoo finally spoke up and he stared into my eyes.

"Do I really look like that to you..?", I convinced him since I know that he knows me better than anyone else.

Jisoo looked at me. He looked into my eyes as deep as he can.

My heart beating goes wild when his eyes stared into mine like that.

Ohgod.. I really do love this guy.. so much..

Suddenly Jisoo shook his head.

Then he smacked my hand away from his.

"N-No.. youre lying..", Jisoo said then turned his head away.

"Jisoo-ah...", I softly called for him and looked at him deeply.

Please.. believe me. Please believe me this time..

"B-But.. Sojin wouldnt do that.", Jisoo exclaimed and he look flustered.

"And do you really think that I would do that?", I asked calmly eventho my heart already felt the pain at the moment when he backed up Sojin.

"N-No.. b-but-", Jisoo stuttered in his words.

Suddenly, Sojin did something that made my heart crashed.

Sojin pulled Jisoo's face towards hers and she.. kissed him.

W-What..

My eyes widen. Jisoo also look very shocked.

I quickly looked down, prevent to see their scene right infront of my eyes.

I dont know why but.. my eyes suddenly felt very teary.

N-No, Han Yeeun.. dont. Dont cry. Not infront of them. No..

I looked down while clenched my fist as I am mad at my own self because I'm easy to get weak and hurt when this kind of situation happened to me.

"Yeeun...", I heard Hansol said my name while wrapped his m around my shoulder, maybe he tried to comfort me.

W-Why.. just why.. did this always happened to me.. why just me.. why..

"S-Stop- Sojin, STOP IT!", Jisoo suddenly pushed Sojin away and scolded her.

Sojin shocked with Jisoo's action.

Jisoo angrily looked at Sojin, "What do you think you are doing?! Are you out of your mind?!"

Sojin flinched then she just stayed silent and backed away slowly.

I quickly wiped my tears secretly while still looking down.

"Y-Yeeun-ah..", Jisoo called my name while stretched his hand out to touch my hand but I quickly backed away.

"D-Dont..", I stuttered and looked up.

Jisoo look hurted but I ignored it cuz my heart hurts more than anything right now.

"I dont understand, Hong Jisoo.. w-why.. why cant you just give me a chance? W-Why.. why cant you just believe in me for once? W-Why...", I mumbled enough for Jisoo to heard.

My eyes started to get teary again but I held in. I cant cry.. not this time..

"Yeeun-ah.. Its not like that..", Jisoo said while gave me a guilty look.

"I! I-I.. dont ask for much, Jisoo. I just want you to believe in me for once, Jisoo. FOR ONCE! B-But.. why cant you? Do you really hate me that much?? Do I really doesnt deserve any kindness, or ANYTHING from you?? Am I really that... disgusting?", I said while looked at Jisoo with teary eyes.

"N-No! Youre not!", Jisoo exclaimed nervously and he really do look very guilty.

No, Han Yeeun.. you cant cry infront of him.. please dont..

"... and here I thought that.. we are bestfriends....", I said in low tone and after that, a tear escaped from my eyes.

You shouldnt cry, Han Yeeun.. you shouldnt..

Jisoo's eyes widen when he saw my tears. Now, all of us are speechless.

"You should believe me. I'm your bestfriend. You should give me a chance..", I said and bit my lip to stop my tears but failed.

I quickly turned around and wiped my tears.

I let out a sigh.

"Hansol, lets just go..", I said weakly then pulled Hansol's arm.

Hansol look confused but he still followed me.

"Yeeun-ah.. wait-", Jisoo tried to stop me but Sojin quickly pulled his arm.

I turned my head and looked at them.

"Baby..", Sojin whined while looked at Jisoo's face.

Jisoo took a glance at Sojin then he looked at me back.

I sighed then just shook my head slowly and gave him a sad smile.

I give up..

"Goodbye, Hong Jisoo. Thank you.. for everything.. you have done so much for me since we were kids. I do appreciated it. I missed it.. so much. Thank you..", I said for the last time and smile sadly.

"N-No, Yeeun-ah...wait-"

Jisoo tried to stop me again but failed when Sojin already gave him an uneasy look.

I quickly turned around and gave a hint to Hansol that saying we should really go.

Hansol nodded his head and gave me a reassure smile.

I replied his smile with a smile back.

Suddenly, I felt a sharp pain in my head.

"Ugh!", I whined hurt while holding my head.

My eyebrows already met together because of the pain is too much for me to handle.

"Yeeun! Are you okay?!", Hansol quickly grabbed my arm and helped me to stable myself.

I gave him a weak smile and mumbled a 'thank you'.

"Its okay. I'm just a little tired.", I answered then forced myself to walk properly eventho the sharp pain is still there, lingering in my head.

Hansol nodded worriedly and he just replied me with a small smile while carrying the groceries calmly.

*****

"Mom, I'm home."

I slowly took off my shoes and invited Hansol to come in too.

"Oh, you are back! What taking you so long- oh?", Mom stood infront both of us and looked at Hansol with a smile.

"Who is...?", Mom asked while looked at both me and Hansol.

"Mom, this is Hansol. The boy that saved me that I told you before. He will have dinner with us today.", I introduced Mom to Hansol while weakly walked towards the living room.

I sighed for no reason.

"Annyeonghaseyo, auntie.", Hansol greeted while bowed politely infront of Mom.

"Omo, please come in.", Mom invited Hansol to come inside which Hansol did.

"Auntie, here.. the groceries.", Hansol said while showed the groceries to Mom.

"Oh, yes yes. Thank you. Please have a seat.", Mom took the groceries with a bright smile and walked into the kitchen.

"Hansol, you can wait here. Urm I'm gonna go to my room for a minutes.", I said with a fake smile then went upstairs.

"Okay.", Hansol replied then sat on one of the couch.

I walked into my room. Then, I closed the door and locked it.

I lay my back against the door and slowly.. slide down.

I sat on the cold floor while hugged both my knees and bumped my forehead on it.

"... why..."

Again.. my tears flow down from my eyes while I hugged both my knees tightly.

"W-Why did this all happened to me... why...", I mumbled in tears.

This is hurt as hell.. god..

My tears keep flowing and I keep crying silently, so that Mom and Hansol couldnt hear it.

"W-Why cant Jisoo just give me a chance.. why... why did he changed so much...", I said in tears and sniffed a bit because of the tears.

I looked up and bumped my head onto the door.

I covered my face with both my hands.

S-Stop crying, Han Yeeun... this is so not like you.. p-please... stop it..

Eventho my inner thoughts keep pushing me to stop crying but... its just worthless.

I cant...

"I miss him so much.. yet! he did all of this to me.. Jisoo-ah.. I dont understand.. w-why.. why did you change so much?? I want my Hong Jisoo back.. the old Jisoo that always cared and loved me.. the Jisoo that will always give me his full attention.. the Hong Jisoo that.. ugh..", I stuttered and cant go on with my words as I keep crying and crying.

My voice cracked while crying miserably in my hands.

Ugh.. I hate this.. I really down want to cry again.. b-but..

".. am I really that childish in your eyes? I-Is wanting you to always look at me and smile for me.. is c-childish..?", I mumbled and wiped my tears off my face but worthless because I cant stop the tears from flowing again and again.

B-But.. that all is because..

"... I.. love you, J-Jisoo.. I-I love you.."

Tears already flow on my cheeks and between my fingers because I still covering my face while crying.

Is one-sided love really this painful..?

"Ugh.. I feel like dying..", I shakingly mumbled in tears.

I hate this feeling..

I put down my hands then took a glance at my desk.

After a few calculation, I decided to write Jisoo a letter. For the very last time..

I slowly stood up and shakingly walked towards my desk.

I pulled out the chair then slowly sat on it.

I took a blank paper and a pen.

I sighed then stared at the blank paper while crying softly.

My hand was shaking really bad but I still forced myself to start writing..

After a few minutes, I heard a knock from the outside of my room.

I put the letter away and stood up from my seat.

I quickly wiped my tears and took a deep breath before walked towards the door.

I touched the knob and opened the door.

"Oh, Hansol.", I said when I saw Hansol was standing infront of me right after I opened the door, wide.

"H-Hey. Urm.. its just.. you took a long time and I'm worried. Moreover, your mom who the one asked me to call for you.", Hansol explained and he kinda look fluttered.

"Yeeun-ah! Cone down! Dinner's ready!", Suddenly Mom loud voice echoed around the house.

I smiled weakly.

"Okay. Lets go.", I said in a weak voice and walked out from my room.

Hansol nodded with a smile and he followed me from behind.

When both of us arrived near the stairs, suddenly I started to feel the sharp pain again like what I felt earlier.

"U-Ugh...", I whined hurt and leaned onto the wall beside me and touched my head.

"Han Yeeun! Are you okay??", Hansol quickly ran towards me and held my arm tightly so that I didnt fall down.

I forced myself to smile at him and nodded my head, "I-I'm okay.."

Hansol gave me a worried look and asked again, "You sure??"

I fake a smile at him and politely pushed his hand away, "Hey, I'm okay. Its nothing, really."

I carefully took a step on the stairs, followed by Hansol from behind.

He still looks worried about me.

I tried to hold in the pain by myself. I hate being a burden to people.

I let out a sighed, relief when I safely arrived at the end of the stairs.

I looked up and saw Mom was arranging the plates on the dining table with the always bright smile plastered on her face.

I smiled weakly and wanted to walk towards her.

"M-Mom-"

But suddenly the sharp pain in my head getting stronger than before.

My vision started getting blur and I cant see anything clearly.

Ugh.. w-why..

Without any energy left in me, I unexpectedly fell down.

"Yeeun!", I heard Hansol voice from behind.

"Yeeun-ah! Oh my god, honey.. are you okay???", I heard Mom's worried voice echoed in my ears but I really dont have the strength to look up.

I tried to looked up and created a smile on my face but its just look as weak as the condition I am right now.

"M-Mom.. I'm o-oka-"

SUDDENLY, my throat felt a really sharp pain and I automatically vomit.

"Oh god.. n-no.. y-you are not okay!", Mom screamed and quickly bent down and touched both of my shoulders.

"Yeeun, lets go to the hospital!", Hansol also bent down and looked at me worryingly.

"H-Hey, guys.. I'm okay.. I'm n-not sick-", When I'm about to calm them, again.. the sharp pain appeared.

And.. again, I vomited for the second time.

But this time.. its bloods.

W-What..

I held up my hand and I saw bloods on it and also all around me.

N-No.. w-why is this happening to me.. w-why now...

Tears started forming again in my eyes.

Mom.. I'm sorry..

The pain in my head and my throat is really killing me right now.

And after that... my mind went blank.

My vision goes dark.

My world completely shut down.

And I.. fainted.

And the last words that I heard were.. familiar voices screaming out for my name..

"Yeeun-ah!!"

"Yeeun!!"

...

...

...

...

I gave up..

I cant do this anymore..

Lets put an end on this..

Hong Jisoo.. thank you for everything..

*****

-Throwback to Yeeun's last 50th letter-

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November 2015

Jisoo.. To, Hong Jisoo.. annyeong.
So.. this is my 50th letter for you, Jisoo.

Jisoo-ah.. I just wanted to thank you for everything that you have done for me since kids.

Thank you for taking a good cared of me.

Thank you for always be there for me.

Thank you for always making me smile.

Thank you also for always smiling for me.

Thank you for celebrating my birthday together.

Thank you for always playing with me when I'm alone or bored.

Thank you for everything..

and of course, thank you very much for being my bestfriend.. till now.

I missed you, Hong Jisoo.

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phew that was hard. okay i hope you enjoy it and sorry if its sucks cuz i made this asap and ofc sorry for any mistakes spelling and wrong grammars. i am truly deeply sorry.. anyway, thank you so much for reading this!

p/s : this is not the end. next chapter will be in jisoo's point of view and yesh, plot twist everywhere bruh. be ready.