26 September 2015

I dont even know why I'm still sending this letter to you. I am stupid afterall. Haha. ha..... sigh. Jisoo-ah, is our friendship will really end this way? Do you really want to end our friendship just because of that girl? Why Jisoo.. Anyway, Jisoo. I will just keep sending letters to you cuz.. that is the only way I can express about everything to you. I hope you read this letter. I missed you, Jisoo. ~Han Yeeun

29 September 2015

Jisoo.. today.. our friends came to my house. They were having fun as always but somehow.. I felt very empty. Theres no fun for me if theres no you, Jisoo. Remember when we were in 2nd grade, we played hide-and-seek in my house with the others? Hoshi caught all of them but failed to spot us ㅋㅋ We actually were hiding in the same place; in my closet. Hahaha if only you know how embarrassing am I that time when we were sitting together and sticked so close in the small closet. You look like you were having fun that time. You were smiling like an idiot when you heard Hoshi was calling while searching for us. That time.. I also smiled when I saw your smile. Hmm... I missed that moment~ Now.. you that ignoring me really hurted me so much, Jisoo. Please stop all this silent pain that you gave to me. Please Jisoo.. eventho youre right infront of me, eventho youre not far from me but Jisoo.. you seems too far for me to reach. Why.. ~Han Yeeun

13 October 2015

Jisoo-ah.. I felt so stupid today. Very stupid. But.. ha ha ha.. its too late, I guess. Too late. This pain is too much for me to handle. Too much, Hong Jisoo. Too much :') Just now, I walked towards your house; wanted to send my letters to you. But.. b-but.. I saw an unexpected scene right before my eyes. I saw.. y-you were k-kissing.. with your girlfriend. I.. Ha ha ha... o-of course that will happened. Gosh, whats wrong with me. She is your girlfriend afterall haha. O-Of course you guys can kiss whenever and wherever you guys want. Of course.. maybe you guys did that for thousand times already. Geez... heh whats wrong with me really. Whats wrong with me.. I... I dont know. I dont know what to do anymore. I'm confused. I'm.. in pain, Jisoo. I cant hide this feeling anymore. I cant. J-Just.. how I wish.. how I wish I can rewind the time back. How I wish I can reset all of this mess that happened between us. I dont understand why all of this happened to us, Jisoo. I dont understand. How? When? Why..? Sometimes I wonder,.. where the mistake is? Is it when you comeback to Korea? Or is it when the party day? Or.. is it when the time I let you go at the airport..? I feel like all of this mess happened is... because of me. Yeah, it is because of me. It is my fault. Eventho, I, as your friend shouldnt say this but.. if only I didnt let you go that time, then you wouldnt meet with your girlfriend right..? If only.., If only I confess my feeling earlier.. If only I didnt afraid to tell you that I.. actually have been in love with you for a long time ago. If only I, for once, try to be brave to tell you everything; about my feeling.. There are so many 'if' inside my head right now. I cant believe that I finally let out my tears for you, Jisoo. Haha I finally cried my heart out for you. For you that once was my bestfriend :') Am I too late, Jisoo..? Seeing you kissed that girl.. really killing me; very bad. I felt a sharp pain the moment I saw you with that girl. Jisoo-ah.. this is too painful for me. Too painful for me to handle. Please, Hong Jisoo.. I need you.. I want you back.. I.. I love you, Jisoo. How I wish what I just saw is just a nightmare. How I wish I can just wake up and realize that this is all just a dream. Just a dream.. b-but.. haha.. reality is reality right, Jisoo? Even how painful it is, reality is reality. I feel so stupid. How I wish that you will read this letter, one fine day. But.. hm I know that you wont :') I cant handle this. I need you, Jisoo. I need you with me right now.. ~Han Yeeun

*****STORY by; kimsyaz*****